#fuck calories Tumblr posts

  • iamgreentealol
    07.12.2021 - 1 day ago

    Definitely not me completely convinced I have BED

    #there's literally no logic behind it #I restrict and purge and overexercise way more often than I binge #and I've lost over 30 lbs #but I just feel like I binge whenever I eat and I don't get rid of the calories #it doesn't even matter #all eds fucking suck even if they can't be romanticized like anorekc1a #Winnie overshares
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  • hersunsetbook
    07.12.2021 - 1 day ago

    A note to the perfect me:

    I don’t think I remember ever being disappointed in myself as a kid until I realized that other people were disappointed in me. Now that I’m older, I really don’t understand why they were disappointed at all.

    Of course kids are going to fail at things that their parents wish they would excel in. Even as an adult, I am constantly failing myself. I have learned not to talk myself down into believing I am a disappointment, though.

    Yes, I do want to reach goals and accomplish my dreams and believe that I am, in fact, perfect; what is it that everyone always says? Nobody is perfect?

    Of course I understand the sentence and what it attempts to say, but at the same time I am thinking that everybody is perfect, just not in the way society says we should be.

    I am perfect because I am me, and I am perfect because I fail and falter at the things I do.

    Will I get mad at myself and say things I shouldn’t? Absolutely. Will I wish that things could be different? I mean, sometimes I do and I will continue to wish for certain things, but that does not determine my excellence and my perfection.

    To lay out what really angers me and causes that disappointment stemmed from the beliefs others have portrayed on me since childhood:

    My body
    Not accomplishing “enough”
    How I think others perceive me

    These are just a few things that can ruin my day and throw me into a depressive mindset. They destroy my ability to move forward in life and chase after goals and dreams; they make me feel worthless and hopeless. I want people to like me, and to think I have someone who hates me makes all these negative thoughts take over. It doesn’t matter how much I believe I am good or that I like myself even a little, because suddenly I am disappointed and sad.

    I have to trust in myself that my body is perfect, my mind is perfect, and who I am is perfect in order to recover. There is no sense in being sad that someone else might not like you or someone else things some way about you, because only you are living your life, just as they are living theirs.

    And so to my perfect self I want to say:

    Whatever beauty you see in the world belongs to you and is a part of you, because like how the world is perfect, so are you.

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  • this-body-means-nothing
    06.12.2021 - 1 day ago

    Me trying not to have a mental breakdown bc i love cake but cant have any wout wanting to kill myself cause calories:

    #ahahaha#trans ed#ed shit #not pr0 ed #ed stuff #eating disoder things #fr tho i fucking love cake but UGHHH CALORIES FUCK CALORIES #i fucking hate it here
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  • sweet-like-saccharine
    06.12.2021 - 1 day ago

    my mom just called me a “health nut” because i eat vegetables frequently...ma’am they are simple low in cals

    #tw ed related #low cal restriction #seriously though if unhealthy food was low calorie that's what i'd be eating #fuck my health lmao
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  • woodentoybirds
    06.12.2021 - 1 day ago

    :/

    #went to go eat breakfast. as one does #my mom immediately brings up calories and she Knows that I've had ed related issues in the past #I've literally told her about it and she just. doesn't give a single fuck about it #like. i didn't even eat half and she brings it up #so. guess who's not eating for the rest of the day now #ed mention
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  • widevibratobitch
    06.12.2021 - 1 day ago

