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Do you have that feeling when you fall in love with a girl but she’s just a friend and you try to contain yourself knowing that she’s heterosexual-
But then she Smile to you, and oh how sweet her smile is when it’s reserved just for you…
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And you fall in love all over again…0
Some fan mail from Anna
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1I wish I had a girlfriend…. I remember my first girlfriend from earlier this year before everything went to shit. I miss kissing her, feeling so safe and warm in her sweet embrace. I miss cuddling with her half paying attention to avatar the last airbender on a saturday night. I miss driving with her, taking moments to look at her when I reach a stoplight. I miss drawing pictures of her, and those feelings of excitement and suspense before each date. I miss all those wonderful things she showed me about what it means to be queer. I miss desperately searching through encircle (a lgbtq+ safe house near the provo temple), looking for her. I miss her unique extravagant mix of male and female fashion, and the smell of her rustic old spice cologne. I miss sitting on the bench outside the karaoke place playing “spot the lesbian” as we waited longingly for the other person to make a move. I miss feeling like my life was finally getting together, like every piece was falling into place. I miss those long nights we had were we would just talk and talk, about spirituality, about queerness, about random silly things from our past, about our interests, about fantasy books and nerdy video games. I miss eating taco bell next to her at her college cafeteria. I miss everything about her. I wish she would take me back. I wish she would give me another chance. And if not her, then I wish someone, anyone would. Sorry if this is super depressing and desperate sounding I’ve just had a lot on my mind.
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