Burn For You - Loki x Reader
Words: 5278 Pairing: Loki x Reader (loki: he/him pronouns used. Reader: they/them pronouns used.) Featuring: Thor, Steve, Natasha, Tony, Other Avengers Warnings: Arguing, yelling Summary: Based on Burn For You by Abigail Barlow and Emily Bear and Bridgerton as a whole, you and Loki agree to create a fake relationship to help both of you get what you want in life. A surprising turn of events causes chaos for the pair. Author's Note: I am obsessed with Bridgerton. This is mostly based of Daphne and Simon's story from the show (and the song from the unofficial album) and I love it so much. The song is featured at the end of the fic in italics but the rest of the fic is also Bridgerton based. Takes place after Ragnarok, but no Thanos/Infinity War/Endgame. This fic includes fake dating, mutual pining, somewhat arranged/convenient marriage.
This is also a fic for @girl-next-door-writes 's Bingo challenge! This is for the mutual pining square.
Loki / Bingo / Full Masterlist
You sat at a table across from Loki, thinking about his proposition. Would this really be a good idea? You and Loki...pretend to be together? You help him gain more trust from the world; he helps you get noticed by the man you're crushing on.
You set your hands out on the table and looked around the party, making sure no one could hear your conversation. Quickly, you looked back at Loki, surveying his body language. He was serious; he wants to regain the trust he lost all those years ago and live peacefully in New Asgard with Thor and the other Asgardians. Though it has been a few years now, he was still in the same place of citizens, Asgardian and Midgardian alike, not trusting him and afraid of looking at him ever-so strangely.
"It is an absurd plan," You declared.
He thought this plan was foolproof. News outlets everywhere would deem both of you exactly what you want: Loki, trustworthy; you, desirable. "Whatever should you have to lose?" He egged on.
With a few more moments of silence, you smirked at him. "Okay," You said.
A smile grew on Loki's face as well. He reached out and grabbed your hands, leading you away from the table and into the middle of the crowd gathering around the dance floor. "If this is to work," Loki leaned in to whisper into your ear as all eyes were on the two of you. "We must appear madly in love."
You tried not to pay attention to the people watching the two of you, but it was difficult. Avengers and random patrons both were confused; no one was aware that you two had any interest in each other at all. You danced with Loki to the song playing as other couples around did the same, and you guys just stared at each other as you danced. You knew there would be some stressful conversations come morning, but you couldn't think about that right now. You had to keep your focus on this ruse for the night.
You sat at the breakfast bar in the kitchen in the Compound the next morning, a bit concerned that no one had come to ask you about this new relationship. You were reading the headlines on Twitter, seeing that the plan was working so far. People wanted to know more about this relationship; how it came to be, why you are together, when it happened; they wanted more. But you needed to talk with Loki again before either of you spoke to any press.
"So, Loki, huh?" Steve asked as he opened the fridge from across you. "When did that happen?"
"It's...new," You said carefully. "We decided last night to go public. It was about time," You told him.
Steve chuckled as he turned around with some fruit in his hand. "It was definitely a surprise to all of us. How's it going with him?" He asked. He didn't want to seem pushy, but Steve was curious. And, of course, he would report back to the other Avengers once he got the answers.
"Very well," You said. Keep it short and sweet; nothing can go wrong there. "I wasn't expecting it to blow up online, but I guess more people are interested in us than I thought. People are assuming so many things," You said, still vague.
Before Steve could ask anything more, Thor boomed his way into the kitchen. "Ah, Captain, I wanted to thank you for letting us stay here overnight before we head back to New Asgard!" He patted Steve on the back. "Oh!" Thor said as he turned around and saw you. "Good morning, (Y/N). Gave us quite a surprise last night, hmm?" Thor raised his eyebrow.
"I guess so," You said. "I'm sorry we didn't tell you, Thor," You apologized.
"Nonsense!" Thor demanded. "I'm just glad you two are happy. Maybe now that people see you and Loki together, they will realize he has changed. Especially if the rest of us approve?" He posed the question, and Steve nodded in agreement.
