EVERYBODY SHUT UP AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASON MY BELOVED BOY A A A🤲💗💗💗
he's a long-term parame of mine, he's been around for 4 or 5 years already, he's been through a lot, i made a lot of major changes to both his design and his story but i love him dearly and im happy to have him, he's one of if not the most important para i've ever had, im glad he's here :)💗
MS Paint Character Portraits of My OCs (part 4 of ∞)
Scatterbrain from The Under Under, Achilles Weiss from Heartless, Eileen Wu, Amy Che, Rain Summers, Utopia Mooney, Tobias Fowler, Brandon Swaine, and Desmond Wilde from Imperfections
this is just a bit of background info and the first day at hogwarts
- you entered hogwarts during third year, used to go to a muggle school before cause your parents didnt love the idea of you studying magic
- they despised witches
- “it goes against nature” they said
- you did study magic anyways tho, just at home, in secret, and by yourself
- turned out to be a brilliant and surprisingly advanced witch
- people dont usually enter hogwarts after first year but they made an exception for you after you pleaded your case and proved your skills
- so you attended school the first day of classes and were assigned a house
- the sorting hat had had a bit of a hard time deciding but finally placed you in gryffindor
- professor mcgonagall showed you the way and you sat next to a blond girl, marlene mckinnon
- she was an absolute sweetheart
- some of the people in the table presented themselves. dorcas meadowes, frank longbottom, lily evans, and some others whose names you hadnt learned yet
- after dinner professor mcgonagall approached you and told you that room arrangements had to be made for you
- marlene told mcgonagall she and the girls would gladly have you in their dorm
- she accepted
- your new roomates were lily, dorcas, some girl named mary mcdonall, and of course, marlene
- the room was wonderful and your things had been already placed there so all you did was head to bed
Looks like anthony padilla is doing a video on maladaptive daydreaming and I'm....... not gonna hold my breath ?
My best friend/queerplatonic partner @joestarluxe drew pictures of my OCs and sent them to me! Aren't they gorgeous? I love them so much I got them framed and now have space to display them with my Ultimate Madoka collection!
If you're curious, the OC's names are Erina (blonde girl), Iris (purple-haired girl), Luna (brunette), and Rhaenys (purplish-black haired girl)
🌙🌹 Dirty Paws 🌹🌙
↳ “The forest that once was green
Was colored black by those killing machines
But she and her furry friends
Took down the queen bee and her men”
Let everyday of my life be a 11:11, and let my daydreams come true
Daydream about a para unknowingly stumbling into another realm where they are immediately arrested.
MS Paint Character Portraits of my OCs (part 3 of ∞)
B.B. Battlebee from Weirdworld, Mariette Markovitch, Fivel Markovitch, Olive "Button" Blackeyes, Cattail Blackeyes, and Beetle Blackeyes from... Blackeyes, Winona Wolf and Allie Kestrel from Wolfchild, and Alissa Levinson from Awkward.
def not me day-fucking-dreaming of being pinned to a wall the moment i see the a boy i just found out i may or may not see tomorrow night for the first time after five months (of silence by him)
I’ve made a new realm in my current paracosm and it’s so beautiful man
Daydream about a villainous para who used their powers to bully people in their village, but then those people rose up against the villain and exiled them.
I've been in an existential crisis since yesterday so last night I made this thing.
It's a place called Geanda that I saw once on the edge between sleep and wakefulness, and I incorporated it as a limbo for the dead and soul travellers in my stories. It's basically an eternal landscape of white fur, but I remember there where spaces where the ground became a mirror like pools and crystal structures, specifically a palace. The sky is just how it looks like from Justacireo, my third reality world, hence the planet rings.
THE LAUGH I LET OUT WHEN I SAW THIS
Well, it’s been a long while since I last posted here! My apologies!
I want to take a moment to talk about coping with anxiety using my verits. I don't want to trigger anyone, so here's a quick TW for mentioning covid-19, anxiety attacks, and unreality (for the way I tend to interact with my paras and daydreams)
Over the past couple of years, I found that my anxiety had increased from multiple sources from daily life at home, health, and social media. The pandemic and the events in 2020 did a number to my mental health. I remember having anxiety attacks at night triggered by over worrying about my family’s health. I feared getting sick or dying from covid. The election, police violence, and so on from that year made me so afraid for so long. I’m glad my family held me together. I’m grateful that I am still here.
