I’ve been cutting up little words and pictures out of free local magazines and newspapers to paste in my inspiration journal and (small) vision boards. It makes journaling even more fun and colorful! They can make cute accents to pen pal letters too.
1/17/2021 | 1/100 Days of Productivity
I am so excited to get this started! I am have been in quarantine since arriving on campus and I am going to be discharged on Wednesday. Surprisingly enough, I’ve been able to start implementing good habits, make my notion the way I want it (thank you @twirlingpages for the beautiful templates), and start checking tasks off of my weekly/daily lists.
Today I was able to complete two English readings, do some journal entries, read for fun (Norse Mythology by Neil Gaiman is so much fun), and watch a recorded lecture for my excel class.
Feel free to follow along in my journey!
I just need to do some typing into the VOID…. some Journaling into the safety, arms, and anonymity of strangers. My life has been fundamentally changed by my recent life experiences within the last two years.
Lots of people have wondered at my age and marital status. Not the purpose of my blog. Many years ago I went from a spunky girl to one who was raped several different time by different men and I became scared and hyper vigilant as I began working through depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and panick attacks. I’ve hopped from non-sexual relationships ever since. I’ve dated men who gave me LIP service, but didn’t want me. Feeling UGLY and UNLOVEABLE and LESS became the FOCUS of my SEXUAL FANTASIES. Anyone who could treat me like shit sexually (meaning ignoring me sexually), became the man for me!!! I’d masturbate to the thought of being cheated on and passed over for someone else. This became my SAFE BUBBLE. My secret tranquility. For years I dressed in shapeless clothing and got fat. I convinced myself that I had a masculine spirit and that I attracted effeminate men. I went completely down some PTSD war Torn Rabbit Hole!! I’ve barely begun seeing a therapist for it, once I was “SAFELY,” out of the military. Only after a few years did I finally begin to address my years of misery. I’m a very sexual creature who’s wasted most of my life avoiding sexual situations. I find myself attracted to transvestite men? Women? I can never tell wtf I’m supposed to call whom… men with Breast implants and cocks. Like. I could have a GIRLFRIEND who could still be my boyfriend. So, sexual rape has broken me from the inside out and left me confused in life. I have been chasing love all my life and now, I just want to love me. I’m willing to be desperately alone forever, yet, again…. that’s just my PTSD talking more smack against my already lonely ass heart.
The little Stickers for Dates look so CUTE!!!
Week 4 2021 Update and Bullet Journal Spread
A very short one today for week 4 of 2021. It’s been a mad week, which I talked about in my last post! In summary, I’ve now picked up my new car (which is very shiny!) and I’ve got all my initial meetings regarding my house purchase organised. My only new news is that I’ve been confirmed in a permanent position in my job! How’s that for a week’s good news?! Job, house and car all in one!
Name one event that troubles you and you want to work on letting go of.
had 4 journals till now
none of them looks like Mae’s journal
honestly kinda disappointed at myself, I’ve been writing since 2016 ig and they’re all different
Finally a spread that has to do with Wonho 💕 I’ve been wanting to make this spread for a while but I don’t have access to a printer so it took me a while to get the pictures, but it’s finally done~
This is Wonho as a Witch of the Light from the Fairy Oak saga.
Where two of my biggest passions in life found their origin: two passions start: journaling and music - with thanks to my moth·er/ˈməT͟Hər/
I’ve always been a fan of the start of a New Year, the arrival of my birth day, and Labour Day, but maybe more for the elements I incorporated to them that made them special, versus the days themseves.
These occasions provide me the opportunity to indulge in a little retrospection of the recent past, and allow me to evaluate how I wished to move forward, personally, professionally, financially,…
63rd Personal Prompt
“What Motivates You To Stay On Track When Pursuing A Goal?”
Spring classes start Tuesday 🐞
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