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I based Vlad off of a Alpine Sheep ^_^ They are Non Binary (like myself) and it feels good to have an avatar that represents my personality<3

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Any LGBTQIIA+ witches, pagans, those practicing witchcraft, spritiual folk, etc. wanna chat or maybe be friends? 🥺🪄💖🌱🔮🌜

Stream will be late today, im going with my mom to visit her aunt. She isnt doing great :(

Just wanted to let you all know so you arent wondering why the stream isnt up.

people with a gender that changes can at least switch between how they wanna present!! i however have to constantly want to be feminine, masculine and androgynous >:(

I just laughed at the thought me being straight

Love now at twitch.tv/vladolak2 Playing #stardewvalley with my friend :) Later on Ill start tackling the Witcher 3 :D #thewitcher3 #stardewvalley #xboxcommunity #xbox #twitchstreamer #twitch #instagram #twitter #tumblr #lgbtq🌈 #LGBTQIIA #lgbtqstreamer https://www.instagram.com/p/CNF5MapH8tE/?igshid=128j8kajrho8b

i came out to my aunt a few days ago and she agreed to buy me a binder and when she couldn’t buy me the one i wanted she started researching them i love her so so so so much

I just wanted to say that polyamory is fuckin lit like wow das so kool u have multiple partners wow kool amazing i might never do dat but other people do and dats so flippin kool like wow wow wow amazang

hey y’all do u guys think my family got the hint that i’m bi when i posted this on instagram

also check the location at the top lmao

can nonbinary people use she/her and they/them pronouns or do they have to use they/them only...???

Now something feels missing - 13/12/2020

A busy weekend alone.

My flat is still a mess.  So it’s hard to gauge productivity when it feels like this.

But at least the Christmas shopping is done.

I’m thinking a lot about love and relationships at the moment.

Everything feels okay but nothing excites me.

I guess that’s the type of year it’s been though.

I want to be in love again.  And the feeling of falling in love.

I’m trying to force it in my daydreams. Trying to search for if this is what I want, then why am I so against dating right now?

I thought maybe I had undiscovered romantic feelings for one of my best friends. I don’t. I’m just really looking forward to seeing him again.

I’m tired of the dating apps.  I stop replying.  But get sad when no one replies to me either.

I just need to get on with things but the whole groundhog day of study-work-exercise-sleep-repeat. Just fucking sucks and is dull when it’s dark all the time.

Hmm - 11/12/2020

So maybe this will sound flip-floppy compared to my previous posts, maybe not.

I’m on my period rn which always makes me feel quite extra in terms of emotions and sometimes completely different to how I feel when I’m not on my period - when will I learn?  

Anyway since my last two posts, (broke things off with this lady I was seeing, had some fun with a cis-man), I feel v different to even two days ago.

Last night I was on the phone to some other guy from Bumble and I’m quite open if someone asks me what I like sexually and about masturbation etc. I don’t care I’ll just tell you.  I just don’t think sex is this thing people should hide and keep secret.  And when I tell women this stuff, they find it intriguing and the conversation maybe gets a bit flirty but not full on sexual.  Not over the phone anyway.  And so when I was telling this guy these things he’s clearly enjoying it a bit too much and being on my period I’m not exactly enjoying it so by the time I figured out what was happening I was just laughing and enjoying the control I had over this guy who was about to (and did) cum in his pants.  Bearing in mind this is like the first proper phone call we’d had I kind of felt like a free sex caller at this stage and I was like “why am I not getting paid for this?!”. 

That kinda made me revert back to my FWB situation I had with the first guy I was intimate with when I was 18.  And how I just felt a bit used and sexualised.  I guess because I didn’t expect the phone call yesterday to turn into that, I guess it made me feel a bit like “wtf dude, thought we were just chatting”. Kinda made me feel like most guys are like that though.  The other guy, I was with on Monday, Z, he was no different really but at least he went about it a bit more respectfully.

So this realisation kinda made me like “well this is clearly not what I want.” So, what do I want?  And then the girl I was dating & broke things off with started messaging and idk, I feel like I already miss going on dates with her.  I want to take her nice places and be cute with her.

I mean these feelings towards her where 'I wish things were different’ were bound to happen.  There’s nothing inherently wrong with how we get on, it’s just a timing issue and soon there will be a distance issue.  It’s a shame but for the best.  At least we get to stay friends this way.  And who knows, maybe things will be different one day.

And I guess period-me is feeling sentimental.  I started missing having sex with someone I love.  Someone around to cuddle me, rub my stomach or make me tea when I have period pains.   Or just someone around in general to be like “hey, I really care about you and what you’re up to”. 

Then ofc my mind naturally goes back to my most recent ex (which is now a whole year ago) like, “hm, wonder what she’s up to”, “will we ever speak again”, “does she even think about me anymore”. It’s not like I would want anything from her now but that’s just the last example of that closeness that I had.

We’ll see how I feel after my period.  But it’s annoying because I really don’t have time for a relationship so if that’s what I want, I kind of need to sort my studying out so I can make space for it in my life.

Hmmn.

I didn’t post anything for National Coming Out Day, so here’s something for all of you guys.

As being closeted myself, I know what it feels like. It doesn’t matter if you’re out or not, you are you and that’s okay. One day, you’ll come out, and It will feel awesome. No matter what, we support you, no matter whoever you decide to tell says. 

Did I just buy a hyrdoflask and a pride sticker just so I can make it clear to my coworkers I’m not straight? 

Yes. Yes I did. 

Eu me sinto inexistente quando alguém que não entende me trata como um retardado, porque tipo, eu sou assexual e arromântico, isso não quer dizer que eu sou infeliz por não ter alguém, pelo contrário eu sou feliz assim e as pessoas não entendem. Poxa eu to cansado quando começam a falar sobre relacionamento eu só abaixo a cabeça, porque explicar não resolve!

I wonder who in my family will be the first to tell me that "queer is a slur" and when because I use the word pretty often when talking about anything lgbt+. It'll be pretty funny tho when it happens.

Estou bem só, e não há problema algum nisso.

Eu sou assexual e não sofro por isso, pelo contrário me sinto livre sem preocupação nem peso de outra pessoa nas minhas costas. Não tenho paciência para ter relacionamento, sou arrumado até de mais, se eu tivesse alguém com certeza eu já teria tido várias infartos, é muita cobrança do(a) parceiro(a).

Some lovely YouTube comments I found