Anxiety is such a bitch. Im not dying tonight, asshole, and I’m NOT giving you the satisfaction of being terrified that I will.
My sister is an asshole but I love her
My brother is kind of an asshole but I love him
Together it’s like its their mission to make sure I have no self esteem left.
Through my childhood they turned me into a meek suicidal doormat that they could walk all over.
And it got slightly better when I was living with one if them at the time.
Now? Now they both moved back in and I feel like dirt on the bottom of someone elses shoe
I thought I was over the words you said what seemed like so long ago. But no. Here I am, with the girl of my dreams, friends I love dearly, a community that holds me, and I’m doubting every word I say. Your words should’ve meant nothing. But when I’m here at my lowest point they haunt me and torture me. It was childish. All of it. You were the problem. Yet I feel like it could’ve ended so much better. There are so many things I could’ve said. In the moment they didn’t hurt me like they do now. But I’ve never had to deal with something like that. I told everyone I was alright because I was the rock in that situation. But after so long I am nothing, the situation doesn’t exist anymore. Still I’m reflecting on it. Though the screenshots are gone and no one talks about it anymore I still rewrite ways I could’ve worded it all. I imagine how we could’ve all been together in that place. Maybe I hurt you more than I helped anyone. What was the point then? I’m sorry for everything that happened, and everything that is happening. Hopefully I can move on and forget something so trivial. Hopefully you and everyone else can be happy. Good luck, stay healthy.
𝖇𝖎𝖗𝖙𝖍𝖉𝖆𝖞: july 23 1996.
𝖕𝖗𝖔𝖓𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖘: she / her.
𝖆𝖘𝖙𝖗𝖔𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖞 𝖎𝖓𝖋𝖔: leo sun — libra moon — virgo rising
𝖈𝖚𝖗𝖗𝖊𝖓𝖙 𝖈𝖔𝖓𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖓𝖘: how do i stop feeling like a grandma?
𝖋𝖆𝖛𝖔𝖗𝖎𝖙𝖊 𝖘𝖔𝖓𝖌: oneus — come back home
— aone, kenma, kyotani, matsukawa, tendou
𝔪𝔶 𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔬 𝔞𝔠𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔪𝔦𝔞
— aizawa, kirishima, fatgum, tamaki
— benimaru, vulcan
— fuegoleon, julius, zora
𝔬𝔫𝔢 𝔭𝔲𝔫𝔠𝔥 𝔪𝔞𝔫
𝔞𝔱𝔱𝔞𝔠𝔨 𝔬𝔫 𝔱𝔦𝔱𝔞𝔫
— levi, erwin
— gojo, sukuna
I havent beaten p*th*l*g*c yet but like I really don’t understand shipping of haruspex and the bachelor at all Bc like they both hate each other so much and like aren’t friendly at all from what I know and see and I mean shipping them is fine but it’s like damn I remember being 13 and having to make everyhting gay for no reason but once you like actually get older you stop that shit Bc it’s not even fun and it’s actually annoying like damn the bachelor had a romantic relationship with a female in the game and I 100% prefer that compared to two men who don’t like each other and canonically are enemies lowkey
just in case you guys think im lying. i always mess up at the “Tunisia, Morocco, Uganda, Angola, Zimbabwe, Djibouti, Botswana.” part. after that im a big mumbling mess of mispronouncing but iM TRYING
hello I feel very lonely and alone all the fucking time and there’s no point in life and I literally hate it here
i can’t write anything
Liv’s constant obsession with Aaron’s love life is the weirdest direction that Emmerdale have taken their relationship. (A part from other very obvious unhealthy aspects in their relationship).
My phantom seer edits keep getting worse and worse i’m so sorry
Everyone says it gets better, just get older, you will see. I’m old. Nothing got better. I’m playing a responsible adult every day. But I’m slipping, spiralling, just falling down the rabbit hole…
I developed a new ed while beeing mid 30, it’s hilarious. I switched from eating everything to nothing and the best fucking thing in the world is, everyone is praising my weight loss. Please praise me and I will skip eating another day.
Me, hunched over on the floor eating stale graham crackers by the handful:
My school: is this a good time to send six emails?
My sister: is this a good time to ask bra size questions?
My back: is this a good time to crack like a glowstick and spasm in pain?
My paranoia: is this a good time for conspiracy theories?
Me, cold, stressed, and hating myself, about to lose my marbles:
stole some stuff from Hobby Lobby to make giant tea cup earrings because:
A. I am a cheap bitch
B. I crave giant earrings
C. Hobby lobby can die by my blade
ma hand for size reference because I lost my dang tape measure AGAIN
FUCK I BROKE MY FAVORITE WATCH TOO! FUCK THIS DAY KEEPS GETTING WORSE! UNIVERSE REFUSES TO BE GENTLE ON LILY FUCKING COLLINS! I’M SO OUT OF HERE
do you think if i squeeze myself against the screen enough i could teleport and meet yuujirou and aizou in person……