Hi I’m just a smol gay bean and I’d love someone to talk to rn if you need someone to talk to right now too 🐝❤️
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how gay am I? Build-a-bear is selling a lavender teddy bear who I have just gotten and named Leslie Bean. Les Bean for short.
6me *flirting with a butch* How about we go back to my place and watch Alien and if it gets too scary can I bury my face in your shoulder?
12It’s been a while since I made my own post, but I’m alive and doing okay! I’ve been trying to deal with some of my own personal issues with my mental health but it’s been improving a bit. I’ve still be dealing with OCD regarding men but hopefully it will go away with time. It’s kind of a two sided coin. On one hand, I am so afraid I am going to fall for a man that I will constantly ‘check’ to see if I find men attractive or not, resulting in me looking around at them to see if I am when I could be looking at women instead (which I actually want to). On the other hand, I am so worried that I will not fall for a woman/not feel similar ‘happy’ feelings that I did when I dated men but I know that’s false. I have been pretty damn happy dating women and being with them. I have been talking to a girl currently and she’s so damn wonderful and sweet. I feel so comfortable with a girl calling me pet names and I can’t wait to spend time with her. I wanna take her around so many places around my city (I should honestly make a list of things I wanna do) and hopefully I’ll get to see her soon!
I just have having OCD so much because it prevents me from feeling anything for anyone out of fear I’m gonna be attracted to a man. At my worst point a couple of months ago, I would get stressed out just going to the store because I was afraid someone I would be checking out men and not women. I know I only wanna be with a woman in the future, only wanna date women, marry a woman, etc. I can imagine what it’s like being with a woman and there are so many things I wanna do with my future girlfriend who’d I’d love to spend time with. It is hard to fantasize sometimes about women because my brain will try to insert men instead and I will think “I know I’m supposed to like men but I just don’t”. Like I wish I was as girl crazy as I was a year ago. I miss that excitement looking at cute girls, watching lesbian/bi media, and thinking about wanting a gf and spending time with my (then) gf. I never really had that before at all when I was with men. It felt more like a given that I should date them/be into them for I used to be like “I’m just more into men than women”. I know people are gonna be like “it’s comphet!” But I dunno. It was more like a combination of internalized homophobia, shame, repression and sexism that made me push away my attraction to women. I just wanna focus on it. I’d give up ever being attracted to a man again in order to only be with women and be attracted to them for the rest of my life. I just want my attraction to women back. It doesn’t help that my stepdad told me that I was “just confused and don’t know what I want”.
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Before and after the Big Puffy Jacket goes on feat. the pillow my grandma made for me when I was 9 that has hand stitched planets on it
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I have a tummy ache but at least the moon looks nice 🥺
(No men or minors pls you will be blocked!)
13I’m a simple femme who just wants a butch to tell me how much of a good girl I am for them.
17I’ve met some extraordinary people on here so please dont be shy and introduce yourself, I’m always up for a good chat!
Genny, 30, Detroit, adventurer
12Might be a long shot but out of my 1,300 followers, has anyone ever used a sperm donor? I have some questions & want to talk to someone who has been through it. Please send me a message 😊
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