"It would be nice," Steve added. "I'm sure it would make things easier over in Asgard."
Thor laughed. "He's still a trickster; the people know that! Oh, good morning, brother," Thor stopped as Loki walked into the kitchen as well.
"Good morning," Loki greeted Thor and Steve, then smiled when he saw you. "Good morning, (Y/N)," He said and walked over to stand next to you. "We will be heading back to New Asgard this morning; you must come visit soon, my dear," Loki commented.
You looked over your shoulder at his slight smile. "I would love that."
Steve nodded to you as he exited the kitchen, not interrupting your conversation with Loki. You were sure he would run off to tell the others about what you told him, but that may make it seem even more real with the gossip already spreading. Thor followed Steve after he grabbed something else out of the fridge, not saying anything as he left.
"We need to discuss this arrangement," You said in a hushed voice to Loki. Loki raised his eyebrow as he waited for you to elaborate, not speaking. "We have to play the part fully if we want this to work. The Avengers have some important appearances coming up that I have to attend, and you should go with me."
"How many?" Loki inquired.
You thought for a moment. "Depending on how long this ruse goes on, it could change. But right now, five."
"I will come to three," Loki said, and you rolled your eyes in response. "I am not one that likes to attend events like that. And before you say anything, I attended last night as a favor to Thor," Loki explained.
"So you'll go as a favor to Thor, but not me?" You asked.
"He is my brother. He has priority right now," Loki shrugged and turned so he was leaning against the breakfast bar with his arms crossed. "But I will compromise at three events."
You narrowed your eyes. "Four."
You sighed. "Fine, but I'm sure I'll talk you into one more," You smirked. Before Loki could reject that idea, you grabbed your things and walked out of the kitchen and to the common room.
Loki followed, huffing at you slightly. He made sure no one was around to hear the rest of this conversation as it was continued into the common room. "In compromise, you will come visit Asgard and appear at a few events with Thor and me, as well. I do not have a schedule yet, but once I know, I will pass it on to you."
"I know that isn't meant to sound appealing to me, but I really do want to visit Asgard," You told him, and Loki didn't care whether you were interested in it or not; he just wanted you to show up. With Loki trying to gain more trust and currently at a standstill, he figured some events in Asgard would be wise. One of their picnic days, a market, and something else he would come up with. If, after only the announcement and a few dances together rallied all the social media and news outlets, a few events together were sure to send the two of you over the line, and the people would have no choice but to trust Loki again.
He just wanted to have redemption for the mistake in New York and show people that he has truly changed. Thor and the rest of the Avengers saw it, but everyone on the outside was still cautious and suspicious of him, rightfully so. He needed to prove to them that he has changed, and with you by his side, how could they not believe him?
This ruse went on longer than either you or Loki thought it would. Initially, you two thought at most it would be two months. Now, four months later, here you are and still going with this. The original plan was for Loki to attend three Avengers events with you, and somehow, he managed to come to every single one by your side; even the ones that popped up with little warning, he was there. And you had come to enjoy the random promenading through Asgard and getting to know the people there, too. Without even realizing it, people all over the world had grown to love you and Loki together.
It was a bit overwhelming at first, especially for Loki. For someone who has been through so much, not much intimidated him anymore, but once he realized how popular you were among the Avengers' fans, it surprised him. Some fans were really intense and even a bit aggressive about this relationship and threatening things if it ended poorly, which only worried the two of you even more. But since the world was still wary about Loki, and your crush had yet to do anything, you two just continued with this ruse; why not?
Tonight was a very important night for the Avengers to attend. Tony Stark was hosting a charity gala, and hundreds of people would be there; it was one of the dead-set events that you and Loki agreed on going to together if the ruse was still going on. Even if the ruse was over, both of you had to be there. It was one of the few events that Tony asked (and expected) all of his superhero friends to be at as it is the most important party he throws every year.
