I’ve done everything for you and would have done a lot more, but you couldn’t even do without the simplest little things, I couldn’t sleep so often because of you, I couldn’t eat anything, just generally feel nothing, I went through all the pain and got myself back to you, I gave myself to you completely, I didn’t want to achieve anything else in this world except your happiness, I wanted you to be fine every day and to feel good in your body, that you feel loved,
I was ready to spend the rest of my life with you, I was ready to change just for you, you know every of my secrets, all my insecuritys, and after all of that, you still lied straight into my face, you played me exactly at my weakest point, I just don’t get it, why the fuck would you do that, why the fuck are people like that, I feel so goddamn dirty, I just want to die, and that’s not even exaggerated, you are the perfect human for me, I’ve done so much and still got nothing, what is this feeling, I just want to kill myself