It’s time to let your light shine
It’s time to let your light shine
Usually I don’t do this but I figured this is my blog after all and I should use to help me heal. The healing journey begun a long time go but it’s time to take it to another level.
This is my declaration, of taking control.
OF MAKING THE DECISION AND
I AM CHOOSING ME.
AND MOVING THE FUCK ON
Oh insecurities… how lovely it is to have you by my side 🙄
Some posts pointed out how disrespectful it was for Juri ’s mom to deflect his resentment about his mother. While I totally get this reaction, I also understand her reaction to his story as a mother, especially at this point in the story (the writer’ s intent). He spent years resenting his mother. The exchange he had with MT in the bus shows that this isn’t new, he used to cry at night because life was mentally unbearable. As a daughter, I have lived that life, resenting my mother. And to be honest, nothing good came out from it. However, at some point I came to understand where she was coming from, her story, her sacrifice for my sake and her care in her own way. I’m not saying that all mother have acceptable reasons to be a sinner and make their child a living hell. Absolutely not. Yet, trying to acknowledge their position, their background and the fact they are sinners too help to move on with a lighter heart. Although, the child’ scars won’t ever be erased, this daily mental anguish about it will probably stop and the child will hopefully start to live more in the present.
i am growing. i am healing. i am loving.
How to do the energy healing daily feel good routine
Hi!!! Just dropping by with a gentle reminder to take care of yourself.🍃 A few months ago, I was literally staying in bed six to seven days a week, so overwhelmed by the exhaustion-guilt-despair-hollowness-agitation cycle of depression that I could barely fathom ever feeling better but now, I am on that very path!💛🌿
I still struggle, am not fully functional, and have hours that sometimes feel unbearable but I am getting out of bed. I am cleaning again. I am actively engaging with my negative thoughts, and restructuring how I express and integrate them.
When I have intrusive suicidal thoughts, or I am shocked into a state of disassociating without an external trigger, I guide myself through the heaviness compassionately and lovingly—exactly as I would for a friend. It isn’t always the easiest but this practice is exactly what I have spent most of my life needing; my inner child is flourishing.🌻 She is healing. She is being tended to; held; nourished in so many different ways. What once made her tremble has significantly waned in its power.
It gets better. So much better. Please be soft with yourself and remember: healing is not linear. There will be dark and light and sometimes too much or not enough of either. If you have been struggling lately, remind yourself that you are doing your very best, it is enough and despite how it may sometimes feel, you ARE on the mend.🧡🕊️💫
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Every since I was young I fought the war of self degradation. It’s a process learning to love yourself. Learning you are a well when you thought you were a drain. Despite all our pain, we are usually the hardest on ourselves through the healing. Especially through the healing. Be kind friends. Find the things that fill you up today. You’ve exhausted yourself long enough. Today, restore. ✨
Don’t compromise your self love.
Anna Runkle, AKA The Crappy Childhood Fairy, is not a ‘therapist’ per se. She has Complex (Childhood) Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and creates counseling and therapeutic content based on her own trials and errors throughout her life. So far, she is the only person I’ve come across online that truly understands the disorder and gives very compassionate yet firm advice on how to handle destructive thoughts and behavior patterns.
This video hits especially hard for me, since I’ve been guilty of most of what she talks about. She has as well. I highly advise anyone who thinks they may be or definitely are struggling with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder to explore her channel and website.
I wish my love for you was like flower petals it would have been so easy for me to let you go.
But what you don’t understand, my love for you is as strong as a willow tree. There roots grow deep to find the water they need to survive, and no matter how far or deep the water is the roots will grow to reach. They will grow lengths just to reach it.
And thats how deep my love was for you.
I’ve been slowly trying to let go. I’ve been pulling back all the love I gave. Its been two years now. And I’m not even half way there yet. But I’ll get there.
Someone bumped into me
My roommate entered my room without knocking
A coworker dropped something
I didn’t hear someone come up behind me. I turned and
I’ve had friends that moved a bit too quickly.
Words were spoken that I wished hadn’t been
Somethings, a snack or a controller, that were tossed towards me
A door closed to harshly
I think it’s the worst when people notice it, because then they either think that I’ve nervous, or worse
i.e. Centered within MySelf
i.e. Centered within My Being
i.e. existing within My Center
i.e. operating from My Being’s Center
i.e. in the Center of MySelf (My Being)
i.e. Centering MySelf (My Being)
i.e. at the Center of MySelf (My Being)
~ I need to be centered within myself &/or my being (self centered) in order to show up for others in the way that they need.
i am allowed to eat what i want
I have been facing my shadow this entire time since I have been back. Holy fuck.