I’m not even sure how it can keep getting worse anymore?
But somehow it does.
It. always. does.
39I don’t know how else to call out for help. I’m suffering so much and no one around me sees it. I feel like there’s no reason to live and I don’t know what to do.
1Solía pensar en aquellas cosas que me pasaban y me preguntaba que estaba haciendo mal todo el tiempo pero entre más tiempo pasaba a solas conociendome, me daba cuenta que todas aquellas cosas, siempre han tenido una razón de ser, una razón por la cual sucedían y me han traìdo hasta donde estoy ahora.
Estoy agradecido por los cambios que han provocado y de como me han ayudado a ser mejor, a conocerme, a aceptar las circunstancias, a no mirar atrás, a estar abierto a las miles de posibilidades y realmente, no quiero perderme ni una sola de las mismas.
Solo quiero ser yo, vivir mi vida, equivocarme y aprender, está bien, es parte del ciclo y no está mal. Solo quiero explotar, brillar, mostrar mi potencial, sé que lo tengo y francamente, ya me cansé de sentirme asì, vacìo, sin esperanza, sin amor, sin vivir. Quiero gritar, quiero saltar, llorar de la felicidad, mostrar todo lo que tengo al mundo.
2My eating disorder is so bad that I just can’t sleep anymore. It’s terrible.
5Kırık cam parçalarını toplamak gibiydi,
Kırılan kalbi onarmak,
Ama canım acısada ben topladım o kırıkları,
Ve yeniden ben bozdum…
1I can’t make plans ahead of time. It’s like bro I don’t know if I will be here next week?!
Yo I don’t even know if I’ll make it to tomorrow.
5Sooo I need to talk…
i just did a bad thing.
For a couple days now I wanted to look at old pictures….but one folder in particular.
Aaanndd I just did.
And now I feel to puke :/
Something is seriously wrong inside me and I think I’m officially destroyed, like this is it. I’ve never felt like THIS hopeless before. And so calmly hopeless, like I’ve accepted it. And I know I’m gonna leave someday and I’m ok with it.
I mean I’ve decided I wanted to see Halloween, just one last one. But I still haven’t figured out how I’m gonna leave yet and that’s the part that scares me, that has me feeling like I’m running out of time.
i’m not getting better, and I’m not achieving escaping either. I’m just stuck in the middle feeling all these bad things, even the nostalgia is bad feelings.
I’m just stuck.
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I just wanted someone to hold my hand, and listen to what I was so desperately trying to scream. So much agony. But no one to listen.
11if you prefer quantity over quality, well, let me tell you, you probably deserve nothing more of being left alone in life.xx
1ixh hab Ihn verloren. Alles verloren. Es tut so weh. Why? ich kann nicht mehr und zebrech daran während Er grad eine Andere fickt.
0i don’t know what to feel anymore
what do i have to do
i hate and love the rain
but that’s just how i feel about you
some days you make me feel so happy
some days i feel blue
you still remind me of the rain
that’s why i fall for you119.09.20 | 19:57
My life is okay. I’m lucky to live in a safe country, have a caring family, be (physically) healthy, have a job and enough money to take care of myself. I have a better life than many other people. Yet I’m unable to be happy or have a will to live… I think I’m just too sensitive and needy for this world. Is this how it will always be? Will I have to live the rest of my life feeling this way?
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