Heya! I´ve been working on this sort of reference chart for some characters from the IM. Overall, it was a fun excersice. I had to force myself to actually draw vague concepts for once, work with proporcions and color palettes (I think I still need a lot more practice with those).
Muchos de los personajes se ven bastante diferentes de los conceptos originales y siento que debería decir algo al respecto. Mi intención nunca fue resideñar a los personajes de IM, fue mas bien que cuando empecé a leer la historia decidí mejor no checar nada del material original o extra porque quería evitar spoilers así que poco a poco fui formando una idea de como se veían muchos de los personajes. Creo que las únicas excepciones fueron Bendy, Boris, Cups y Mugs, porque después de unos capítulos me animé a ver un poco de los conceptos de la historia, es por eso que sus ropas se ven mas parecidas a los diseños originales.
Bendy fue uno de los personajes mas difíciles de dibujar, por que no quería que se viera tan chaparrito desproporcionado comparado con los demás personajes (la diferencia de estatura con Alice me mata XD). En general traté de dejar su estilo de vestimenta igual, solo jugando un poco con los colores. Como un pequeño dato curioso, traté de que sus botas tuvieran algo así como una suela mas alta, jajajajaja.
Creo que al contrario de Bendy, con Boris siempre he tenido una idea mas clara de como he querido que se vea. En la historia mencionan que aun para su edad sigue manteniendo facciones que lo hacen lucir mas joven y tierno. Así que me enfoqué en hacer lucir sus rasgos mas redonditos reduciendo sus mejillas y acortando su hocico. También imagino que es bastante alto para su edad. En el juego original, sus orejas se ven como rectangulares y por alguna extraña razón pensé que dibujarlas con forma de triangulo lo hacía verse mas joven ¿?
Felix fue bastante divertido de dibujar. De él solo tenía una idea bastante básica de aventurero con su sombrero, chamarra y mochila, así que solo definí como quería que estos se vieran. Me imaginaba que la chamarra que usa es mas parecida a la que usan los pilotos y su bolsa algo mas como estas mochilas de un solo tirante. La verdad quedé choqueada cuando mencionan en la historia que su bolsa en realidad es una cangurera.
Al fin pude dibujar a Alice con ropa casual, la verdad no hice nada de investigación para ver si su atuendo esta dentro de lo que normalmente la gente usaría de acuerdo a la época en la que la historia sucede, así que perdón si se ve fuera de lugar. La idea general con Alice era mantener una paleta de colores lo mas sencilla posible (blanco y negro como en el juego original) y dar una imagen de modesta pero elegante de ella.
La verdad no modifiqué mucho su diseño, era mas que quería dibujarla con un vestido mas detallado (no lo vuelvo a hacer, casi me muero).
Ella tampoco tuvo muchos cambios, solo decidí darle una bolsa mas grande tomando en cuenta todo lo que carga con ella XD. Creo que hay algo bástate curioso de su diseñó, y es que basé algunas cosas de este en personajes como Olive Oyl aun sin saber su relación de parentesco con ella, y pienso que se puede notar mas en cosas como su complexión, altura y vestuario. Fue una divertida coincidencia.
Finley es otro de los personajes de la historia que ya contaba con un diseño por parte de su creador ¡¡¡Pero no me di cuenta hasta mucho después!!! Pensé que era completamente original de la historia. Así que este terminó siendo mi interpretación de él (la diferencia de altura con Holly también me mata XD). No tengo mucho que decir de su diseño, solo que espero haberle hecho justicia.
Siempre me quedé con la impresión de que Joan era una persona muy alta. ¡Ah! Algo que casi se me olvida es que a muchos de los personajes animales no los dibujé con zapatos, imagino que ha de ser incomodo para ellos usarlos, pero me gusta creer que utilizan protectores como los de Boris o accesorios para emular calzado en algunas ocasiones.
No tengo mucho que decir de ella, mas que sus orejitas se me hacen muy lindas.
Cup y Mugs
Creo que tampoco tengo mucho que decir de ellos. Ahorita he visto muchas interpretaciones de ellos siendo bastante altos, pero si les soy sincera, yo veo a la mayoría de los muchachos de IM siendo bastante bajitos o con estatura promedio, jajajajaja. Estos dos nada mas tuvieron un poco mas de suerte al crecer. No sé, es que personajes como Mickey, Donald, Bimbo y Bendy siempre se ven muy pequeños cuando los comparas con otros personajes en sus cánones respectivos. Creo que por eso las chicas son mas altas en la mayoría de mis diseños. También he visto que suelen dibujar a Mugs siendo un poco mas bajito que Cups, pero si hay algo que FMA me dejó bien inculcado es dibujar al hermano menor siendo mas alto, jajajajaja.
Para el diseño de su vestido sí trate de buscar mas referencias de la ropa de esa época. Originalmente quería dibujarla con pantalones (si de repente obtienes piernas porque no ponerte algo que solo podrías usar con ellas), pero me rendí. Unos zapatos de piso se me hicieron apropiados para ella, considerando que todavía se esta acostumbrando a caminar.
En mi defensa, no sabía que era lo que significaba "Gopher" (es una tucita), prácticamente casi toda la historia me la pasé pensando que era algún tipo de cabra, así que esa fue la imagen de ella con la que terminé. Pero bueno, la intención aquí era hacerla ver lo mas abuelita posible, lo único que no me convence son los colores. Me hubiera gustado trabajar mas con ellos.