You sat at your designated table with Loki, Thor, Steve, Sam, and Natasha. All six of you were conversing on random conversations topics as you snacked on your food in front of you. Steve asked you how your relationship was going, and you managed to change the subject fairly quickly to not direct more attention to the ruse.
The rest of the table was confused why you turned the subject away from you and Loki so quickly, but were smart enough not to mention it. After "hiding" it for so long, they knew you and Loki would discuss your relationship only on your terms and never went into too much detail. But in reality, just earlier this week, the two of you had a disagreement, and both have refused to apologize. You agreed to save face for this event and to spare yourself from Tony's anger if things went awry, but it was clear you were both uncomfortable and upset. It was a stupid disagreement, really, much like how this ruse was a stupid idea.
Your one rule to yourself was to not think of Loki as anything other than a friend, and your mind and heart were betraying you, which caused you to take that frustration out on Loki himself. You weren't sure what set off Loki's anger, but you didn't care. You lost it when he barged in your room without knocking and interrupted your concentration, and you had warned him many times before not to do that. It was an accident on Loki's part, but it caused an explosion between the two of you, and it's already been five days since with no reconciling.
Pushing the food around on your plate with your fork, you tried to zone out of the conversations at your table and the surrounding tables. You were so focused on your plate that you didn't hear Loki lean over and say your name until he tapped your shoulder. "(Y/N)?" Loki asked again after the tap, and you looked up.
"Oh, sorry, yes?" You responded quickly.
"Are you all right?"
You nodded and set your fork down next to your plate. "Yes, just stuck in my own head."
Loki took a deep breath. "I was going to ask if you wanted to dance while there's a big group," Loki gestured to the center of the room, with Tony and Pepper in the middle of a bunch of other couples.
You peered around him and watched the couples sway for a few moments before conjuring up a sweet smile. "I would love to."
Loki grabbed your hand and led you out to the dance floor, and you two instinctively put your arms around one another. You swayed to the music in silence until Loki cleared his throat. "I think we should talk."
You cocked your head to the side. "About?"
"Our argument the other day. Now, I'm not quite sure what set us off, but I do know I intruded without making myself known, and I apologize for that. I know you asked me not to, but it slipped my mind," Loki explained.
You took a deep breath and nodded. "Thank you. I agree, I'm not positive what blew us up, and I apologize, too,"
Loki lifted his chin as he looked at you. "Though, I do think you overreacted a bit."
"Excuse me?" You asked, surprised.
He shrugged, not thinking what he said had anything wrong with it. "You must agree there was a little bit of an overreaction. I apologized when I realized I busted in, but it immediately went to a screaming match. It all seemed like a lot in so little time."
You scoffed and rolled your eyes. "Are you kidding me? You're telling me I overreacted?" You asked.
"I am," Loki said cautiously. "I believe I may have made a mistake saying that."
"I did not overreact!" You said harshly under your breath. "You're being ridiculous. We could have just left it at apologizing, but no, you had to keep it going," You said.
Loki sighed. "This is exactly what I meant by overreacting. You're doing it again."
You were stunned by what Loki was telling you, and you dropped your hands from around him with your jaw open. Quickly, you shook your head and took a deep breath to calm yourself. "I need some air," You said as you pulled away from him and rushed through the crowd to the open door on the side of the building.
Since this event was so large and important, this venue was the same way. You didn't know this venue and tried not to stray too far from the door so that you wouldn't get lost. But once you realized Loki was chasing after you, you made your way into the dark garden maze only lit by lanterns every so often.
"(Y/N)!" Loki yelled as he jogged into the maze close on your tail. "(Y/N)!" He shouted a few more times. "Come back to the party."
You didn't listen to him. "Stop walking!" He called.
"Stop following me!"
"I forbid you to go any further," Loki said, and he was now catching up to you.
You rolled your eyes again, even though Loki couldn't see it. "You cannot tell me what to do."
Loki was frustrated now and fully stood by his statement earlier that you were overreacting. It probably wasn't his best idea to bring that up now, though. "(Y/N)! Will you not listen?" He huffed and grabbed your hand, turning you around to face him. You didn't say anything; you weren't even sure what you would say, but instead just stared at him. After a few seconds of silence, Loki pulled your hand, and effectively your body, closer to him and kissed you.