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    #rannnnnnt#sorry#tw ed #skipped class today because i just knew i wouldnt make kt without breaking down into tears #just. the wall covered in mirrors. its too much for me. even if im trying not to look its just. impossible #now im sitting here and i just have no energy whatsover #cried a little but i dont really feel like doing that too #im so cold #ate four breakfast cookies? like idk but thats a total of a little more than 200kcal #im trying not to look at the calories anymore but i remember one was 50-sth sp #and i had coffee with milk today and ive been thinking the entire day today how many calories was there in that latte #i also drunk tea and some water and i feel fine. not even really hungry but feeling so damn weak #and im afraid of the consequences of me skipping this class today #tomorrow i cannot skip shit. imma spend almost 5 hours in that fucking room looking at all those beautiful skinny girls #and feeling like dying #fuck it so much. its 6pm. i wanna go to sleep. classes tomorrow at 8 am to 10pm... oh how i hate tuesdays #since the beginning of my studies here so since october - ive cried every single tuesday. #met with my dad on the weekend and was bitching about all those classes and he said #'you just hate physical activity and looking for excuses. im very glad you have so many physical classes youll finally start to move more' #and it hurt a lot. but i couldnt just so 'no actually i have an eating disorder that ill never tell you about because #youve been making me feel horrible about my body since i can remember even if you did it indirectly and DiDnT mEaN iT and yes maybe i am #looking for excuses because those classes are extremely triggering for me and it's 6 hours weekly of constant fucking torture for me' #fuck im cold #idk #when i was depressed it kinda felt easier. i had a diagnosis and i wasnt THAT afraid to tell people and teachers. still afraid. but less #now im so terrified of telling someone and hearing 'but you dont look like you have an easting disorder aka youre fat and delusional' #anyway. yeah. sucks to be me i guess lmao #on one hand i wanna take a hot shower because im fuckin freezing. on the other - nah i dont really feel like moving #what doooo
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  • celepeace
    06.12.2021 - 2 days ago

    Why do so many products that are low-sugar alternatives include stevia. God FUCKING forbid anything not be tooth rottingly sweet for 2 seconds. Why do ketchup and instant oatmeal have to be as sweet as a dessert. I'm buying a low sugar version I want it to be NOT AS SWEET but no I guess if quaker or heinz sells something that either doesn't have over 20g of sugar per cup or equivalent sweetness their heads explode or something.

    They say "we need every pantry staple of yours to be so sweet we might as well be putting caramel in this shit. Pants shittingly sugary stuff" and if you say "well I'd like one that doesn't have all that sugar though" they reply "okay but our original statement still stands so we're going to put stuff in it that makes your mouth taste like lightly floral scented bathroom cleaner after eating it instead of actual sugar" and I guess if you ask for ones that have less actual sweetness they like shoot you on the spot or something

    #im fucking angry that everything low sugar has stevia. IT TASTES LIKE SHIT!!! #i hate stevia for existing. back in the day before it was popular they put stickers and shit on products that had artificial sweetners #cause everyone thought zero calorie sweeteners gave you cancer #so if you snuck them into products without telling you on the packaging front and center #people would throw fits over you sneaking cancer into their food #now that stevia's around companies suddenly feel a lot more comfortable putting it in shit #cause it's natural or something so people aren't afraid of it #fuck that. make companies basically scream in your face that their products include zero calorie sweeteners again #this is the same as my gripe with gluten free stuff getting popular #pls stop making me have to inspect my grocery goods 5x so i don't buy something i despise on accident
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  • basicallyvent
    05.12.2021 - 2 days ago

    recovery is for YOU, I eat 2000 calories everyday like it's nothing

    #like calories dont fucking count #like i never was enough #like my life doesnt matter
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  • princely-etiquette
    02.12.2021 - 5 days ago
    #ooc; #THREE DAYS IN A ROW OF BURNING 2000+ CALORIES I HATE THIS #i can only eat so much jesus please #no fucking wonder im so tired #everyone pokes fun that i always have chia seeds in my water listen. #thats 200 calories. a drop in the bucket for how much i need to eat i can rarely keep up #no matter what very proud of myself. #BUT FUCK THIS
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  • trash--bucket
    02.12.2021 - 5 days ago

    Pro tip- when you start shaking and crying in the penguin tank, get the fuck out of there? Unless you want the first aid responder called bc you’re half-conscious on the floor of the penguins office

    #my favorite part of my body is that it ignores how much I eat and just does whatever the fuck it wants #like I ate over 800 calories this morning to prepare but I guess SOMEONE didn’t think that was enough #and it was nutritious food too-oatmeal and plenty of peanut butter and a protein bar and an apple #but FUCK ME I GUESS
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  • peach-flowers
    02.12.2021 - 6 days ago

    I'm looking at the fucking calorie journal thing we had to do for health class in grade 6 and lmao it's so funny to me that I put that a teenage girl needs 1600 calories a day so that's how much I'll eat and UwU be healthy. AND THEY MADE US LOG OUR CALORIES FOR A FULL WEEK LOL-

    Like bitch okay ty for teaching little 12 year old me to count calories, down to which app was best and everything you really helped my ED

