How I am feeling right now.
How I am feeling right now.
Watching the Unus Annus pole dancing video and my dog is just like…
from when i’ve been alone at the beach
I was playing around with sun and pics and stuff. Here ya go.
Take hold and evaluate today!
When I set a new goal or strive to make a change I tend to always focus on the end result. This more likely than not results in me becoming discouraged or overwhelmed with the task at hand. Whether it be losing weight, taking hold of my mental illness, or bettering my habits. I’m so concerned about how it’ll be once I’ve accomplished this I forget to focus on what’s helping me stay on my path today.
I’m now practicing taking some time out of my daily routine to think about what’s pushing me today to set my future goals.
What got me out of bed this morning?
What’s going to make me happy today?
What could I change today that could help me tomorrow?
Anyway I ask myself these questions I get the same result. Grounding myself in what today brings. Each day the answer may be different, but there will always be something that strives you, brings joy, or that could be worked on. Whether they’re big or little things they all play their part. This is also a great way to positive thinking and staying on the right path.
I encourage everyone to ask themselves these questions daily whether or not it be just to yourself, but Of course if you’d like to share them id love to read some! 💕
Say It With Your Chest.
It’s so tiring spending your life proving to people that you are good enough, it’s like you are in an endless stressful evaluation, they judge your actions,words and talks . And no matter how hard you try, you don’t meet their expectations, you are always a step behind, always missing something.
They never know how much stress they put on us by all their blames and demands. They never know nor do they care how long it took us to build our self esteem and to accept ourselves.. And it’s so hard to find people dropping them.
We’ll be left wondering. Day after day, retreating into ourselves and the few people who still make us feel valuable. No matter how hard we try to be positive, someone will always single out a negativity. We will flounder over every decision, wondering if one wrong move could make the world turn against us again. We will start second guessing everything we see, hear and do. We will agonize for hours over one awkward interaction. We will overthink, overanalyze, and try to overcompensate and only be left even lonelier than before.
Do we have to exert the greatest efforts to win their love? Do we have to mask our true selves in order to gain their acceptance?
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At work for the next 9 hours, send me asks!!! :)
Almost eight weeks now I’ve been home sick and recovering. Two weeks since surgery. I’m definitely itching to get back to my routine. I’m accustomed to to always being on the go. If not I tend to fall into an unhealthy rut. I’ll spend a lot of time in my head although this isn’t always a bad thing. lately I’ve been thinking about how much I depend on a busy schedule to keep myself from constantly thinking. How something that’s considered a sigh of being well adjusted has become my crutch. If i’m too busy with work or with family or friends it cant be my fault I haven’t put much thought towards myself. I’ts time i learn to carve out some time in my routine to work on myself. fortunately this time has forced me to do so. with having to spend these weeks constantly focused on my health I’ve realize just how big of a problem I was avoiding. Just how far I’ve let this go. Now i’m trying not to be angry with myself. I’m trying to remind myself that whats important is what I start doing now. just because I have made the decision to ignore my health in the past doesn’t mean its to late to make the decision to better it today. I’ts also important to remember it doesn’t have to be a drastic change. As long as my choices and actions are better than the ones before I’m headed in the right direction. Being patient with myself is definitely something that I need to work on. my body and mind are my ally not my enemy, we all play for the same team maybe I should work alongside them and not against.