I am here again, I am back to reality, I’ve gained sanity and it’s slipping. I’m only here for a short moment ,but tomorrow,
-Tomorrow I’ll be gone.
0And I am terrified
of loving you
and losing you
because letting go
is the only thing I’ve known
how to do.
I do not stay
because staying is hard
and I am weary of
my battle scars
that never seem to heal.
I do not know how to feel
safety or home
in someone else’s arms
because I’ve been on my own
for so long.
And it might come out wrong
but I am too afraid
to let you in
because I can’t bear
to be hurt again
even though it would be me
who tore the two of us apart
and broke whatever was left
of your beating heart.
I just cannot carry
that blame
so please hesitate
before you breathe my name
because it is too great a price
for both of us to pay
for a love that would only
devastate.2I once said I’d walk through flames for you.
Ironic that you ended up being the hellfire that consumed me.
0I helped you get to where you are. Saved you, held you, praised you.
You tore me to shreds in return. Beat me, cursed me, broke me.
And somehow you expect me to be by your side, a King’s slave.
When in reality I’m the Queen. Not because someone else treats me like one, but because I know what I deserve.
I refuse to settle for anything less.
2I see the light again,
Dancing in the eyes of another.
This one is happy,
This one is soft.
This time it’s him.
My lonesome Bailiff,
My weary traveler,
Through my eyes he seems
A poetic lover.
From beyond my sight,
A belligerent friend.
His smiles,
They touch his eyes.
The light loves that,
It shines,
Its dances becoming more wild
And complex.
What I wouldn’t give
To follow that light forever.
But his heart is out of sight,
Locked in same macabre box,
From which i arrived.
We are two unrequited souls,
Never enough together,
Never enough apart.
0@theweeknd #heartless #freestyle #love #pain #heartbreak
https://www.instagram.com/p/B5weN4lHmKY/?igshid=54rcqz95uax00
i’ve always been called
stone cold bitch
satan’s girlfriend
siren
medusa.
I make you fall in love with me,
but then again i get bored easily.
I don’t mean to shatter hearts.
it’s just all i know, darling.
(basically saying hey look at my new half finished tattoo)
8How i feel… it doesnt really matter to you and I have to live with that. I don’t really matter to you and I’ll get over that. But right now, it hurts because I exposed my deepest truths to you and tried to extend my love and a caring hand.. and you took it so I believed in us…..I got played.
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