No se por qué, pero pensé que era mas pequeña y no que tuviera 12 años, y creo que eso se vio reflejado en la estatura que le di. Traté de darle un atuendo que se tuviera un estilo aun mas antiguo, así como colores que se vieran un poco alarmantes. Quería que sus ojos se vieran como agujeros, como si no hubiera nada mas que oscuridad adentro. La forma en la que Boris describe sus primeros encuentros me hizo pensar que quizá al principio si la miraras su imagen se distorsionaría un poco por eso traté de darle ese efecto.
La historia menciona que es bastante alto e intimidante, así que traté de retratar eso. También usé estos conceptos para su atuendo y en como dibujar su cara (x), eran justo lo que estaba buscando. No creo que necesite ese abrigo para mantenerse calientito ¡Pero nunca he visto a un jefe de la mafia sin un abrigo elegante! Tanto él como Sara terminaron teniendo colores de paleta bastante similares y no me había dado cuenta, jajajaja.
Me hubiera gustado incluir mas personajes pero he estado muy ocupada, así que solo pude hacer estos.
Puck's face during Afternoon Delight will never not be funny to me.
I'm kinda alive but motivation broken. Kinda have the urge to blog as Holly and Ashe. (Ashe stealing Holly's phone to respond cause she refuses to make her own account is funny) I've been watching a group form recently. They use the tag: 'another life with parisian heroes' and honestly it they're really funny. Definitely inspiring my thoughts but I am shy and only really use OCs lol.
A n y w a y s, I might attempt to post more here if my motivation gets unbroken at some point. Enough random rambling from me lol, see ya around!
anon i’ll work on that i promise 🥺 i don’t have much of a context for posting that kind of random thing, so i thought of doing a poll or some ABCs of panel shows comedians or something… these types of sets take the most time and research so bare with me, a lot of people have asked for this specifically for alan and otherwise so i’m mapping some things out in my notes :’) (have you guys ever seen my notes? LMAO they look absolutely unhinged)
anon are you kidding me!!! of course!!! because 90% of the time i’m making up taskmaster panels in my mind and there should be at least one mega underrated or non-comedian panelist for it to be just right 😋 some of it depends on context? like danny dyer is absolutely iconic on cats does countdown, but i’m not sure if that means i actually like danny dyer. meanwhile claudia could never do a panel show again and she’d absolutely have my heart anyways 😚💞 bypassing “non-comedian” regulars like richard osman and my other other other wife holly willoughby, i’ll suggest olivia colman, stephen mangan (fuck it and my other other other other wife tamsin), and MARTIN FREEMAN omg martín freeman come the fuck back to us i’m BEGGING SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP FOR U BABY 💀 (i also think joey essex has never not been funny and i’m l o s i n g it every time he has his little recorded educational segments on bfq 🤪 imma post a compilation of them soon…) you’re so right about richard grant ofc and does anyone else remember likewise how lovely and fun jim carter was on wilty? THIS IS QUITE RANDOM BUT HEAR ME OUT can panel shows give chicken shop angel amelia a chance? ik youtube is more her platform but get that cutie on an episode of celeb juice or something bc i need to see it?? actually speaking of people who need to be given (more) of a chance the drag race uk queens? the people demand lawrence or the vivienne on taskmaster STAT. uh oh see how this ramble full-circled to me making up taskmaster panels again? i’m gonna think of more while i’m walking down the street and have to come back and edit this post just watch
i haven’t finished it so i can’t say for certain, but if you really like even some of the comedians, i’d say so. the format is super weak and there’s really no…game…truly being played. but imo formats and games only matter in how much they get the comedians to interact and the dynamics they build. there are some really cute and fun dynamics in outsiders! it’s more background content for me than something imma pay full attention to, but do give it a try if you have the time and interest :’)
yes omg!!! if there was an audience and they could sit closer together, we’d have suuuch a top-tier series on our hands. but what gets me about s12 is just how much, as a whole, the panel truly does not give a fuck LMAO
i haven’t but i’d love to! i should do a giveaway~ has anyone read it? pls send in your thoughts 🥺
panelshowsource painfully average
everything i do i do for u anon 💘
📚 mid-year book freakout tag 📚
Thank you @angelknive <3 for tagging me in this, and giving me an excuse to rant ramble about books yay :')
1. Best book you’ve read so far this year?
With the Fire on High by Elizabeth Acevedo! I've reread this a couple times now and it's still so good. A warm-hearted character who boldy gives a voice to teen moms- whose stories are usually dismissed as cautionary tales. Acevedo's books are usually poetry but her prose is just amazing as well.
2. Best sequel you’ve read so far this year? The Wicked King by Holly Black was pretty good- boy I sure hope it stays that way...
3. New release you haven’t read yet? The Unbroken by C.L Clark; to continue my trend of science-fiction/fantasy sapphics battling against imperial empires lol
4. Most anticipated release for the second half of the year?
Y'all can keep up with book releases?
5. Biggest Disappointment?
Definitely The Queen of Nothing by Holly Black- "it could've been that deep". Same problems I had w/the last book in the Renegades series by Marissa Meyer; the author will spend two books building up tension and promising extreme changes to society throughout the series, just to do a complete tonal shift for the sake of a "happy ending" (for a romance that isn't even that good T_T) that destroys so much character development. The previous books were full of revenge and betrayal, just for it to all work out w/o consequences or pain. It's just so weird bc I know these authors can make you feel tense or emotional- so what's up?? I better stop before I get heated again...
