Today I realized I hate something I used to love.
That my safe place had become a prison.
I wasn’t happy.
Today I cried and cried for hours.
Because I realized the love is still there,
And I couldn’t bear the thought of letting it go.
Today I sobbed into my mothers shoulder.
Because what I love wasn’t making me happy.
Now I have to let it go.
-Z. A.
Pomé.
Years are passing
It used to be slower
But right now,
It gets faster as the days go by.
I’ve always know that some things aren’t meant to be forever,
And we being one of those things is what I would never imagine, not even in my wildest dreams or my most terrific nightmare.
We can’t allowe us to become one of those things,
We can’t just… let it go.
And what I was most afraid of is becoming true.
It’s been fourteen years since you came to life.
It’s been five years since we found us.
In a crowd of kids, were
The boy with a big imagination
And the girl with a brilliant future.
They were just kinds back then,
Now they’re older,
They’re broken inside while smiling at the outside.
Both dreamers destroyed by mean people.
But that’s the way the world works, right?.
After five years,
We still together, maybe we’re not that happy anymore, but we’re trying.
I’ve been waiting for the moment when we can be just you and me.
But for now, that’s not possible.
You have your own life. I get it.
I hate that we’re not like before,
We used to hang out,
We used to talk about our things,
I used to tell you stories, and you laughted at them.
But those are just memories.
When you feel lost, look at the sky
I’m always there, admiring it.
It could be our safe place,
The one we can find each other,
Scaping from our realities.
And then,
Be part of the sky,
Living without worries.
That’s what you want, right?.
I'v been waiting for what seemed like forever, is what I always do for you.
Just so I could see you, be with you, even if it’s for a short time.
And yet 15 minutes are such precious minutes you wouldn’t wasted in someone who waited hours for u.
I can’t get over this,
You’re the only one who’s been there.
I love you, so…
Please, don’t leave.
This is supposed to be a happy letter,
But I wanted to tell you how I feel.
‘Cause you’re my best friend, and I can’t continue hidding my fellings.
You thaught me that.
You’re my favorite persone,
And saying that makes me sad.
'Cause I know I’m not yours, but that’s ok.
You are like my pillar,
I beg you,
Please, don’t let my fall.
Phone calls, smiles, bruises,
Late nights, worries, gifts,
Jokes (really bad jokes), songs…
My best memories are in my heart,
All of them next to you.
Birthdays are supposed to be Happy, so
The day that I decide to give this to you,
I hope we get to change.
We get to be what we always supposed to.
Happy birthday, pomé.
-lisxm
I’m the deepest cut
I’m the deepest wound
I’m the deepest lie you ever told
I’m the hardest part
I’m the blackest heart
I’m the darkest night that’s way too cold
I’m leaving
I’m leaving now
Get Scared - Deepest Cut
I’ve been regretting things i say, things i do and things i fall for lately. And i truly dont know what to do..
-swiftforever13
I sure do smile a lot
For someone who isn’t happy
I write an awful lot about fate and destiny
Despite not believing in it
I sure do talk a lot
For knowing how frivolous words are
My beliefs are my biggest source of pain
My tightly held ideals are my biggest source of anguish
My emotions and sentiments are my biggest source of absolute regret
I once beleived that the truth of God (And everything with it)
Would cause a person to never go back
And now I see
That the truth and realization of nothingness
Will never allow me to see things the way I did
As a hopeful naive youth
The desire for the concept of soul mates to
be true (A true love)
The yearning for a vastly greater purpose (beyond myself)
The longing for a destiny (Something to strive towards)
And an adherence to a fate (Given to me)
But knowing that it’s all nothing but a mass of chaos
And circumstances upon circumstances
That are reflections of the decisions that we make
Prevents me from truly believing in what I wish was real
It all contradicts each other so intensely
And that clash is the source of the raging storm that resides inside
The birthplace of my darkness
And my inclination to master it
The beginning of the
But that same clash
Is what makes me so grateful
For what I have
Because I know how rare
Something good is in this world
You thought you wanted someone like yourself but you build walls to protect yourself and they built walls too. You are too proud to be vulnerable and they are too. You know you guys would have a passionate, adventurous, and ambitious relationship but you guys just get in yall own way. You know you would break his heart and he would yours. - cin
How many of us as Christians understand that we have a covenant promise of health through the cross? 1 Peter 2:24 And how many of us realize or even have a clue that there is a demonic realm of spirit beings who are actively inflicting infirmity on Christians who are supposed to be living in health because of Jesus’ sacrifice? It is safe to say that most Christians are unaware that the cause of their sickness, which includes cancer, is the unchecked interference of the demons in the spiritual realm of darkness. Well, it is time for the Christian to know the truth.
You have been made righteous and holy as a spirit being who was reborn when you accepted Jesus as Savior. 2 Corinthians 5:21 You are one spirit with God! He loves the world and desires to be one with us all. The demons are so jealous of mankind and they hate us. They are being allowed to run rampant and seek to kill, steal, and destroy us all. We have the responsibility to do warfare in the spiritual realm and stop them from their purpose. Unbelief is a major player in this. That spirit believes in nothing and steals our belief in every subject, including health, therefore nullifying the power of the Holy Spirit to affect situations. It’s called being double minded. James 1:7-8. Please, Christians, stop letting the devil and demons steal your life, health, and wealth! These are from God for you! Search my blog/teachings at
inthespiritofthemind.com Go to archives and pick any subject or read everything. Health Covenant is #31. It is written for your freedom and deliverance. It is our warfare! Let’s do it!
I had hope once
but that faded
and had dreams too
now I’m awake
know they won’t be
reinstated
gone too far down
paths of hate
I believed once
in the system
in the people
who were its core
but years later
as I’ve listened
I can’t get there
anymore
see the pawn here
giving up now
for this trespass
is but a game
I had fight once
but retreated
because of wounds
I inflicted
and from this throne
was unseated
so my moves were
restricted
once had fire
once had midnight
now they are both
but memories
as I stand here
in the twilight
turning friends to
enemies
see the pawn here
giving up now
for this trespass
is but a game
but it is clear
exactly how
this one impasse
broke this frame
I had hope once
but that faded
and had dreams too
now I’m awake
no they won’t be
reinstated
for the end is
on the slate
(1/27/2020)
Last Monday I set a goal of 66kg for myself, sadly I only got down to 67kg. Hate myself. Don’t know why it didn’t drop more, I’ve restricted so hard. Well next Monday my goal is 64.9kg. Hopefully I won’t be such a failure. :D
