I know I’ve gotten abused, bullied assaulted and molested all throughout my entire life because I’m just not what people like or want at all and especially because I’m not what any man likes or wants or finds attractive so that’s why they’ve always hurt me mentally and physically and why they put their hands on me and that’s why I have always been the target and nobody else has been because everybody else fits into what they like and want and what they all find attractive so it’s all what they think is worthy of kindness and respect and love and just because I don’t fit into what everybody on this planet likes and wants then I don’t deserve kindness or respect, everyone just thinks that I deserve to get used and abused until I’m broken down into nothing like now I know that’s why I’ve been through the hell that I’ve been through, I know if I was what these people, these men liked and wanted and actually saw as their type, I know if I was pretty and was cute and wasn’t fat or ugly I wouldn’t have ever gotten abused or molested or raped or bullied by anyone I already know that’s the reason why. All too well.