6. Biggest Surprise?
Probably Gideon the Ninth? I admit it was pretty hard to follow along at first, but I can see why people like the characters so much. It definitely got me into more sapphic books :)
7. Favorite new author (debut or new to you)? Hmm I do not think I have one yet.
8. Newest fictional crush / newest favorite character?
I would let Gideon Nav and Harrowhark ste-[gunshots]
9. Book that made you cry?
I'm not really a crier tbh. None of the books I've read so far have been incredibly sad yet either.
10. Book that made you happy? Gonna go with With the Fire on High again.
11. Favorite book-to-film adaptation you saw this year?
Shadow and Bone is the only one I've seen so far- I plan on watching Little Women soon though.
12. Most beautiful book you’ve bought or received so far this year?
I just borrow books from the library and no one gifts me books 😔
13. Book(s) you need to read by the end of the year?
Where do I start...
1. I just borrowed the Kyoshi and the Crier’s War duologies so I’m definitely getting to that.
2. Honey Girl bc I heard so many good things about it
3. She Drives Me Crazy by Kelly Quindlin
4. Last Night at the Telegraph Club by Malinda Lo
5. You Should See Me in a Crown by Leah Johnson
6. The Silence of Bones by June Hur
Hopefully I can at least get through those- pls let this school year be easier plsss. Anywho, if you’d also like to do this go ahead!
Under the cut for length!
I’m so glad about the feedback I’ve gotten privately and it’s just. Thank you so much, I never thought I’d share the story, much less getting such a positive response so - wow 🥺💖💖
@awkwardspontaneity - HOLY CRAP THIS SERIES IS HEAVY. But my god is it addictive, I binged the whole thing at 4am. By all that is holly I am thankful for those soft moments cuz damm did we need it. Pls let them be happy now they’re baby and I’m baby and need fluff cuz my heart had been through the woods chipper.
Rambles aside, of you like Naruto and Tobirama then this is such a fantastic gut wrenching fic so take that as you will AT 4 AM??? Oh goodness I’m honored 🥺💖 no worries, they’ll be happy! Just gotta work out the cure now, but it’ll happen (when I get down to write it, oopz. Maybe a little bump in the epilogue. But nothing dramatic!!). Thank you so much 👍 (also your tags made me giggle so much, omg 😂😂)
@n0tamused - Oh wow! I really have no words, really. 😭 This whole series was so amazing to read, tense for sure especially at some parts. My god- And A HAPPY ENDING- YE E E E S S S For sure among my favorite stories out there. Will read this thing again I know that 😌✨ I can probably write a whole small blog about how much and why I love this so much.
FAVOURITE STORY?? AUUUGHHH OMG I CAN’T - AAAA - Thank you so much, ngl that warms me heart 😭😭💖💖 I’m so glad you enjoyed it!! @kaleusstuff - This fic was playing with my feelings the whole time…. I love it. It’s PERFECT❗❗
IT IS QUITE A RIDE, isn’t it... huge thanks for the compliment, much appreciated!! 💖💖😊 SOOO, that was the Leash - well, minus the little epilogue/mini series I want to do to fully wrap it up. Because the reader really does need a cure, huh. Like said, I don’t know when yet - however! As I’ve written the Leash in October 2020 it pretty much was just editing and posting, hence the swift schedule. Unfortunately I won’t be able to keep up posting 5-8k works each week 😅 so my updates will be slower, now.
Right now I’m working on a few different drabbles as inspirations strikes (including a Madara one 👀) which all will be similar in size to Leporina venatio/Hot is just a matter of definition.
Buuut, since my biggest problem seemingly is not being able to shut the fuck up (as you can see), of course I’m also working on a new really big fic!! Which I am very excited to get out. It’ll be very different than the Leash - starting with the fact it’s going to be an OC story! And very possibly longer than the Leash, judging by everything I’ve compiled for it so far. It’s set before the formation of Konoha, and will span a longer time, too. Hopefully I’ll be able to post something soon 👀
rightio, enough yapping - thank you so much 💖
LATE ASS FUCKIN’ MOVIE SUNDAYYYYYYYYYYY(S)!!!! alright, i’m gonna spare yall my ramble about how much i want to die because of how awful and inconsistent my reviews are SO HERE’S MOVIE SUNDAY REVIEWS FOR THE LAST TWO SUNDAYS IN MY DESPERATE ATTEMPT TO CATCH UP BEFORE WATCHING THE MOVIE SUNDAY MOVIE TODAY. this probably won’t be as long as my usual things, even though there are two movies. there really just isn’t that much to say about them. (which isn’t inherently good or bad.)
