Sometimes it’s like he’s caught me- not against my will, but like I’m running in a blind panic from something else. There’s a lot of adrenaline, even when we’re just kissing on the couch. He’s serious, or he just has an excellent poker face, so I can rarely tell what he’s thinking. “I like when you initiate” he’ll say, and so I do, because I like making him feel sexy and wanted in the way that he sometimes makes me feel sexy and wanted. But when he grabs, kisses, grinds back I suddenly feel overpowered by him. Trapped, but in a good way. He gets growly when I tell him I’m about to cum. There’s an intensity to him that I was drawn to immediately. It didn’t come across online.
Neither of us speak very much when we do see each other- in a pre covid world, that is. I haven’t seen or heard too much from him after the fact. We don’t have much of a connection beyond the physical, we align on so completely I feel lucky, because that’s rare. He lives nearly an hour away and would invite me in the evening to stay the night and I liked it because he has a beautiful home in a quiet somewhat rural area.
It started out awkward as we did most things that weren’t sex in silence: eat, watch a movie, cuddle, get ready for bed. It’s comfortable now. It’s strange how time spent together- even if the time is in silence- can foster intimacy, comfort. I feel welcomed into his life. I never sense any ill will and feel gratitude that I happened upon him. I believe you could create that with nearly anyone, no matter what else either of you have going on in your lives.
Don’t fight against the people you’ll meet.
They’ll walk with you.
So many people (talking about in life in general) are looking for love through sexual or sensual attraction just because that’s all they know, that’s all they’re being exposed to. Unless you expose someone to authentic love, you can’t expect them to love authenticly. Jesus didn’t just tell us He loved us, He showed us by example how to love one another. Part of being a true believer is being that example, a light in the dark, steadily pointihg to real love.
I understand people want to feel loved badly but it’s never as fulfilling as it seems in your head when Jesus is absent. It’s good when it’s all about Jesus.
A lot of people get trapped in the way is seems and flesh out the way it seems but it still never makes them completely happy because it cost them time with Jesus.
Nothing wrong with affection when it’s pure and rooted and grounded in relationship with the Lord.
Stay you say, gripping my wrist as I slip out of bed. Weekend days are for relaxing. My head realigns with your chest and my palms float across your abdomen. You pull me close to meet your gaze. Whisper that I’m yours.
It’s weird my tummy is one of my biggest insecurities I struggle with. But it’s something about dealing with someone who is super into you, and you feel safe and secure with￼ kissing on your belly 😩😍 it’s in like my the top 10.
I wish I’d known these rules when I started dating 25 years ago!
It would have saved me so many tears and heart breaks from dating wrong guys! And I would have saved so much time healing from break ups and heart pains that I could have invested in much more interesting things then crying for a not matching guy!
The 6 warning signs exist to help you keep wrong men far from you. Each time a man passes the selection of a “filter”, he gets closer to you and from entering your life, heart, body, and soul. When he succeeds in passing a filter, he is then facing the next filter, which let him get closer and so on. If he passes the last filter, he has the right to really enter your life, and body!!!
In this dating book, I will explain to you how to keep the wrong men from entering your life - an essential knowledge to achieve the desired outcome of finding the man of your dreams while dating men.
These 6 vital dating advises will only serve you well, however, after you have first connected with your true self, when you know who you really are and what you really want. That is, after having let go of your childhood’s conditioned programming and of negative influence. This is the very process I will lead you through in detail in my coming second Practical Guide “In Love” to be published in the coming months.
But in the meantime, know that you should be doing all you can to know yourself better, to identify your inner desires and dreams, to let go of your past and to redefine the man of your dreams, and all this from a freed adult and mature point of view! Sound too much to ask?!
Don’t worry, it really is far simpler that it sounds and you may even enjoy the process. Many of my clients do and leave feeling truly liberated and full of new vitality and enthusiasm for what lies ahead.
In the meantime, the following content will definitely already change a lot about the way you approach dating, men and love and will for sure keep the wrong men away from you which is a great start. The next step will be to be able to recognize the right one
you cover my body with yours and
we share breaths in this small space.
god watches us, says we’re his muses
we embody love.
your hands roam the expanse of my skin and i can’t help but explore you
your arms, down your back, your chest, your stomach
cradling your face in the basket of my hands and i whisper.
heat curls around us, licks at my skin and at my insides and it’s a comfortable heat.
we are beauty and the beast except,
you are beauty and i am the beast.
i satisfy myself by connecting our lips.
my lungs expel in the same breath love and a curse.
every string of words that leave your mouth wraps around my body like lace.
climbing. building. amounting. everything’s fading, everything but you.
the bed and the lights and all noise melts away, churns into nothingness and all i know is you.
you’re my world and i am the space that surrounds it. my heart feels like a supernova and
you plant a seed inside of my body
and it’ll bloom.
Honestly I’m just incredibly exhausted, and I know that. I have to stay up late tonight though…as I’m not to sleep tomorrow night.
This always makes me face the downside of my extreme independence. If you can’t connect with people intimately, and you’re built not to rely on them, in your unguarded low moments, you’re left with this ironic longing TO long for someone.
yes i want a gf
yes i’m emotionally unavailable and don’t believe love is possible for me because i have extensive emotional trauma and am terrified of intimacy