I need to stop referring to corporations as people; I regularly refer to companies with the pronoun “they,” which is exactly what “they” want me to do. Corporations are metaphysical entities that only exist in the aether, “they” don’t think or feel or do anything; corporate executives do. Disney isn’t some juggernaut that has plans, it’s just a bunch of contracts and numbers in bank accounts, held up by billionaires with agendas. Amazon too. Disney and Amazon and Tesla and Apple and Facebook and all the rest are IT not THEY. I need to stop addressing these corporate entities like they are thinking, feeling cabals when the real cabals are staring me right in the face, wearing suits, attending board meetings and focus groups, testifying in front of Congress about how they plan to keep screwing people over, not paying taxes, etc.
I need to focus less on the internet; my laptop was recently out of commission for a week while it was being repaired, and I benefited greatly from its absence. I want to spend less consuming the internet and more time on creative projects. I’m starting a YouTube channel, I’m focusing on my writing, I’m getting a better ob with better hours so I can do what I love for longer. I want to read more books; I spend hours a day on my phone, I just need to supplement that time by reading instead. I have a backlog a mile long, and I hope to read at LEAST 12 books next year, preferably much more. When I was in 12th grade I read 50 books throughout the school year; I could easily do that again.
I want to be a better person. I need to talk less and listen more. I need to inhibit myself in ways I still don’t fully understand; I tend to drive people away, so I need to focus more on them (without being too clingy), be more open with how I feel (without complaining too much), and I absolutely have to stop using offensive language under any circumstances. It doesn’t matter if I’m joking, it doesn’t matter if I don’t mean it and am just being “ironic,” I need to STOP. Period. End of story. Bye-bye. See you later.
And now for the cliche one: I’ve also been meaning to learn Spanish. My dad is Cuban but he never spoke a word of Spanish to us growing up because he resents his heritage. I’ve taken probably six or seven classes over the years, from elementary school to college, but I’m far from even conversational fluency. I can pick up the gist of it if I read it slowly, but I can’t speak it and certainly can’t understand when someone else speaks it. Duolingo is free, I still have my old textbooks, and my grandma, aunt, and cousins are all fluent and speak it regularly, so I have all the resources I need. I WILL be proficient by next Christmas.