MOVIES IN QUESTION: MAD MAX: FURY ROAD AND THE DESCENT.
as usual, everything below the cut. warnings for discussion/mention of rape, sex slavery, death and gore. LET’S FUCKIN’ GOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
FIRST UP ON THE DOCKET IS MAD MAX: FURY ROAD.
mad max was a movie i remember being super popular when it first came out, especially here on tumblr. however, despite everyone talking about it ... a lot ... it was one of those movies that i just had no fucking clue what i was expecting in terms of story. on that topic, (oh and just to clarify, i have not seen the original movies and i’m honestly not that interested in checking them out)
GOTTA GO FAST GOTTA GO FAST
i love how mad max just kind of throws you into this world of implications. here’s a bunch of freaks living in dystopia, figure the rest out on your own. it lended itself well to the chaos everything going on outside of the story was trying to establish. it gives you, as the audience, the feeling of insecurity and confusion therein leading you to cling to the protagonists who, while also learning more and more as the story develops, still know more enough than you to fasten you into the narrative as it evolves. there isn’t a time where anyone says what immortan joe is doing to these women running away from him. (at least i dont remember there being one. god please dont make me look stupid KAJG) it’s all given to you through implications. the one who is pregnant, the fact that they are refusing to give him anymore children he can turn into warlords, etc. it’s all very interesting and almost .. kind of refreshing? esp for a movie like this, which doesn’t necessarily shy away from violence but is still not gratuitous about it.
i wish there was more ............. like i would love spin-off series talking about all the different groups of people left in this world and just developing the universe a little more. learning about how everything came about and brought things to where they were. although, then again there is still a beauty in just letting your own imagination do that for them while working off the few things they do give you.
i really liked how many obstacles felt somewhat still grounded in reality. having to run maintenance on the rig while also fighting off those trying to get the um ladies back gave them new problems to face and kept everything interesting. the pacing in this movie was so amazing. the fighting was so action packed and stunning while our quieter moments in between never outlived their welcome but really worked to flesh out our main cast.
speaking of the fights, i really loved how the well fights were choreographed. everything was so purposeful. i couldn’t look away for a second because of how tense and equally matched they were for the most part. the first fight between max and furiosa was just amazing. HOWEVER OK, i do have to say that i didn’t like the climatic end to immortan joe. i thought it was a huge disappointment considering how grandiose and just flat out insane all prior fight scenes had been. it felt like they were really building up to a huge (literal) blowout and it was just ... a wet fart.
OTHER MISCELLANEOUS SHIT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT
i had a hard time remembering anyone’s names outside of joe, furiosa and max so bare with me. this movie was very much lauded as being a woke masterpiece when it first came out because furiosa is an amputee. as i’ve said many times before, though it’s great that we get a strong disabled character in this piece of entertaining media - they didn’t hire an actual amputee so it really and genuinely doesn’t mean a single thing to me. zoe kravitz is also, i believe, the only person of color in this movie. that’s ... yeah. we’ve had discussions about how women of color are often excluded from conversations of feminism - especially when addressing lack of representation in media.
i do have to say that i did like the older women joining furiosa’s group later into the story. it’s not often that you get to see more mature women in action fighting roles and i honestly thought it was a great thing. please, give me more badass edgy elder women who can and will hold their own in a fight.
i didn’t like the love story subplot that developed between tony stonem from skins and that one quirky red haired chick. i thought it was pretty boring and nonsense. it kind of distracted from everything else going on. i felt it was pretty unnecessary, but i guess they felt that these girls all did have the personality of cardboard cutouts so they had to do something with them. LMFAO
on THAT topic, i found most every character in this movie extremely engaging and interesting aside from the escapee brigade. they were all the same character copy pastes except for one is pregnant, one is quirky, one is zoe kravitz and ... am i missing any? i don’t remember ... or particularly care. such a shame. wish they were given more agency and made a little more interesting.
mad max:fury road was great. definitely a movie i enjoyed but didn’t think too hard about. not quite perfect but with a whole lot of potential. maybe lets give it a try in another 20 yea- oh man, nevermind. i googled mad max while checking for release dates for my joke to be at least semi-accurate and there are two more movies schedules to release in two years ......alright, well ...... i guess we’ll see what happens then.
ANYWAY, NEXT UP IS ..............
so i can definitely remember watching this movie in bits and pieces when i was younger but i don’t think i ever watched it entirely. i don’t really think it was very good. i honestly don’t really enjoy horror movies as much as i did as a teenager and even when i did watch horror movies, i mostly went after shock value gore p-rn and the descent is honestly pretty tame compared to the shit i sought back then. let’s just get into it, i guess
stupid characters are stupid
what is with all these movies where the protag is like *goes through traumatic event* *takes a trip to do something relatively out of the box of mundanity* *receives more trauma*?
skipping story commentary because the story is simple enough. girls go spelunking, find monsters, all die except our Last Girl, movie over. i just really have to wonder what the hell anything going on here is. the characters are just an absolute mess, and i kind of get that they wanted like this whole backstabbing yada yada friendship drama to kind of be the b-plot to the monsters but it really just ... was very pathetic and it just did not pan out in a way that made much sense
the set-up for the actual spelunking took way too fucking long. the early scenes with the mc (sarah)’s husband and daughter dying were fine and all but once we got to the cabin all that time later to start up the spelunking trip, it was dragging for an eternity. i get that they wanted to set all the girls up to have like personalities or whatever but can you believe that even after like 40 minutes of all the setting up, i still only remember a couple of names and even then, i don’t remembered exactly who was who. (i will be kind of naming some of them but note that this is after some light googling just to keep this comprehensible).
beth (WHO SHOULD HAVE BEEN DEAD TEN TIMES OVER BY THE TIME SARAH FOUND HER BY THE WAY) accusing juno of killing her, as if she wasn’t the one who VERY QUIETLY snuck up behind a woman with a visible weapon who was clearly in the middle of attacking obvious threats and defending her own life was absolutely INSANE. a normal person would have called out from a distance, especially because at that point in the movie, they hadn’t yet learned that the monsters used sound to hunt their prey. NOT ONLY THAT, BETH WAS THE ONE THAT FUCKING INVITED SARAH ON THIS TRIP WITH JUNO. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN “DON’T TRUST HER”?!