During the summer of that year, I created Cyprus in June. I used him to help me cope with my anxiety. It was a bit of a learning experience figuring out what traits I wanted him to have. I imagined him as a comforting and nurturing figure, feminine and masculine, strong, kind, and confident—someone who is the opposite of myself. I wanted someone to be calm while I was experiencing symptoms of my anxiety.
I like imagining his deep, calm, and comforting voice guiding me through my thought spirals. It helped a lot. Unfortunately, my frustrations about how my anxiety keeps me from a peaceful mind sometimes bleed over to Cyprus, so he gets frustrated as well. It’s not a good feeling when this happens because this could trap me into a feedback loop bouncing between frustration and anxiousness. I feel held back by my anxiety, and I get tired of how it just stops me from living life.
Anxiety feeds on itself, and it’s hard to break up thought spirals when they get bad. But over time, I learned that I need to be kinder to myself and give myself time to calm down. Patience is key. So, I imagine Cyprus learning how to be kinder to me. He would sit with me and talk with me about what made me so anxious. Break up those thoughts bit by bit. It’s not perfect, but it’s a start. If I can’t be fine right now, I can at least be a little okay. Then a little better later on. Just treat each small moment of peace as a stepping stone. I will be fine eventually. I need to take my time.
I remember a thought I had about Cyprus. He is me loving myself. I think I was always hard on myself for being anxious, easily distracted, having bad thoughts, and just being me. Sometimes, I don’t like myself. That worries me. I felt like I needed another “me” to see myself differently to like me. I know I don’t have to do that, but it does help me learn to accept myself. To learn to better appreciate and respect myself. Not like being overly prideful, but just accepting that I am not a perfect person and that my flaws are just a part of my humanity.
Pyrrhus, who I created later in 2020, functions similarly to Cyprus, but they have a different personality. They’re more fun and spontaneous, exuberant, and bright! They tend to be a significant drive for my motivation and creativity. They love encouraging me to work on my projects. They also help balance Cyprus whenever my frustrations or worries bleed over to him. I feel that Pyrrhus helps keep things in balance between myself and Cyprus.
It took me a good year and a half to figure out how Pyrrhus functions to help keep me calm during my anxious moments. I eventually settled on them helping me out with my mild anxiety symptoms and lifting my mood whenever I feel down.
Also, I should mention Celadie, my newest verit. She’s from the same inspiration as Pyrrhus (I might not mention where cause I feel awkward about it, but Pyrrhus’ character design hints at it). Both she and Pyrrhus share a close bond and often hang out together. I’m still figuring out where she fits in, but I just like imagining her being around, like playing games, spending time watching videos, etc. She’s like a friend to me. Maybe, she’s the peace I’m searching for. A peace I need to learn to accept.
While I do enjoy the company of my verits, I do want to say one thing. My daydreams and verits are not replacements for proper therapy. They are only coping mechanisms to help me while also being something deeply personal beyond that. I do plan in the future to get help for my anxiety and integrate better-coping tools into my verits. I think both Cyprus and Pyrrhus will benefit from CBT therapy since I already use them to help break up my thought spirals. I also believe it will help with building confidence and trust within myself. Something I will look forward to once I get the help I need.
Sometimes when I feel down, I like talking to one of my verits to help bring myself up again. I use either use a personal private discord with Tupperbox or Antar to do. Here’s Cyprus using a grounding meditation to help me:
Usually, songs + images + writing prompts are what give me inspo for little daydreams.
Interestingly, my daydreams usually take the form of what I can only explain as "memories of me and my verit hanging out that definitely probably happened in some other universe"
For example, I see a picture of a fluffy brown sweater. I then get a "memory" of me and my verit when we were about 14 or 15, and she's showing me the sweater that she just got, and I'm touching it bc it's soft. Just cute things like that. Some of my "memories" also replace childhood memories that actually did happen, but with different people etc.
So yeah, if I ever see any media that triggers a "memory" type daydream, I'll reblog it describing the daydream with color text like this!
MS Paint Portraits of My OCs (part 1 of ∞)
(Adult) Chris Hamhock from Nearly Witches, Roger Clinton from Snaggletooth, Hadley Puggs, Jeremy Kleiner, Horace Mann, and Adrian Dawson from Rocktopus, and lastly, Piper Wolfgang, Vinny Avarice, and Edward ??? from What Happened to Edward?)
One thing that sucks with my daydreams is that sometimes I have too many ideas at one time and they're all good so I'll try to do one but then I'm like oh but I need to do the other one it's good too and I keep doing this and repeating scenarios until I'm stuck in a loop and never advancing the plotline because I keep on switching them out
Daydream about a para being shunned from their village and growing up alone.