Eating Disorder Recovery
Hey, hi, hello, I'll be talking about my eating disorder history and the progress and recent victories I've made:
I've dealt with a myriad of mental illnesses that all joined forces to create some sorta of super mental illness that left me with nothing (ruined career, suicidal, morbidly obese, etc.).
Thankfully, I've gone through a ton of therapy and I know how to cope.
The one issue that I had to deal with was that men have eating disorders show up a little differently then women commonly do.
As a man, I have bulimia. Instead of gorging and then purging via throwing up, I restricted and punished myself with physical fitness.
I'm now able to work out 4 days a week, have an incredibly active job 5 days a week, and I am finally ready to start measuring my food.
I used to get triggered by weighing food and logging food... but I'm finally at a point in recovery that I can measure my food again. It will be baby steps of course. I'll just be using a pyrex measuring cup and just doing 1 cup of rice, 2 cups of brussels sprouts, 2 cups of tempeh, etc. etc. Instead of busting out the food weight scale where that could lead to me having a relapse.
I've been losing weight pretty well over the past few months, but I'm still far from my goal and the path to it... is by measuring my food.
I owe it to myself and I'm treating this entire experience as a lesson in self care and self love. My body is intelligent, but sometimes it misses the mark. It's up to me to interpret the information and make the best decision for me.