i can understand why juno wouldn’t immediately tell everyone what happened with her and beth and it makes absolute fucking sense to literally anyone with basic empathy and a brain. she wasn’t trying to be sly or underhanded. she was just ashamed and shocked and fucking traumatized and the movie trying to paint her like some sort of adulteress murdering whore reeks of racism to me considering she is literally the only woman of color in the group. i’m not excusing the fact that she fucked sarah’s dead husband - but she didn’t fucking deserve to die over it, jesus fucking christ.
i don’t really understand much of what most of the characters do in this movie. holly taking off on her own, literally RUNNING through a cave she’s never been inside and is actually LOST WITHIN was SO FUCKING STUPID, i literally groaned and grabbed my head trying to process it. it’s just all so much. you really just simply can not have a single rational thought while watching this movie or it all just falls apart .... well, at least .......
it looks pretty ..... most of the time
i really enjoyed the cinematography in this movie. the shot of sarah in the blood bath, the one of her climbing the bones on her way out of the cave, the one of her climbing out on the other side to the harsh bright light of day. extremely visually stunning so there was SOME competence involved in how the movie looked at least. i wish we had the same eyes checking in on costume design.
man, those monsters did not look even the least bit scary. they kept trying to do these super quick shots so you couldn’t really notice costume problems. there’s even a scene where you can see the person wearing the costume’s very obvious human teeth beneath the prosthetic over them when the monsters are very obviously shown to have sharp teeth in other shots. way more effort should have gone into them. they are very bare bones and just boring overall.
imagine making a horror movie that isn’t scary
monster appearances aside, the movie itself is genuinely just not scary. i thought the movie was going to use it’s location to it’s advantage a lot more. at the start, the little inklings of clautrophobia start to kick in and it works! i definitely get a bit anxious when idr who gets stuck in that tight little cave and starts having a lil panic attack. i was looking forward to more tiny cave related fear but i got exactly none of that. all the scenes after that were big enough for all the girls to just run or slightly crouch to get through.
there was huge fucking potential there to really set itself apart and ramp up the suffocating horror elements but they just kind of used the monsters as a crutch and simply refused to walk on it’s own. huuuuuuuge bummer.
so hulu had the US ending so that’s the one i watched but i did go on youtube and watch the UK version. in my opinion, i think both endings are stupid and bad. the movie should have cut after sarah’s hand burst out of the ground through the hole she managed to escape out of, with the crescendo of music playing her out before a cut to black and roll credits. i don’t get what fucking stupid ghost shit the US version was trying to imply and i just do not have the emotional energy to wrap my mind around it and the UK version is too cringe grimdark for me. if i had to pick one, i wouldn’t.
twas not a good movie ... i didn’t like it .... probably will never watch it again
THANKS FOR READING, I’LL TRY AND GET MOVIE SUNDAY FOR TONIGHT’S MOVIE UP TOMORROW ALONG WITH VIDDY GAME SATURDAY REVIEW!!!!!! BYEBYE.
Not Just Attracted to Women!Peter Maximoff x Fem and Not Just Attracted to Men!Reader
Based off of a dream I recently had: Peter and Y/N have a conversation on the roof of Xavier's in mid-December. Peter accidentally lets it slip that he might not be straight, and he is afraid that Y/N will think less of him because of it because this is the 80s. Y/N reveals that she is also not straight, and is saddened by the fact that Peter could think that she could ever hate him- especially for that. She calls him wonderful. Feelings ensue. Also, a touch of Cherik at the end because I give the people what they want.
Warnings: Swearing, Peter cries, internalized homophobia (this is the 80s-ish and Peter uses the word 'queer' in a kind of incorrect and kind of offensive manner, but it was internalized homophobia and not actually intended to be mean to anyone but himself so I forgive him), a touch of angst but mostly fluff, Charles called you two "children" even though you are obviously not, Erik is happy that his son has someone that cares about him the way you do, Peter is insecure but not super blunt about it, Peter has been deprived of being adored his entire life, bad writing, I mention a serial killer twice, historical inaccuracy because the word queer was still a slur so yeah.
A/N: This is literally the first thing I have ever written so please be nice to me, I wrote this instead of an essay. I would love a comment of any kind, even if it's just a heart emoji or something, and constructive criticism would be highly appreciated. Also 'N/N' stands for nick-name.
(Ok, so, full discloser: the format is odd. The bullet points represent dialogue, and the only dialogue is between you two love birds. The first bullet point is Peter, the second is Y/N, the third is Peter, and so on.)
“I dunno, the whole ‘liking people’ thing has always been weird for me.”
“How do you mean?"
“Pppffftt- 'how do you mean,' what are you, Shakespeare or somethin’?”
“Yeah, because that’s the era when ‘how do you mean' would have been a popular term. Ok, what do you mean?”
“Just- when other people were liking people I never really was?”
He was gesturing wildly and avoiding eye contact, as always. He wasn't uncomfortable with eye contact, he just got bored easily in conversations, he needed to keep himself occupied. In this situation that meant staring at the red and green lights covering the rest of the roof, the snowy trees all over the yard, and a holly garland around the gate. Peter wasn't Christian, but man, did he love their Christmas decorations.
“Like… now? In school?”
“Well- yeah… but also when I was younger. And I never liked the right people? Or... liked them in the right way?”
