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  • ibijau
    02.12.2021 - 8 hours ago
    #jau rants #I've had 8 teeth worked on today #all 8 got something done to them #and my boss didn't let me take tomorrow off #I regret not insisting about that actually but welppp too late now
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  • ibijau
    02.12.2021 - 8 hours ago

    dentist appointement done

    big, biiiiiig ouch

    also eating is gonna be fun tonight and probably tomorrow, because now both sides of my mouth hurt

    #technically he finished working on one side today so that'll get better #but for tonight at least only my front teeth are really useable lol #jau rants
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  • ibijau
    02.12.2021 - 14 hours ago

    I have less than zero will to work today

    or do anything at all, really

    my bed calls me so much

    #jau rants #I don't sleep super well lately so I wanna nap all day
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  • ibijau
    02.12.2021 - 15 hours ago
    #that fic started as me working out some stuff lol #mostly about whether the cost of transitioning (in terms of money and time and emotions) would be worth the final result #that's what favourite characters are for: you can dump all your problems on them looooool #jau rants
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  • ibijau
    29.11.2021 - 3 days ago

    it’s not winter yet but winter has already lasted too long

    #jau rants #I should go out and buy bagels for tonight's dinner #but that requires so many steps that I don't know if I'm capable of it
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  • ibijau
    29.11.2021 - 3 days ago

    I watched one (1) interesting but slightly distressing video this morning while working, and not I’ve been feeling like an anxious mess for two hours and I don’t know how to calm down again, yay

    #jau rants #I didn't expect that video to impact me quite so badly bc well I watch disaster stuff all the time #but that one hit me hard for some reason #I think in general my anxiety has been pretty high lately and I need to find something less distressing than true crime and disasters #to listen to while I'm working #like I think my anxiety levels are directly causing the fact that writing is so hard lately
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  • ibijau
    28.11.2021 - 4 days ago

    seriously tho I am madly craving modern AU xisang to a degree where it’s not even funny anymore

    #I have one in the works #except I can't fucking figure how they first meet #the entire rest of the story is ready to write but I don't know how they meet #but also I want to read stuff!! I want!!! I have many wants #I also should try to continue that jurassic park au lol #but yeah just I'm suddenly intensely into the concept of modern AUs even tho I usually really dislike them #jau rants #I want gnc xisang and fem xisang and autistic but good at masking lxc with adhd nhs and... I just... I want all the things #brain plz calm down lol
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  • ibijau
    28.11.2021 - 4 days ago
    #jau rants #I am not always very good with technology
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  • ibijau
    28.11.2021 - 4 days ago

    “I’ll go to disney if it stops raining” and then it didn’t fucking stop raining until just now, when it’s late enough that I’ll get there almost when partner finishes work so it’s not really worth it to go in the park at all 

    #jau rants #hhh today's just... like that uh #I'm annoyed and restless and so damn fucking bored
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  • ibijau
    28.11.2021 - 4 days ago

    Can’t believe I’ve become a millennial that enjoys avocado toast

    #jau rants #I'm bored and restless #and craving modern AU xisang like crazy #which is weird bc I typically avoid modern AUs as a rule #but I also used to really really hate avocado so tastes change I guess #but modern AUs are so damn hard to write so this is a real problem orz
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  • ibijau
    27.11.2021 - 5 days ago

    me, looking at my mdzs dolls, remembering how I used to think non-OC dolls were boring, and that people who have more than one doll version of a character are annoying: that tumblr post was right, mdzs really does rewire your brain

    #jau rants #listen try as I might #pretty much all my favourite things in life started with me taking a quick glance and being 'ew that looks awful' #and then making a fool of myself later on #that includes mdzs bc when my partner first described it and talked about sects I imagined mormons and amish and couldn't see the appeal at #at all
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  • ibijau
    27.11.2021 - 5 days ago

    Encanto was... nice?

    Fun songs, fun visuals. Disney seems to be trying to move away from its “here’s a very good hero and here’s a very evil vilain” formula and... good, I guess?

    But as partner and I got home, we started picking at some details a lot because like. Yeah, some stuff doesn’t make sense if you start thinking too much about it.

    Again, fun to watch tho

    but, and this is very important: the capybaras in it are kinda ugly, and I can’t forgive that

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  • ibijau
    26.11.2021 - 6 days ago

    I’m not in pain from post dentist stuff, but I’m sufficiently out of it that I really wish I could have had today off

    #jau rants #I feel like my brain is working very slow #didn't even take painkillers or anything tho so it's #really weird #also of course I'm supposed to juggle between four different tasks today loooool bc the reason I couldn't get a day off #is other people asked for today off too
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  • ibijau
    25.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    Sometimes a scene comes to you in, like, disjointed bits of dialogue here and there that your hurriedly write down before they disappear, and oh boy what fun it is to figure out how to connect that mess so it looks like you had a plan all along

    #jau rants #I'm being dramatic. It IS actually kind of fun #One bit was written... I think over a month ago? And I didn't even know in which chapter it'd go? #sometimes writing feels like building a lego project and you've lost the instructions
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  • ibijau
    25.11.2021 - 1 week ago
    #I was so tense for the entire hour there that I was trembling for several moments of it looooool #and then when it was over I felt so fucking disoriented I couldn't understand when the assistant asked about payment #jau rants #I'm a delicate and fragile little thing even if I try to play tough sometimes
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  • ibijau
    25.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    it’s dentist time again yay

    #it's gonna be dentist time once a week for another two weeks also #possibly more loool #fun times#jau rants #plz kill me even if the guy's nice I hate this
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  • ibijau
    25.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    HUAN-ER IS IN FRANCE HUAN-ER WILL BE HOME SOON

    #I was going to make a post about doll!nhs being impossibly cute now that I have him in his teen donghua look #but Huan-er related news take priority #I AM SO EXCITED #hhh if she arrives tomorrow or saturday I could do her face this weekend????? #jau rants #wait do I have hair for her tho #I gotta check #also I hope some of the billions eyes that didn't work for doll!lxc will work for her looool
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  • ibijau
    24.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    I fucking hate office days so much

    at least it’s over for this week

    I just feel so fucking drained honestly.

    #jau rants #and tomorrow I go to the dentist #but at least I managed to write a little today? #on the jin rusong fic and the time travel one #it's... something I guess #but I hate the office and I miss my dolls so much when I'm there
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  • ibijau
    22.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    I swear I should just stick to only reblogging fandom stuff bc every time I reblog something expression an opinion it turns out to be super wrong, and I just don’t have the time/energy to do in-depth research about everything

    #I do try to look stuff up if it looks really outrageous but... yeah there's too much stuff all the time #I already avoid reblogging cute animals bc half the time you learn after that they're actually in distress or something #and I am highly suspicious at anything that teaches science/history #I am not a very smart person I guess and I'm very bad at telling what true and what's just a manipulation of the truth #jau rants
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  • ibijau
    22.11.2021 - 1 week ago

    ok but now I’m wondering if it’d work to, like, turn my old highschool novel into a transmigration-style story.

    #jau rants #the issue is that the character best suited for that treatment is the trans guy and I need to figure out how I'd deal with that #possible the 'original' version of the character would have been the good old 'girl dresses as a boy for plot reason' #while the transmigrator is in fact trans and isn't going to drop the disguise because surprise bitches that's who he is #maybe?
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