It’s so fun when even literally Lying In Bed still makes you feel fatigued

I hate zoom meetings so fucking much my supervisor is nice to me and friendly asking how I am and stuff and I'm scared to ask it back because I don't want to seem nosey even though it's a perfectly normal question for small talk but it feels too forward wtf

Isn’t it sweet how lan complained not once but twice and to two different people that nynaeve wouldn’t talk to him. 

He really wanted her to talk to him but she wouldn’t. Her not talking to him probably kept him up at night.

Poor baby he was in his feelings.

Hawkeye episode 4 you had NO RIGHT

To say she was having feelings of jealousy twinging on her heart would be and understatement, but at the same time, she felt like this was scene of what could have been.  What she could have had, if someone had just looked at her, there was no one else to look at her. 

She had no one, nO oNe To LoOk At HeR!Why... Why.. Why. Why WhyWhyWhyWhyWhyWhyWhyWhyWhyWhy!?  She had been good, she had been selfless, so WHY?!  WHY DID SHE HAVE TO SUFFER!?  WHY WOULDN’T SENPAI COME AND SAVE HER?!

what in the everloving starpollo is this 🙃

I can hear your soul.

Remember when I used to be all stressed out in our tiny apartment because when covid happened it felt like the walls were caving in? My claustrophobia was at an all time high. I didn’t want to talk or do anything. Remember when I used to say, “Someday we’ll be in our house and we’ll be comfortable I’ll hang mermaids all over the walls”? Remember when when I used to dream about being in my own house? I just took a hot shower in the clawfoot tub I wanted since I was a child. Now I’m having a little piece of dark Cadbury chocolate in bed with a glass of ice water. We just got our first Christmas tree in our house tonight✨🎄I feel really lucky and so loved. I hope you’re all doing well tonight and if you’re not, I hope things turn around for you soon too 💘

"claire maybe if you figured out a better system for carrying your things around your bones would hurt less" "claire maybe if you werent trying to wear two sports bras and a backpack at once" "claire this can cause long term issues what do you even have in there" SHUT UP!!! MY BACK HURTY

WOW im depressed

i deserve love and happiness and good things

ti’s flower diary #3

okay so i was kind of looking for a flower that could be connected to vampires? just for fun yknow. and i found this really beautiful one.

it’s called amaranthus caudatus. or more commonly known as... “love-lies-bleeding”.

there isn’t really much interesting lore i could find besides the fact that during the victorian era, this plant represented hopeless love or hopelessness.

which kinda makes sense considering it’s name.

is it chronic pain if its in your bones /gen

i just finished the first and half the second season of locke & key the other day and holy shit someone explain why the show writers just absolutely hate eden????

like. spoiler alert ig for those who havent seen it???? but.

(i go on a bit of a rant here i'm sorry i just have Thoughts)

first sis gets rejected and left halfway with tyler which yes ok good, he had every right and she's not a victim here, BUT. hotshot here tells his "friends" they slept together; the guys who are, put lightly, clearly not very respectful to her. but ok. ok, whatever, writers love putting in annoying drama exactly like this when dealing with teens, tyler isn't iin a great place, he ditches them later, we can move past.

BUT THEN. she gets publicly humiliated and goes viral in retaliation for some petty words. obviously what she said wasn't cool! i get it! but spitting some stereotypical bully lines doesn't warrant getting yanked around like a puppet (and from kinsey of all people- girl acting like she's never said nor will say anything remotely mean to scot ever) and "deserving" aspect aside, think of how horrifying it was from her perspective! like holy hell she had no idea how she was moving like that.

and then one fine morning she's minding her own business, in her room, when kinsey's stellar choices pop up to scare the living hell out of her- this girl is on the ground shrieking, she's not okay.

and when she goes off the assumption that the freaky monster lady thing that looks suspiciously like a strange new girl she doesn't know and hangs with the group she doesn't exactly have love for and has given reasons to hate, is, in fact, that very same girl, who she knows is also working on a no-budget movie set that would probably have things like, say, cheap horror aesthetic makeup and fake claws-

well, obviously she confronts kinsey at school. and then goes on to be ALMOST MAULED BY THE CREATURE. for what, provoking it? yelling too loud? hitting kinsey? no. because kinsey was intimidated by her. who knows what would have happened if she was alone at the time?

and what does she do? eden never calls out tyler despite jackie certainly having told her about his lie (it'd be out of character for jackie if she didn't) and she never berates him for saying no (ahem, kinsey, ahem). eden salvages her reputation twice after kinsey and gabe's little prank, playing off her terrifying and confusing experience as a joke like a pro, first after the face flop and then even after that video. eden, with gashes in her cheek and near-death experience just past, accepts kinsey's apology and explanation with ease and admirable level-headedness. eden, despite having no obligation nor reason, helps them with dodge's body and the black door down in the caves everyone in her town is scared of.

and what does she get? well. forget getting anything- she loses herself instead. and for an entire summer- nobody fucking notices.

.

piece of characterization that makes me feral whenever I think about it:

canis specifically, consistently refuses to call people by their names, with the exception of relda (+ a few other grimms)

the wolf also specifically, consistently refuses to call people by their names. except for relda.

One day, this kingdom

will crumble before you.

There will be no prince

on a white horse racing

to come and save you.

Your James Dean doesn’t care.

He never learned how to love you,

how to hold you.

There is no time to forgive

and no way to forget.

These mistakes stain your skin,

a blood red tattoo

as a constant reminder

of the mistakes you made.

""

What once was a yellow

brick road is now

littered with rubble,

masked by the fog

that polluted your mind.

Still, you walk in a futile attempt to find

peace and shelter from

the cruelty,

the high standards of the world

you were born into.

You walk until you can’t stand,

feet shaky, burned and bleeding

from the journey in this hell.

You walk away from the pain,

away from possessed queens

who demand a different image,

all sparkling smiles and

pencil-thin bodies.

""

The waves are growing,

threatening to take

you down with the inevitable crash.

You don’t know

how to escape.

No heartbreak, no lesson

can save you now.

No weapon and no wisdom.

You are alone,

left to your own devices.

But nothing could have

prepared you for this.

-Tsunami.