“So you’ve never liked anyone.”
“No, no… I definitely have. It was just… weird! I don't-”
His hands dropped to his side in defeat.
“I don’t think it’s that out of the ordinary. I would tell you if it was. Also, if it was... 'weird', like you said, that wouldn’t mean it was necessarily bad.”
He hadn’t really heard what she said, he was too busy pondering what his next sentence would be. When she wasn't speaking, he was rambling.
"I had some of the normal crap… like in movies when they talk about the fluttery stomach junk. I've had that around a few girls I've been friends with, also that phase with the boy stuff, a-"
“Wait, what phase with the boy stuff?”
“Like- when you’re in middle school or whatever and you're gay for a second.”
His phrasing was a joke, but the statement as a whole was not.
“…‘Gay for a second’?”
"Is that- not-"
"I don't think that is... 'normal'... per-say..."
His heart sunk.
He suddenly looked almost embarrassed. He shifted his posture, seemingly trying to shrink into himself.
“Do you... wanna chat about it?”
Panic started to slowly rise in him.
“Um- forget I said anything.”
Something in him said to go on the "defense". He did not appear as calm as he was intending to.
“I’m not- gay! or anything. I like girls! I do!”
She put her hand on his arm.
“Hey- look at me for a second. We are not in court, and I never 'accused' you of being gay. That would be a very funny reality TV show, but not what is happening right now. Listen, theoretically if you were gay that wouldn’t be bad! And I wouldn’t be… whatever you.. think that I would be? I mean- however you are afraid I would act in a negative reaction to it? I would try to be here for you, and be as supportive as possible.”
He didn’t believe her.
“What? You’re going to tell me that you would honestly be friends with a queer person- be friends with me if I was... not... normal?”
She was taken aback by his tone, the word he had used, and the way he said it, felt like a weight dropping on her shoulders.
“Oh. would you… not?”
It was her turn to seem nervous.
“Would you- stop being friends with someone for liking someone that they… I don’t know… shouldn’t... would be the word I guess?”
Why, in this situation, was she nervous? Oh. His fear was replaced with guilt.
“So… are you… do you… why were you scared?”
“... Why were you?”
She expected a joke from him, something along the lines of “touché".
“Are you… gay?”
Yeah, he didn’t believe her.
“Really, I’m not. I’ve liked boys, but also... I've had feelings for girls. I’m not… straight. So I just want to let you know that it’s okay if you aren’t too.”
“I never s-“
She smiled at him with a bit of pity, she had been there. The self-loathing, the feeling of walking on minefields with so many people in your life.
“I am… what?”
“Give me a second I’m trying to find the perfect word.”
That was not exactly the word he was expecting. Like, at all.
“That’s the word. Wait- let me start over. You gotta look me in my eyes as I say it, because it’s gonna be really poetic.”
“Uh… should I be scared?”
“No. Maybe a little. No.”
He looked at her.
“You are… wonderful.”
He looked away again, to be honest, he was a bit uncomfortable. He rarely received compliments, especially ones that seem so... genuine.
“I’m not finished, look back at me, just for a second. You are so wonderful- and I will support you as whatever you are! I want you to know that I can- I can barely even think of something you could do that would make me genuinely hate you- like… maybe if you Dahmer-ed people or like chopped up a-“
He found this was amusing, yet disturbing.
“Sorry- I just- the fact that you thought, even for a second, that I could hate you… is just-“
“No! Stop it. Don’t be sorry.”
She stared at him expectantly.
“What do you want me to-“
“Take it back! The sorry!”
“Say you aren’t sorry”
“Ok. I’m, ya know, not sorry.”
“Good. You shouldn’t be”
“Yuh-huh. Says the most likely, from the little information I've gathered, bisexual in denial who also happens to be the fastest boy on earth who had to slow down exponentially to interact with other people who also, also, happens sitting on a roof in the dead of winter with me.”
“What’s by smexual?”
Something about the way he attempted to repeat her words must have been hilarious, he thought, because here she was, sitting in front of him, in a fit of childish giggles. He would smile if he weren't so confused.
“No- that’s not- what I said- it’s… wait!”
“You’re tryna get me off topic!”
“Are t- shit.”
“HAHA! Victory is a sweet dessert... wait is that even the saying? Still, I win you lose, nerd.”
“Ok, okay! go on.”
She was attempting to gather herself to give off a less jokey aura. It was half working, the "am not! are too!" argument a few moments ago made it hard for him to take her seriously, but he could tell it was important to her that he did, so he tried his best.
“You have to look at me again. just for a second.”
“Just do it? Please?”
His attempt to put up a fight was thwarted by her small "please". He was pathetic.
He looked at her.
“Me… or- wait- I…”
“Wonderful, yeah yeah. just get to the n-”
“When you say it it doesn’t encapsulate it. It sounds silly.”
“Ok little miss ‘you art thou wonderful’, how would you have me say it?”
“I am you wonderful?”
“You called me ‘little miss you are you wonderful’ what does that-“
“Ok! Would you just- shut up and call me wonderful one more time, please?”
She looked at him and blinked. That sentence surely came off as less ironic than intended.
“You are wonderful.”
She grabbed his face, in a half-joking manner. Her grab smushed his cheeks and she couldn't help but laugh a bit when she did it. Even though it was clearly a bit, he was still flustered.
She shook him a bit.
