did you ever get a crush on someone you’ll never meet and then you start hating on yourself because you daydream about being with them and you then see all your flaws and how ugly and stupid and young and generally not enough you are comparing to them, so you get ONE PIECE heartbreak and ONE PIECE self-hate in the same package? because, same.
2I am so sick of this falling out of love
Of this promising more than I have to give
Of going to bed hungry because I have given my share to feed something insatiable
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I miss that feeling you get when someone’s excited to see you. When you’re all they can think about and it shows. They fight for you. Fight in your corner even when the foe is your own mind and insecurities because they love you, cry with you, laugh with you and they want to be there even if you can’t talk about all your fears.
I can’t remember the last time someone actually flirted with me. The last time I felt desirable. I’m just this hollow nerdy human working, drinking, sleeping…
I miss being that “wanted” where being in their arms feels like home.
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DAY 1:
I’m making this diet with love @999caloriess I’m reporting how it went :)
As a sport, I ride a 20min bike every day and do a workout for my Belly FAT…
4pretending to be ok and socializing for the sake of it takes up a lot of energy,,,,, its exhausting af can someone hit me w a car or smt pls i cant do this anymore ugh
0I promise I will return everything you gave me and move on but what about the memories.
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