Quickly, he pulled away and didn't make eye contact. "My most sincere apologies. I-" He paused, not sure what to say now. He looked down and noticed your shoe was untied and diverted your attention towards that. "Ah, I must have stepped on your shoe; let me get that," Loki said, and before you could object, he knelt down to re-tie your shoe.
As Loki got down on his one knee, both of you jumped when you heard a squeal come from someone not too far away.
At the same time, both of your heads turned to see where the scream came from. A woman was standing at the corner of the maze, staring at you with her hands shaking in front of her, holding a phone in one hand. You both winced when a flash went off, and Loki stood up immediately, without tying your shoe. Internally, you groaned, recognizing the woman and not wanting to deal with her right now, especially with all that just happened in a span of two minutes.
She scurried up to you and Loki with a big smile still present on her face. "I knew it! I knew this is why I saw you guys leave the party!" She said, Loki cringing when he heard her high-pitched voice. Neither of you said anything in response and looked a little confused, but she didn't notice. "So, did you say yes? When's the wedding?" She asked you, her phone obviously recording.
Your head turned to look at Loki with wide eyes, and his reaction was the exact same. "Well, Miss-"
"Emily!" She answered for him when it took him more than a second to say her name. "I'm sure (Y/N) has told you about me. I run the Avenger's biggest fan and update page online."
Loki nodded, pretending to know all about it. "But of course," He flashed a fake smile.
"So?" She egged you on.
You took a moment to answer, thinking about the smartest way to say it. "Emily," You started in a hushed tone.
She put her phone by her side when she heard your tone of voice. "Oh, my gosh, I totally interrupted, didn't I?" She gasped. "I'm so sorry! I was just so excited; you two have been the hot topic online since you went public with your relationship," She said, and her hand cupped her mouth as she leaned in closer to you like Loki wasn't there. "We've all sworn that if he breaks your heart, he'll definitely regret it," She laughed, but you knew she was serious. You didn't admit it to many people, but you did read her posts and the forums; it was too interesting not to! And you knew that if you and Loki broke up and ended out of nowhere, people would be angry.
Loki could still hear her, but pretended not to. Once she stepped back from you a bit, he brushed his hands down the front of his suit, ready to break the not-so-good news to her. "Miss Emily, it-"
"Yes, Loki and I are getting married," You blurted out.
As Emily's smile grew even bigger on her face, if that was even possible, Loki's head snapped towards you with a look on his face that said, we are what?
"I knew it!" She squealed again and pulled her phone back out to take another picture of the happy couple. "I can't wait to tell everyone! They're going to be so excited!"
You put your hand up as Emily started to type on her phone and continued to talk about the excitement. "Emily," You said calmly, and she stopped mid-sentence to look back up at you. "This just happened, do not tell anyone until we're ready, okay?" You said, friendly but serious.
Emily nodded as fast as she could, now holding her phone close to her chest. "I promise! I'll save everything until you guys are ready; I wouldn't want to hurt you!" She said, continuing to nod. "But can I see the ring?"
You looked at your bare hands, and Emily's face fell. "Hmm, in the surprise, we must have dropped it. Do you see the ring, Loki?" You directed at him, hoping he would understand his cue.
Loki caught right on, even if he was a little taken back from everything going on. "Actually, yes, I do," He said and bent down again. "You almost stepped on it," Loki hid his hand behind your shoe and conjured up a small ring, and with Emily's head spinning a million miles an hour, she didn't notice the small flash of green. "Here we go, darling," Loki said as he grabbed your hand and put the ring on your finger.
You had to give credit where credit is due; for such short notice, Loki did a nice job with the ring.
Emily squealed again as another flash came out of her phone, capturing pictures of Loki putting the ring on you and just your hand out in front of you. After a few more photos, you put your hand up again. "Remember Emily, don't post anything until we do, okay?" You reminded her once more.