"Shut up 'cause I'm about to say some beautiful and true shit. You are wonderful. You are wonderful. You are wonderful. You are absolutely, unchangingly, and irrevocably wonderful and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it, Maximoff.”
After saying what she would (in 40 years or so) recall as a painfully John Green-ish statement in her blunt and matter-of-fact manner, she let go of her semi-ironic hold on his pink cheeks. Were his cheeks pink because it was absolutely freezing, or because his heart was beating faster than he had ever (and would ever, mind you) run, you ask? No comment.
“You do say it better than I do.”
“Did you like how I stressed different parts of the sentence each time? I thought that was a nice detail.”
“So I’ve heard.”
Did his voice just... break a little?
Was he a little... sniffle-y? She was now very concerned.
“Are you okay?!”
“Oh- um... yeah!”
No! No he was clearly not! He was sniffling!
“Really? 'Cause, you don't seem it.”
“It’s just- I just- wow.”
“That was just- uh-"
“Just what? It really wasn't that fancy, you seem much too impressed with me. Oh my God, was it terrible?”
“I mean it was really corny but w-“
“I swear to God if you say 'wow' one more time I may have to add ‘use of the word wow too much’ to the list of things that could make me hate you. Right next to the Dahmer stuff. That was a joke. Your use of the word wow is only mildly perturbing. Sorry."
She was panicking "just a bit".
“I’m sorry, I mean I’m not sorry. Sorry. Shit! sorry! I mean I’m not!”
And he was absolutely... full-on crying at this point.
He was looking down at his mittens. Not that this is important, but they were very pretty mittens.
“Look at me, you klepto.”
“You know- I’ve been hearing a lot of that 'look at me' stuff from you today. I mean- the klepto part is new-“
He peaked up at her.
“Talk to me. Please, you're kinda scaring me, let me help.”
“I’m not sad!”
“Yeah but not from the sads!”
“… The ‘sads’?”
“You know- when you get sad! It just means being sad! I don't- that’s what Wanda calls it, not me!"
He wiped his nose, tears still running down from his puffy eyes to his reddened cheeks.
“What are you crying from?”
“No one’s ever called me wonderful before.”
“I'm sorry! I did a few minutes ago and you didn’t cry!”
“No! You can't 'sorry' me if I can't 'sorry' you! And- yeah but that doesn’t count!”
“Because it only felt big when you said it the certain way!”
“You look at me, you grab my cheeks-“
“I'm sorry about that by the way I was j-“
“No! It’s really ok! Do it whenever! I mean don’t do it whene- shut up!”
“I’m not even talking! You're the one talking!”
“You look at me, you grab my cheeks, and you go: you are wonderful.”
“No one ever called me that before!”
"Peter, I- well- they- they should! They should! More often! Then the amount that it happens now! I think. In my opinion."
"Or really looked at me like that!”
“Looked at you like what, Peter?”
“Like I was somethin’!”
“Well, you are… ‘somethin'! Whatever that means! And- I think you deserve to be looked at as such!”
A strangled sob escaped from his throat. He didn't know how to explain.
“Ew. I hate that nickname.”
He crossed his arms over his chest like a toddler, trying to completely ignore the fact that he was an emotional wreck.
She opened her arms and gestured for him to come closer. He was hesitant at first- but gave up all the reasons he shouldn't move to be closer to her in exchange for the promise of comfort she was offering him. He crawled over to her and curled up in her arms. The way she held him made him want to cry more. Who does she think she is- holding him like he was worth holding? With her chin sitting on top of his hair? Letting him do that gross cry sob with the spit and the snot into her only winter coat? Rocking him, and shushing him, and petting his stupid, silver hair? She was warm, too! The audacity of this woman.
When Erik brought Charles into his office to grab a chess set, they saw the two in the window. For a moment Charles considered telling Peter and Y/N to get off of the high platform, seeing as the two were the reasons the "no sitting on the roof" rule was enacted in the first place (neither of them were coordinated whatsoever). Charles quickly dropped this notion when he saw the look on Erik's face, Charles could tell it made him so happy to see Peter be held like that, cared for like that. Erik's expression made Charles want to both tell Erik that he is the most precious thing in the world, and make fun of him (look at Mr. Metal, gone completely soft). Possibly he could do both at the same time. But for now, he is just going to pretend he didn't see the two outside of the window, and have Erik grab them their game, go to the living room, and pretend not to have read Erik's mind when he inevitably asks him how he always manages to pick the white chess piece at "random".
Jin tried to hold back his laughter as you started crying in the seat next to him, he knew it would be mean to laugh at you right now since you were in such a drunken state you'd begun crying over a dog you'd seen in the street.
"You know I love you right, I love you so much Jin." You whimpered as you began moving around in the backseat, he'd sat you back there so you couldn't distract him while he was driving.
"You're so perfect and kind to me. Even now! I woke you up at 5 am to come and get me and you did!" You began sobbing heavily again as you laid down on the seats, going on about how perfect Jin was. Gushing about how much you loved everything he did for you.
"This is sweet baby, you won't remember any of this though." He chuckled as he pulled into the driveway of your shared house.
"How can I forget anyone as kind as you, you're so handsome!" You squished his cheeks together as he came closer to you to help you out of the car.
"You're so fucking perfect." He hummed along with you as you began to slur on your words a little, he shook his head at you as he wrapped his arms around your body. Letting you continue to ramble at him as he carried you through to the house. All of this was only going to boost his ego and allow him to bully you in the morning.
