Based on this post i made earlier today about my old dog who we’re having to put to rest later tonight. This is a little self comfort writing blurb for myself and hades to help me work through it.
!Mild Angst Warning!
Ship: Sephonis/Hades (Sephades??)
Tw: Animal death, angst
Word count: 1,022
Sephonis sat on the bed, still wrapped in blankets. She hadn’t moved much since she’d gone to bed yesterday with her husband. As the goddess of the spring time she was used to life, giving life, watching it grow. But watching something die, that was the opposite of her, it wasn’t something she would ever get used to. Even when the fall and winter came, when the winds changed and the Earth got colder, she knew it wouldn’t last forever, the green would always return. But some things, didn’t work like that. Animals don’t return, they die, and they stay dead, the next generation goes on, but once you reach the end, that’s it. It was unsettling for the goddess, and though both her husband and her mother tried to help her work through it, to understand it, it always hurt.
It was hard to watch something pass on and not return, but it was even harder when it was something you cared about. One of the dogs she kept on the surface had grown old enough that it was better for them to lay her to rest than to let her continue in pain. She’d had a good life, and she was old. She would be able to bask in the sun surrounded by friends and family. There wasn’t a better way for her to go, the goddess thought to herself. Even though she’d never had a close bond with the dog, not like the animal’s predecessor, she still cared for the creature who’d been a loyal companion to her family. Sephonis bit her lip, frowning to herself. She pulled her knees to her chest the best she could and rocked back and forth, something she did almost at all times, but it helped self soothe. She heard footsteps outside the door and glanced over, waiting patiently to see who it was.
A voice rumbled from the other side, muffled through the door but still clear enough she could tell exactly who it was, then again it wasn’t hard. Only a few people were allowed this far back into the underground, and it was mostly herself and Hades, save for Cerberus and the occasional visitor from the other gods. “Sephonis? You haven’t come out of the room since you came down from the surface yesterday-” Hades commented, “-may I come in?”. Sephonis pulled the blankets tighter around herself and nodded, not that the lord of the dead could see. “Yes- come in...” she sighed, rubbing her face. “Though I don’t see why you feel the need to ask, it is our room after all, husband.” Hades opened the door and stepped in, closing it softly behind himself. He gave a slight shrug before moving to stand before his wife, “It’s common curtesy to knock. We may be married but during the spring and summer, if you come down here, I am still your host.”
The goddess nodded, looking up at him before patting the bed beside her. The god chuckled slightly, moving to sit beside her. Though when she leaned against him and didn’t say anything, it sparked a bit of curiosity, mixed with concern. “Lover...” he started slowly, trying to figure out what to ask, and how to ask it, “...What bothered you so much that you felt the need to come down here?” He inquired, wrapping an arm around the other’s shoulders, squeezing her gently. The girl bit her cheek, playing with her hands that rested in her lap. “What? Can’t I come see you from time to time?” Hades furrowed his brow, hooking his finger under her chin and lifting her head to look him square in the eyes. “What really brought you down here? I may not see you half the year, but I still know who I married.” he spoke gently, but his tone was clear that there wasn’t room for avoidance.
Sephonis did her best to look away, sighing again, trying to find the words and the strength to talk about what was bothering her. “One of our dogs is dying, Hades...One of our beloved family I’ll never see come back like the flowers I’m so used to tending to. I’m always so busy I never get to see them often, or I’m so in my head I don’t notice-” she brought her eyes back to meet the other god’s. Her husband frowned, pulling her closer. “Lover.....Answer me this. Where do things go when they die?” He asked, prompting a confused look from Sephonis. “Well....here-? People do at least.” she thought about it, leaning into him. He nodded, rubbing her shoulder, “Yes. They come down here, to the Underworld. Your other dog is here with me, and this one will be too. You’ll see them again. And you know I love dogs, I’ll ensure they’re well taken care of.” He offered a smile, something that was rare to see from the chthonic god. Sephonis chuckled to herself, rubbing her arms. “Yes husband....I know you do, and I know you will... It’s just hard to deal with...” she mumbled, looking down at the sheets.
“It’s always hard to deal with, my love. That is the essence of grief. You have so much love to give, but the thing you want to give it to, is no longer there with you. So you hurt. You love the memory, but it isn’t the same. And that’s okay. The pain will fade with time. And while you may not stop loving them, it’ll be easier to deal with. Maybe find something else to love? Appreciate what you still have now while remembering what you lost.” Hades leaned back on his free arm, pulling Sephonis close to lay down while he spoke. The goddess turned on her side, wrapping her arms around his waist the best she could. She didn’t say anything for a while, processing what he said. Eventually, she looked up at him. “You’ll take care of her? Like you have with my pet before?” Hades placed a kiss upon her head, squeezing her shoulder.
“Of course I will, darling. And you know Cerberus would love another playmate.”