Hearing about Jisung having anxiety really hit close to home, as I too have been suffering from it for several years. I’m almost 23 years old now, and it’s not as severe anymore as it used to be. I used to have panic attacks an breakdowns in public when I was surrounded by too many people, or if I was pushed into situations where I didn’t feel comfortable. My doctor failed to diagnose me, as sige wouldn’t listen no matter what me or my parents told her. So I had to go through it all by myself, with no medication or psycological help. It was a nightmare. I still get nervous now when I’m grocery shopping or in big crowds in generel, but it passes quickly and I can’t remember the last time I had a full-blown anxiety attack. But what I can say about this, is that it does get better. I feel like Jisung has a really great and steady support system in his other members, and that is probably the most important things. He needs all the love and support right now more than ever, and even if it takes a year or more - it will get better. He just has to hang in there and believe it. It’s gonna be hard, but it really will get better.
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I’m a INTJ 😎
jisung please take care and remember that we love you
you deserve more love in this world💕
I hope Jisungie can find a way to help himself feel better when in big crowds :( it makes me sad thinking about how he could be upset and uncomfortable :((
Warnings; I’m a sucker for angst, but I promise it will get better!
You were scared to go back to school after what happened with you ex. You don’t know how it was going to go but you knew that you couldn’t hide forever. this semester was almost over and you’ll be able to catch a break from everybody. You know you shouldn’t but you couldn’t help but think about Chan. You wonder if he stood up for you or did nothing. ‘Why am I thinking about him? He isn’t mine anymore’ you said to yourself while making yourself some hot chocolate.
You heard a knock on the door, ‘who could that be this late?’ you thought as you made your way to the door. You felt your heart skip a bit when you open and you saw the one person that you love. “Christo-” you were cut off by his lips on yours. You didn’t even question it you were just happy that he was there. You were so lost in the kiss that you didn’t notice that he had picked you up and made his way to you room.
The whole night was nothing but love and pleasure, a night that you wouldn’t forget.
The next morning you woke up with a smile on your face, you went to reach for Chan but you noticed that his side was empty. You were confused but you thought that maybe he was in the kitchen, you remembered that he would always make you breakfast after a long night. When you got to the kitchen you didn’t see him but you didn’t see him, the only thing you saw was a note on your island.
I’m sorry that i left without saying goodbye but I wanted to tell you that last night was a mistake. It should of never happened, I came to see how you were doing since you miss class. But when I saw you I don’t know what came over me and we did what. I don’t regret it but it was a mistake. I’m sorry for hurting you more than I have. Just forget it ever happened.
For a second you thought it was a bad dream but it wasn’t, you couldn’t believe it. Chan really did that too you, he made you feel loved like old times to just throw you away. You felt like dying, this wasn’t your Chan, he didn’t hurt you never. You sinked into the floor hugging your knees bringing them closer to your body as you cried, feeling dirty, worse than anything you could imagine.
Enough was enough you couldn’t live liked this, you can live like you can’t breath, like your drowning and can’t swim to shore. It was time to put yourself first, it was time to let go of what hurt you the most; Chan.
Just a week left until winter break and the semester to be over and you couldn’t be more happier. Just 2 weeks ago and Chan shared and you were proud of yourself that you have not acknowledge nor him or his friends. You looked different, you started to take care of yourself first, you were starting to forget and move on but not completely.
You were in your last class of the day when you saw Micheal approach you, you just rolled your eyes. “Wow! (y/n ) you look different.” You heard him say. “Okay and what about it Micheal?” You said with a sighed, the last thing you need was Micheal break down what you have work so hard to achieve, even if it wasn’t fully. “I’m just saying, you look good and you know now that your single maybe you and I can try again?” He said while putting his hand on your knee. You froze when you saw Chan in front of your desk, glaring at Micheal. “Micheal, I thought I told you to leave her alone!” He said while glaring at him.
“Christopher, I don’t need you defending me, thank you but I got it.” You told him while removing Micheal’s hand from your knee. “Yea Chan, (y/n) is a big girl she knows how to take care of herself.” Micheal said wrapping his arms around your waist. You said Chan hurt expression but he nodded and walked away. “Look Micheal, I don’t know what you’re up too but let me tell you I don’t want anything to do with you” You said pushing him off and away. Micheal scoff calling you a bitch under his breath.
You were so were so thankful when the professor walked into the class and started the lesson. Half way through the lesson you started to feel sick, you didn’t have time to think you got up and ran out of the classroom into the nearest restroom. You threw up your lunch into the toilet, after you were done you washed your face and mouth, looking at yourself in the mirror.
‘What the hell! That’s the 5th time this weak I’ve thrown up. Wait, when was my last period” You grabbed your phone out of you pocket and looked at the calendar, you were late. You were so caught up in your thoughts you didn’t hear the bathroom open and close. “(y/n) are you okay?” you heard someone said making you jump and dropping your phone. “Ahh shit, Chan? wtf! you scared me! you can’t be in here!” You yelled at him while turning around.
“I’m sorry but I saw you run out of the class and I got worried.” He told you while grabbing your phone from the phone. “I’m not a concerned to you anymore, you made that clear when you started dating Rachel and used me.” You told him while getting your phone from his hand but not before he saw your calendar. “I’m sorry about that, I didn’t mean to hurt you like that. & I know dating Rachel hurt you but I’m happy with her. That night was a mistake & I’m sorry for hurting that way but I still care about you.” He said while looking into your eyes.
You couldn’t help the butterflies that were growing bigger and bigger in your stomach, you couldn’t lie to yourself and say you didn’t love him anymore because deep inside you knew that no matter how hard you tried to forget him it was impossible. Chan was a huge part of your life, and you didn’t love anybody like you did him, not even Micheal.
“Are you late?” He asked you breaking your thought. “Huh? How do you know” You asked him shocked. “I saw your calendar?” he told you taking your phone from your hand showing you. “Oh umm yea but it doesn’t concerned you Chan!” you said walking away back into class, Chan right behind you.
As soon as the bell rang, you ran out and went to the nearest store. You went in and grabbed what you needed, payed and raised home. To say your heart was going to explode was an understatement. You opened the pregnancy test, took it and waited. 3 minutes later you went to check it but got interrupted by a knock on your door, you grabbed the test and walk to the door and opened it.
“Christopher” you said as soon as you opened the door, dropping the test in process.
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After watching the Star Wars film maybe a little over 30 times, can say that the original three are all the best.
We are days away from the release of Star Wars: Episode IX - The Rise of Skywalker, and the end of the Skywalker saga. Starting in 1977 and ending in 2019, a story 42 years in the making will come to a close. I am so excited to see how this story comes to it’s final end!
I’m going into this movie with no theories and no personal expectations. How does Palpatine return? What is the relationship between Kylo Ren and Rey? Will we discover who her parents were? And we get the return of LANDO CALRISSIAN!! WOOOT!
So here’s to Episode 9 and all of it’s final glory. I do plan on speaking more on the individual movies and other aspects about the universe in time, so stay tuned for my Star Wars musings and opinions. I’ll begin scripting up something and try to have it out in time for release of Ep9 to celebrate!
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sending lots of love and positive energy to this pretty faced angel; i am so glad jyp is making the right decisions and i really hope my love handles it as well as he can, i‘m so proud of him for opening up to us about his struggles and just wish him the very best xx
hello can you hear me sobbing
i hope he’s okay and he better take care of himself :(((