Lol like I'm watchin Boruto and usually Boruto doesn't annoy me that much but him being hella anti steal from the rich and give it to the poor is so damn aggravating like yes Hokage's son who's never had to worry about not being able to buy food or basic essentials please enlighten me on why you think that way and that anyone who does that is a no good criminal-
#/lh #i joke about how beeduo acts sus and was probably mistaken for two runaway criminals about to commit a heist or something #but like. legitimately #who the HELL agrees to let two teenagers LEASE a room for only TWO DAYS?????? #this HAS to be a cultural difference that im just not understanding (or maybe a part of adult life im too young to have experienced) #but the fact that tubbo Told His Story With The Words That He Did #not mentioning a more lax motel or airbnb. but instead plowing right through to renting - WHICH RANBOO AGREES IS WHAT THEY DID - #WHICH MEANS HE ISNT LYING - ??? #*deep exhale* #sorry for all the caps this is just such a wild concept to me. (and even wilder that it's not made up) #/nm /srs#mcyt#ranboo#tubbo#beeduo#bee duo
my brain thinks im dying from the inside out. its telling me im rotting internally, that my organs are slowly failing. i know my ibs is very severe and its been causing me so much pain recently, but mmhmgnm.
im seeing my doctor next wednesday and hopefully ill get referred to a gastro. if i finally get a treatment that works, maybe my delusions will die off a bit and ill hurt less.
still a bit worried abt possibly being given antipsychotics again, thooo. i know i gotta bring up my psychosis resurfacing w/ my psych either way. just worried after what happened to me last time i took antipsychotics,,
#not to mention im so tired of taking so many fucking drugs #ssris. other antidepressants. painkillers. antinausea. laxatives. antihistamines. #im taking one of the most powerful antinausea drugs out there and its still not fucking helping. #this shits literally for chemo patients and here i am. #mmm i feel like my life is being held by a thread #do i need a vent tag #whatever its my blog #veemo
#i love it when characters have trauma i love it when things reach rock bottom and just keep spiralling downwards #i never mention him but i really like gon 3 but it's really frustrating that so many people reduce his character to this heartless monste #who only cares about himself. some of his behaviors aren't exactly normal in lack of a better word but i think that's more of a reflection #of the kind of society that exists in hxh rather than *him* being evil as people say #i mean this is a world where assassins are celebrities and hunters aka some of the most prominent figures are so privileged that they can #get away with committing basically any crime. how normal can you be #and i'm pretty sure his sheltered but at the same time lax upbringing is partially to blame for this naivety/acceptance of bad stuff #that he has too #animanga#mypost #hunter x hunter
Hi friends. I have so much to talk about, and I haven’t done that in a while, so here I am. It’s been a very long time since I was on tumblr 24/7, constantly writing and making new friends. A huge disconnect happened last year, and a lot of people drifted away, and stopped talking and writing with me. So, I just sort of started lurking. I really miss making friends, and I really miss writing everyday like I use to. I have also been considering changing my mun name. Daisy was one I liked for a while, and though I’d like something very Star Wars-esqe, I’m dry on ideas.. I’m quietly rebooting this blog though, and I’m taking my time with it. Any ideas for a mun name would be greatly appreciated though.
A year ago, I was most happy with my life, and things have just been very lonely and difficult lately. I’m having to talk to the disability services at my school, just because my health hasn’t been this bad since I was a little girl. I don’t ever remember wanting to not wake up this much since I was like twelve, and I’m going under very quickly. I feel guilty, and though I’ve never been a good student, I haven’t been this neglectful in college specifically.
My doctor doesn’t take my health seriously and I’ve been feeling like I might have bipolar disorder. My work hours have been severely cut, and I just found out that my school will be making me replace my overdue textbooks from the last two quarters, they want me to pay for 75% of the new cost despite the books being in perfect condition still.
I also feel extremely trapped inside of my house, I’ve been getting panic attacks for the first time in years, and to top it all of-- my relationship crashed and burned. I asked to take a mental health step back and he took advantage of it, and decided to look for a new girlfriend in the meantime.
I just feel so overwhelmed and so alone. I miss life the way it use to be.