"Of course!" She said, still shaking from the announcement.
"Now, Loki and I are going to take a few more minutes of fresh air. I suggest you go back to the party, they'll be bringing out dessert soon, and Stark got some good caterers this year," You smiled sweetly, and Emily nodded. You two said your goodbyes, and Loki gave an awkward wave, and she finally skipped out of the maze and into the party.
Once Loki was certain no one was in earshot, he turned his whole body to you and started stumbling over words to find what to say. In all the time you had seen Loki, whether fighting against him or working with him, you had never seen him at a loss for words. You let him work through his thoughts, and he eventually started right at you as he said, "We're getting married?" He shouted in a whisper, but it was loud enough that it got the point across. "Didn't we just go from arguing?"
You grabbed his hand to get him to look at you and to take a deep breath. "I know, it was a bit of an impulse decision. But you heard her; she runs the Avenger's gossip site. It may not be called that, but that's what it is. If I told her we weren't getting married and instead breaking up, people would go wild," You explained to him.
"I can handle them; I'm a god," He reminded you, pulling his hand back and crossing his arms.
"Maybe some, but I've seen the site, Loki. She has millions of followers, and the posts get so many hits that I can't even compute a number," You said. "I would rather not have to deal with backlash against you again."
Loki sighed and turned around, running his hands through his hair, still not sure what you got yourselves into. "What about your crush?" Loki asked.
You shrugged. "Not important anymore," You said. Your crush hadn't changed at all since you and Loki "got together," the desirable jealously factor didn't work like you two intended. "Besides, I would rather you still be on the team without hoards of Avenger's fans trying to end you. I know, you're a god, but you haven't read these posts," You told him.
Loki's arms were crossed again, but he was much calmer now. "You know me; you don't have to marry me. I'll be fine."
"No, we're going to do this," You shook your head, sure of yourself.
"I guess we're going through with this, then," Loki nodded once, confirming for both of you.
You nodded back at him. "We are."
Loki didn't say anything more but grabbed your hand and pulled you close to him so he could kiss your cheek. It was weird, you both agreed that this fake relationship would not include any PDA, but now it would have to be even more believable. He still held your hand and slowly led you out of the maze and back to the party.
Once back at your table, all your friends wanted to make sure both you and Loki were okay after they saw you both run out of the venue. You decided to just cut out the middle man. Nodding, you smiled. "Perfect, actually," You said and showed them your hand. Thor was the first to shout his congratulations, immediately getting up and pulling you and Loki into a tight hug. The rest went around the table, saying some variation of congrats, and the news traveled through the rest of the Avengers fast, as things usually do in this group.
Somehow, it managed to stay contained to the Avengers and not get out to the regular guests. That was a good thing, considering if you took the spotlight over the charity event, Tony would have had your head. But the following day, after all the charity festivities were over, you told the world yours and Loki's big news. Sure, you were in over your heads, and this plan had gone farther than either of you expected, but at least all the news articles weren't referring to Loki as a villain anymore. An Avengers hero wouldn't marry Loki if he hadn't changed, right?
You did check up on Emily's page and saw her posts about she saw the whole proposal and all the pictures she posted. The one of Loki putting the ring on your finger, even if both of you looked a little shocked and confused, was your favorite. Now, you just had to plan a wedding.
The best idea was to get married fast.
That way, no one could back out and make things even more complicated for the Avengers. Some of your friends were a bit confused because it seemed like you were moving very fast, but no one outright questioned it; you both seemed happy and didn't want to get in the way. Besides, this would be better in the end for Loki and the rest of the team.
And now, here you are, a few months later celebrating your honeymoon in a town not too far away from New Asgard in Norway. It was a small town, so there wasn't anyone there to get juicy gossip on you and Loki, and Loki managed to get two rooms without looking suspicious. There might be a chance he used some type of magic on the manager, but you didn't ask.