    #i mean i would have counted calories anyway #but it would have taken me a lot longer to start #teach portions not calories calories are such fucking nightmares
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  • sweetenerbambi
    01.12.2021 - 6 days ago

    i feel so full 🙇🏻‍♀️

    #i didn’t binge but i did eat a lot. i had to cause i’m with my parents. #idk how many calories but it was a high cal meal so i’m saying at least 1000-1500 #if not more. #fries + cheese + mayo. what the fuck is wrong with me. #tempted to weigh myself now to see how much i’ve gained. i know it’s not actual fat but it’ll put my off eating any more. #🤍.txt
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  • skullgasm
    30.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    To the, “Everything okay?” message, no, I’m not okay, gimme my thinspo

    #fat fuck #im fat and disgusting #pro aana#anarecksia #pro for only myself #calories #low cal restriction #anorexi4#pro 4n4
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  • cherubimpeachtea
    29.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    Nooo buying safefoods is supposed to be fun ;-;

    #my brain’s just like ‘hey dumbass. you want calories you pig? hm? why don’t you just fucking binge like the coward you are you fucking cow.’ #I really don’t appreciate my brain’s input here and I’m going to continue forcing myself to eat 1200 cals a day minimum regardless #v tag
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  • monster4dinner
    29.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    calories in diet coke don't count

    #if i ever start counting this one (1) calorie I'd be totally fucked lmao
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  • hamter
    29.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    when i was 3yo & my pediatrician told me im fat & made me start a bunch of diets, that was the start of my joker story

    (fun fact: starting dieting that young made my body not know how to process sugar because they banned me it & now i keep fainting because it... no matter what i do my body can barely adsorb sugar..)

    #a fucking 3yo. #& all the diets n meds to lose weight continued untl i was 13yo #n had to change doctors......... #n im not even that fat... like yeah im overweight n #ppl have made fun of me all my life everywhere; but after sooo #many analysis it shows im healthy + that the diets damaged me actually #meow #its honestly a miracle that i dont have a bad ed... #like yeah i cant eat anything without feeling #guilty n sometimes i puke what i eat & i count #the calories of everything; but im not strong (?not the word #im looking for) enought to completely stop eating
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  • matchasmaller
    29.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    haven’t had a good old fasioned ”dying bc of too much sugar”-binge in so long and I want it. NOW.

    #ohnno nonononono can’t fucking do this #I have lowcal icecream here and if I ate that #but then I’d be over my calories #but being over ur calories by like 300kcal is way better than a full blown binge #but I goddamn want mudcake #what the hell #everything was fine during the day like ?? damn stop #mypost
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  • sugamintchocochip
    29.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    Having a fast metabolism is a ✨pain✨

    #bcuz even if you eat when you’re full #10 minutes later you’re hungry again #and you have to keep eating else you won’t get any weight #I mean I love eating #but being hungry all the time isn’t really what I call fun #I’m skinny but I ain’t tryna be a skeleton so I eat #cuz my body burns calories too fucking fats #this was just me rambling before I get up to get cake #:: maia speaks #meant fast btw #not fat oops
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  • salt-baby
    27.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    if I hear "I wish I had that problem!" ONE MORE TIME

    Yeah everyone loves that I have a low appetite and a high metabolism in theory

    until your blood sugar drops out regularly and you're shaky and faint and then you have to try and eat but you're so nauseous it feels like you're going to throw up

    "low appetite" means that I'm constantly feeling full and trying to eat is a daily struggle

    "oh I wish I could go 24 hours without eating like you!" I was so nauseous I was MISERABLE

    "I wish I had low blood volume so I could eat more meat" no, I assure you, you dont

    because having low blood volume means constantly drinking water and taking salt supplements and when you lose literally any of that blood you feel terrible for the next week, not to mention the blood pressure medication and corticosteroids, or the POTS

    literally stop saying you wish you had my disability I wish I was rid of it everyday

    #ABLEISM #this is FUCKING ABLEISM #im so done #disability #postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome #ehlers danlos syndrome #chronic fatigue#chronic pain #this isnt even a stupid platitude that fell flat its just straight up invalidation #of course i gaslight myself over my own disability #everyone else does it constantly #strangers need to quit commenting on experiences they absolutely do not understand #congrats my malnourished body meets some conventional beauty standards #regardless of if i cover it up and deliberately go against them #i literally LOVE being praised for being skinny /s #it NEVER feels like a slap in the face to the constant high calorie diets im on and the daily struggle against nauseau i usually win /s #fuck off
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