Ti ritrovo in tutti i film che ami, in tutti i cantanti che ascolti, nei personaggi dei libri che leggi.

È come se prendessi le caratteristiche di ogni persona che stimi, come un bambino che non ha mai smesso di seguire il suo idolo, ma in modo più maturo.

Ti sei creato un personaggio, o sei davvero tu?

Non lo so, ma quando non ci sei, posso comunque viverti attraverso l’arte che mi hai lasciato. Posso guardare un film e rivederti nelle gestualità di un attore, posso ascoltare il tuo artista preferito e sentire le tue parole, posso leggere un libro e immaginarti accanto a me.

Sei ovunque. Hai lasciato parti di te ovunque. Non avevo mai conosciuto una persona come te. Riesci ad esserci, anche quando non vuoi.

okay sort of freaking out atm. i promised to go for a week long sailing trip with one of my friends and my parents. and we left today. and already i’ve counted that my calories have been about 1400-1800 for the day. and if that goes on for a whole week? i don’t want to gain weight and i’m already anxious about the amount of food that i’ve eaten today. but also my brain’s telling me that this is good for my body compared to the 700-900 kcal/day that i’ve eaten for a while now. ughhh. i hate, absolutely HATE, this illness

i hate being there for people who aren’t there for me. thanks for nothing.

One by one they stack,

each day lay heavier on my back.

Same movement, same emotion, same color,

each day just like the other. 

Inside I plead for change.

If only I could exchange,

for the passion I had when I was young,

this paralyzing plague of feeling numb. 

wir sagen

alles und nichts -

alles ist von bedeutung, nichts in bewegung

was sagen wir bloß?

wir tun

alles und nichts -

alles ist in bewegung, nichts von bedeutung

was tun wir bloß?

What don’t kill you makes you stronger, sure sounds like a lie. -Luke Combs

“As much as I may disagree with one’s opinion, Alexei Yagudin is entitled to his own opinion and preference. But wishing someone to die and making comments like he has is going so far over the line and absolutely unacceptable.”

Te dejé entrar, joder. Te dejé entrar y me destruiste por completo.

can you hug me? just hold me. no talking. please…

seni özlüyorum

I can’t stop fucking thinking about you

It hurts how much I miss you

“Teardrops dripping,

turn my face

where?

how?

why?

missing you..”

Me costó amor propio, paciencia y mucho dolor entender que solo me querías en tus ratos de soledad; que yo simplemente era un pasatiempo para ti mientras que yo por ti estaba dispuesta a darlo absolutamente todo.

Tener las ilusiones tan rotas que ya se asemejan a piezas de rompecabezas.

O nos sentimos perdidos, o nos perdemos sintiendo.

if i could sum up my feelings in one sentence it would be the following: uuuughhgghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Homemade dynamite

1. Never tell them you love them

2. Ghost for hours

3. Tell them all your flaws in a joking way

4. Never set up higher expectations

5. Let them fall for you, but keep at an arms length

Fuck feelings