You set your bag in your room and huffed as you sat on the bed. You'd be here for a few days doing...what? You weren't sure how this was all going to play out—spending your days in this cozy room and meeting Loki for meals? Continuously scrolling through social media until you're called for work? Stroll around the town daydreaming about him? You shook your head to get that last thought out of your head. Quickly, you tried to steer away from those thoughts and stood up to walk around your room and gather yourself. You lost track of time as you paced around your room.
With a soft knock on your door, you were pulled back to reality. Another knock had you heading towards the door, muttering "coming, coming," and finally swinging the door open.
You opened the door, and Loki nearly hit you. "My apologies," Loki said quickly and put his hand by his side. "Was going to knock again, but you opened the door," He explained.
"A little impatient, hmm?" You said and looked him up and down.
Loki didn't respond to that question. "We should go down to dinner," He gestured down the hallway.
You merely sighed and turned as you walked back into your room and paced a little more, not sure why your emotions were getting the best of you. "(Y/N)?" Loki followed you in a shut the door. "Are you not hungry? I've heard the food here is excellent," He said.
"I do not want dinner!" You shouted, then stopped yourself once you realized you raised your voice.
"What's going on?" Loki asked, not coming too close to not upset you more.
You muttered a few things before throwing up your hands and gesturing to the room as a whole. "This is what you call a honeymoon?" You asked, and Loki only raised his eyebrows at you, not understanding what you meant. "Pacing around our separate rooms? Running from our elaborate ruse?" You continued, then fell onto your bed and put your hand over your eyes. "We're doomed."
"(Y/N)," Loki tried to stop you and catch your attention, but you weren't listening.
"Please, forgive me, your grace," You grimaced as you sat back up a minute later.
Loki scoffed. "Your grace?"
You looked at him and realized he still wasn't looking at you, even through all of this. It's like he was looking over your shoulder but always avoiding your eyes. You groaned when you realized this. "Can't even look me in the face. And now we must lie in this mess you made." You were standing now, ready to accuse him of more things.
"This mess we made," He clarified as he finally made eye contact.
"No, this was your mistake." You yelled at him. "You kissed me in the maze!"
Loki sighed again. "I was prepared to take my life that day."
You chuckled and shook your head. "I stole your fate."
"No, I stole your fate!"
You nearly jumped when you heard Loki yell back at you. "I don't understand-" You started, but he cut you off.
"And now, you're forced to love a man you hate," Loki said.
"Loki," You started again as you put your hand up to your chest.
Loki cut you off once more as he walked closer to you and put his hands on both of your upper arms, still making eye contact. "I know you don't feel the same, but I burn for you."
Your hand fell back to your side as you realized what he said. "You...burn for me?" You asked.
Loki nodded slowly, thinking about what he had just admitted. "I do," He said after a minute of silence.
"I burn for you," You repeated back to him while you both stared at each other, processing what this meant for the relationship. His hands were still on your arms, making you two only a foot apart.
Loki gently pulled you closer to him and brought you in for a kiss.
You weren't sure how long you and Loki stayed like that, but after some time, you two let go of each other and sat down on the edge of the bed, thinking. You both were still looking at each other but were still silent for a few moments as you thought through this whole relationship you and Loki have had. How much of it was really fake?
Finally, Loki broke the silence again. "How do you feel?" He asked.
A soft smile appeared on your face. "I feel...wonderful," You said.
As you two stared at each other, Loki began to tell you that he's been lying to himself this whole time. Sure, originally, it was a plan to just be in a fake relationship to get his reputation up, but then things changed. He tried to push those feelings down, but it only made it worse. And when you guys got into arguments, he fully believed that you really did hate him, which made him feel even worse when you said you were going to marry him.
At that, you burst out laughing. "You've got to be kidding me!" You said after you took a deep breath from the laughter. "I think the whole reason I was so angry with you was because I was realizing I was in love with you. Or as you said, I was burning for you."
Loki chuckled and looked down as he shook his head. "We are idiots, hmm?" He posed the question, then looked back up at you. "I'm yours, (Y/N). I've always been yours."
You leaned in closer to him to where your foreheads were touching, a smile still clear on your face. "And I'm yours."
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