I never persuaded Curtis. I was neither a good enough teacher nor a good enough example. Train yourself for what? he would ask. To sell bonds? To be a good corporation man? To demonstrate shaving between the halves of televised football games? To make a lot of money? To contribute to this vulgarian’s nightmare they call a civilization? To acquire things? No, I would tell him, beginning, God help me, to roar. To be a man. Isn’t that enough? To be a man whose word is trusted and whose generosity can be depended on and who doesn’t demand something without giving something himself.
― Wallace Stegner, All the Little Live Things (Penguin Books, December 1, 1991, first published 1967
Kierkegaard’s writings are the main thing Christ used to bring me back to him. People never consider that Christ weeps for and with us. This idea is so foreign to a materialistic and happiness obsessed culture. Despair is something a lot of Christians have, but don’t get the right help they need from Church families. It’s heartbreaking. This despair Kierkegaard talks about is not “a mood” or “somber.” To put it bluntly, it’s the kind of despair that turns every prayer into either a shriek of pain or uncontrollably crying because everything loses all meaning, especially when we don’t hear Christ in our souls. The very recent time that I finally opened my Bible again was while I was crying uncontrollably and barely able to even feel anything reassembling happiness or joy. That’s when Christ spoke through his Word. It wasn’t hateful, but it was honest. I had silenced him willfully throughout most of my 20 years of life, and now I was experiencing the result of that… But he didn’t leave me… Better yet, he didn’t forsake me. He wasn’t cold, he wasn’t harsh, he merely spoke the truth of my despair I created through my sin and willful separation from Christ. He was forsaken by God on the Cross, something that was a despair no one could comprehend. He doesn’t want us to experience that. This is the Gospel’s purpose.
Please, it doesn’t matter what other people say about you or the despair your feel emotionally and spiritually, Christ is the only one who matters as far as what they say to you, and what he’s saying is Hope. A Hope that heals everything.
~ MARSHALL ROSENBERG
~ Marianne Williamson, Enchanted Love