Hey guys! You know that pain meds can be addictive right? Great, I know that too.
I have soemthing called RA- or Rheumatoid Arthritis. It causes lots of pain for me.
I also have something called AMPS- or Amplified Musculoskeletal Pain Syndrome.
Both of these make me hurt a lot. AMPS is a precursor to fibromyalgia, so I’m trying to get that fixed before it’s too late.
I have had multiple instances where my pain was very bad, but I didn’t take a pain med.
This is not cause I didn’t have access, it’s not cause I thought I could deal with it (I was curled up in a ball actually crying multiple times), it wasn’t cause it wasn’t that bad. I didn’t take pain meds because I was afraid.
There are so many things talking about how addiction is bad, so many things talking about how you shouldn’t take pain meds cause you could get addicted.
I was in the ER cause my pain was so bad, I couldn’t move, my mom brought me. I had to take a pain pill, it still didn’t stop all the pain, I was afraid to take it then, refused another.
I was stuck in bed on a school trip, unable to twitch without my back spasming pain, I ended up taking half a pain pill. I didn’t sleep that night at all cause it barely put a dent in the pain. I was afraid then too.
I was in the car with a headache so bad I couldn’t blink, I was crying, I couldn’t think straight. My mom had to talk me into a pain pill, I didn’t want to get addicted.
I was stretched out on the bed in my college dorm, breathing made my chest ache, shifting made my back hurt, using my phone was making my arms ache, typing my fingers. I shifted and my knee jolted. I took half a pain pill, I went to the health place the next day, they gave me a steroid shot for the pain. I still hurt.
I was given ten pills, only ten, over three years ago. I’m down to half of one, because I’m afraid.
I’ve needed them more then the few times I’ve taken them. All that talk about addictions scares me, I don’t want to be addicted.
I have chronic pain, they need to educate us on when it’s okay to take pain meds. If you can’t walk cause with hurts so bad, you need one. If you can’t think cause it hurts so bad, you need one. If it is heavily interfering with movement or breathing or your life, you need one. If it’s so bad you can’t sleep at all, you need one.
I needed one last night, three of my friends had to talk me into it. I was afraid.
If you have chronic pain and you need help, take the medicine. I don’t know if others feel this way, I just know that I’m always afraid, what if the pain isn’t enough to take the meds? What if I get addicted cause of it? All it takes is one time they say!?
Put your health first please. If you feel this way then take the meds when you need them, im still working on that, but I hope to have the control to do it without convincing one day. My health should come first, I don’t have to live in pain.