The music was blaring through the speaker next to you so Yoongi couldn't hear what you were saying to him exactly,
"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!" You screamed to him as he asked you to repeat yourself for the sixth time in the span of 30 seconds, he could hear you crying down the phone to him and he felt a stab in his chest at the thought of you crying.
"I love you too baby, where are you?" He asked concerned as he looked at the time, he was in the studio so he hadn't even known about you going out tonight.
"Out with the girls! W-We went for a drink!" You hiccupped between your sentence causing him to let out a small chuckle about how cute you were when you were drunk. He was used to you crying on him whenever you got drunk, gushing about how much you loved holly or your friends but this time it was all about him.
"Are you going home soon?" He questioned as he began to pack up his own things getting ready to go home or grab you from whatever club you happened to be in.
"Soon. I-I want cuddles Yoongles. I want you to hold me." The sniffles had already started so he chuckled to himself, promising to come by and grab you if you told him what club you happened to be in that night.
Hoseok grunted as he set you down on the bed, it was 3 am and you were sobbing hysterically over something Hoseok didn't understand. Tears were gushing down your cheeks as you made incoherent remarks to him about what was making you cry so much,
"Baby please tell me what's wrong." He begged, sitting in front of you only for you to grab onto his cheeks and stare into his eyes.
"You. You're what's wrong! How can someone be so full of sunshine and happiness...You're a literal angle!" He frowned as you said angle instead of what he assumed you were trying to say as "angel". He shooked his head at you as you laid back against the sheets and began to tell him how much you loved him. Crying while you gushed out all of the reasons you loved him, he teared up listening to everything you had to say about him while he got you ready for bed.
"Thank you Angle, I love you too." He teased you as you passed out in the bed, snuggling into the sheets as you breathed in the scent of Hoseok's pillow.
Being away from one another was never easy but it was even harder when you got drunk and called Namjoon on skype, crying to him about something. He knew how much of an emotional drunk you were so he expected nothing less tonight only this time you surprised him. When he answered the call he expected to see you in the street crying but not this time. This time you were curled up in bed dressed in one of his hoddies crying to him.
"What's wrong baby? See a cute dog?" He questioned referencing back to the time you called him crying over a homeless man and his dog.
"My boyfriend is so fucking perfect. He gets to live his dream life! H-He's just so smart and loving-" You continued to ramble on about Namjoon as he listened to you, chuckling as he realised you probably meant to call one of your friends instead.
"Baby...Look at the screen." He whispered to you as he looked at the screen at you, as soon as you saw him you began to sink into the hoodie.
"Is this what you do when I'm gone?" He smiled as he put his writing items down and snuggled into the hotel bed, wanting to be as comfortable as you were.
Jimin didn't expect to walk into the kitchen and find you crying on the floor to the cat when he came downstairs. He thought you were staying at a friends place for the night so he jumped up when he heard small sniffles.
"You're on the floor baby," He cooed when he looked down to see you laid on the floor eating a slice of bread straight out of the bread bin,
"Any reason you're eating bread?" He chuckled as he sat down in front of you,
"S-Soak up the alcohol." You slurred as you handed him a half-eaten piece but he took it away from you, placing it on the counter behind his head,
"Have I ever told you how much I love you?!" You whimpered as you crawled over to him, laying down with your head resting on his thigh. Silent tears gushing down your cheeks as you began to list off the reasons you loved him.
"I look at you and I instantly feel like I'm at home like I belong somewhere." You sobbed to him as you tried to stop yourself from crying but the alcohol in your system was making you more emotional than usual.
"Come up to the bed, you can tell me how much you love me while we fall asleep." He chuckled softly as he looked down at you, your hands covering your eyes as you cried hard into them.
Your friends had called Taehyung to come and get you, you were crying into one of their arms when Taehyung rushed into the bathroom to find you.
"Babe?" As soon as you heard his voice and saw his face you began to cry harder, getting up and wrapping your arms around him as you sobbed into his chest. No one had told him what was making you cry so he looked at your friend for answers,
"They mixed their drinks, they're just gushing about you." Your best friend told him as you began to mumble against Taehyung's chest about how much you loved everything he did for you, including driving out in the middle of the night to come and get you.
"I love you too baby, come on." He chuckled as he began leading you out of the bathrooms and towards the exit, trying to get you into the car as quickly as your drunken Bambi legs would allow you to go.
"you're so kind to me, most people would just leave me alone to cry." You whimpered as he sat you in the front passenger seat, leaning over to do your seatbelt up.
Jungkook winced as you came bounding over to him from the small stage area, your best friend had called him when you'd gotten up to perform your seventh song of the night. All of them some big cheesy romance song which you'd devoted to your boyfriend, even though he wasn't there.
"KOOKIE!" He gripped onto you as you were about to slip and kissed your forehead, as soon as he came into contact with you though you began to sob at him, whimpering as you pushed your head into his chest.
"They've been emotional all night," Your friend whispered to Jungkook as they both began to walk you out of the small bar and over to his car which was waiting for you.
"I have not," You whimpered, Jungkook chuckled as you sat in the car. Folding your arms over your chest as you pouted at him,
"I've been expressing my love for my boyfriend." You sniffled as you stared out of the front of the window.
"You've been devoting your love for me, baby?" He chuckled starting up the engine and reaching for your hand as you continued to let out small sobs, telling him how much you appreciated everything he does for you.
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