hungry hungry bitch
3:11 a.m. and I’m still here.
Why the fuck am I doing here?
Spotify wrap Awards Pod and Years
I can’t come up with anything,, this is madening,,,
sincerely, emo evolving to punk
The demons inside my head are getting louder. I don’t think I can hold any longer. I think I will crack open. They want me to hurt the people i love. They want me to end this suffering, i call life. More than anything they want to be free. Part me wants them to unleash themselves upon everyone. Part of me doesn’t. They don’t understand why i am holding them back. They don’t understand why i am caging them in, letting them suffocate me, choke me, like a small poison that kills from within. They know i was alone then and even today. They have been an only companion to me and maybe that’s why i am afraid to let them go. I know, I have nothing to lose, but maybe there’s still hope for me.
He is the center of all my spinning…the one thing that stands still…
what are you doing in this world? you came to visit but you couldn’t stay.
i’m so sad
that i feel as if my heart might break into a million pieces
i feel a weight on my chest
that i’ve never felt before
like thousands of stories are pressing down
not giving me space to breathe
this weight on my chest
well i think it just might kill me
and who knows
maybe that would be for the best.
You ever just want to be in love?
i always see those number asks and feel like “well that’s fun”
but than there are always so many “what fandoms are you in/what music do you like/what’s your favorite book” questions
and i just. i watch things and i enjoy background noise and sometimes read books. very slowly. thank you dyslexia. but I HAVE NO TASTE. not in a “my taste is bad” way but i generally just experience something and go “oh well that was neat”
except anything with frogs. i just loose my shit if i see a frog. generally if it overlaps with my special interests i’m like Oh This Is VERY NEAT. Great Content. Enjoyed Frog.
what i’m trying to say here is
i’m just a feral gremlin. i really like frogs and fungi. also slugs. and bones.
aside from the point of Jacques acknowledging Lemony but not Kit that has been mentioned various times in fandom already yet i still find intriguing, what the hell was the experiment with sunflowers, also the continuous invasion of post offices, and also J keep talking about “spies at daily punctilio” was he including himself when he said that is the fog caused by natural causes or factory what were they doing to those SUNFLOWERS also jacques giving this very long very articulate speech hmmmm