I’ll be lurking, and quietly writing tonight. If anyone is interested, here is my discord. I’d love to make some new friends, and maybe even do some writing over there too. Love you all. ( 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐥𝐲𝐬𝐬𝐚#6669 )
#𝙄𝙏'𝙎 𝘾𝘼𝙇𝙇𝙀𝘿 𝙈𝙐𝙍𝘿𝙀𝙍 𝘽𝘼𝘽𝙔 ! ✧ ( ooc ) #[ tw ; mental health ] #[ tw ; sui.cide mention ] #[ tw ; cheating ] #[ I don't know how to tag triggers. im sorry. ] #[ I just feel so alone right now and I wanna burst into tears and I don't even know why ] #[ I miss my life. ] #[ I didn't even mention the eating disorder or laxative abuse issues ] #[ I just wanna be far far away from here. ] #[ I wish I made more money. I could leave. ]
For the past few days I just haven’t cared how much I ate?? Like I probs ate around 1000 calories and didn’t care ..... but now I just took a laxative for the first time :,) the one thing I was trying to avoid :,)
People don’t often talk about the reality of eating disorders. I was driving to school today and I had to stop at a gas station because of the laxatives I took the night before. This shit isn’t pretty. This shit isn’t aesthetic. It’s misery. It should not be glamorized.
#he scares me and i am scared of him #always #and i am always thinking about him #i live in a constant state if fear of rick lax #this is another one im scheduling but this time im awake at 630 am and haven't slept #god i need to sleep #anyways im probably asleep when you see this #i should make this a regular thing #every night before i go to bed I'll make a post and schedule it for the mornings #usually for while im still asleep #qnd then you all can see my madness though from my average bedtime of 5 am #i should guve these post a tag #idk what tho and as mentioned it is 6 thirty am and i need to sleep #idk if you got any suggestions share em somewhere #idk im so tired
#food mention #my stomach is such a pussy lmfsodjdjdb I ate 1 millionaire shortbread and my stomach is in knots #honestly it’s like taking laxatives now 😔🖕🏾 #anything dairy is just like instantly feeling like shit when I get paid I need to start buying vegan subs #but vegan shit isn’t cheap and even if it isn’t I’m too depressed to slave away and cook shit anything like...
Gosh, I took laxatives first time in months and I feel horrible...i think I'm getting worse again. I just realised what I did. I bought them without any consent of anyone even myself. I took them, more than I should've, because I felt disgusting in my own body...this illness if fucking with my brain too much...
rossi bought reid the comme des garcons sweaters and wrote the expense off as charity to avoid taxes for the year
#rmr when reid was like theres this country Vanuatu that has ex lax tax policy like the new canarians and rossi went Hm. #HAHAHHAHAHHA original headcanon rossi is a tax evader HHAHHAHWHAH #criminal minds#david rossi#spencer reid #only the best! #also the thing abt me knowing Every flag of every country on earth meant that inwas like omgggg thats the first time ive heard #vanuatu mentioned at all? outside of me doing a quiz on those it has like a misshapen yellow circle of some sort on its triangle #part it looks like that benzene thing of a snake eating its tail #this is such a stupid fucking tangent actually lemme just not
in other news, one of my coworkers tested positive for covid-19 and the managers won’t tell us who it is or which us was exposed bc “we can’t track where you are all the time”. and they’re letting us go to work like usual if we “feel fine” and “listen to our body” without even getting tested!
so now i’m getting tested tomorrow morning and i’m not going back to work until my results are in. and i’m stuck in my room so i don’t further expose my mom and roommate to potential infection that i may or may not have. and i’m sad.
#tink rambles#covid 19 #yeah im reporting them tomorrow #i didn’t expect to report them twice for slightly different reasons #but here i am #have i mentioned i hate my employers #but i’m also mad at myself bc i slacked off on wearing a mask #they’re so lax about it at work that we only wear them when a customer is in the building #that’s it #i should’ve been better but they’re uncomfortable and just shrugged it off #now i’ve put my mother and roommate in danger #it hasn’t been a good day
I'm not gonna answer the anon i just got bc it's really lays out child abuse, so while yeah I totally agree that Phil is a garbage father and he sucks,
DO NOT SEND ME ASKS ABOUT CHILD ABUSE.
I know we're talking abt garbage ppl and stupid ee storylines on this blog but there's a point where it makes me very uncomfortable and i don't want to answer. Please just keep anons outside of explicit abuse. You can mention it but pls don't describe it in detail.
#eastenders #tw: child abuse #tw: child abuse mention #i really should tag my tw more i was lax the past few asks #but yeah stop it please #dont send me that stuff #send me the silly stuff
I've recently started using fasting as an excuse to not eat with my dad, but I accidentally told him about my day long fast (+4 hours). It was to make sure even if I overeat (aka binge) on the big meal we had planned I wouldn't have to worry about the calories. He just kept saying I really shouldn't do that over and over, when he himself TOLD ME he was going to starve himself to lose 4 pounds just a few days prior. (He also used laxatives to "achieve" this.) Like,, I'm just out here starving for a day (then, haha, eating like 1200 cals,,, sometimes less) but like you did it for two days and used laxatives and thats okay? I'm just blown away by the hypocrisy.