ik my bio says I’m an artist, but I’m actually a comedian :))
ik my bio says I’m an artist, but I’m actually a comedian :))
Tarlos Tuesday ❤
Bored Without Formula 1?
Currently Reading: The X-Files Origins: Agent of Chaos by Kami Garcia
Why I Picked It Up: I love the X-Files more than I should. Also I noticed this morning that there is a tiny D20 worked into the design in the cover and I really really hope there’s some scenes of 17 year old Mulder playing dnd.
my spotify playlist going from “all eyes on me” to “i’m on a boat” gave me whiplash
I love that Peter says “he’d always been good about tipping me off to potential victims” about Elias on one hand: this is so manipulative and self-serving of Elias. It’s a way to stay in contact with the incredibly elusive Lukases. It’s a way of disposing of potential troublesome statement givers, essentially using Peter as his own personal assassin. (I assume Peter doesn’t mind being used, because that’s a very Lonely state of being.) Even if it’s just some pour soul that’s a good candidate to be taken by Forsaken, Elias still gets to Watch it happening, and benefit from twice the terror. on the other hand: elias telling peter about a sacrifice and then Watching it happen.....dinner date
(bolts upright from bed) the Lonely is about the anguish of being invisible, about having no presence in anyone else's life, and the Eye is about the anxiety of being watched, about someone else's presence invading your personal life.
uhhh something-something Jonathan and Martin
do you also think about being friends/making tiktoks/doing stupid shit with your favs or are you mentally stable
Saw someone else doing this so
Buried: I was found being choked by a belt in my living room as a kid
Corruption: when I was little I got covered in fire ants while playing in the sprinklers
Dark: when I was 5 I got so scared by a tv show that I slept with the light on bc I thought there was a demon under my bed
Desolation: I went to Missouri for the Fourth of July and a firework fell on it’s side and shot towards me, exploding a couple feet from me
Hunt: was regularly chased by my cousin with a taser when I was a kid
Lonely: regularly got abandoned in the park by people I considered friends at the time
Slaughter: a guy pulled a knife on me and my roommate while we were in a cemetery at night
Spiral: started getting the occasional hallucination, both visual and auditory, in middle school
Stranger: working in the theatre and we all heard a scream from the halls below, only to find out from the dance teacher that nobody in her class had been down there
Vast: went camping and got lost in the woods, and all I could see was trees and sky for a ridiculous amount of time while walking to try to find my way out
It just hit me that maybe there's all these doors in the caves in Brighter Day & I'm not actually supposed to do anything with them. maybe they're just not for me
These were done about a year and a half (ish) apart... Kinda proud of this tbh ☺
Late Night trip to the Grocery Store 😭🌃
Such a Beautiful and Deep Late Night 😭🌃
A Deep and Beautiful Memory in my life.
Beautiful and Deep memories and moments
Done something I always wanted to do.
See my problem is that i listen to 80’s disco music and now i cant help but envision Elias and Peter doing the Hustle and i think this is what my psychiatrist meant when he said he didn’t know how to help me
when i listened to ep 173 for the first time and jon said that all the children are in the dark’s domain because their fears are too simplistic to feed the other fourteen i was like wow, okay, kinda rude but sure. however, now that I’ve spent the last six weeks with children ages 5-10 i can say definitively that it’s not that their fears aren’t complex enough, it’s just that these little menaces (affectionate) would be way better suited as an avatar of Literally Every Other Fear and that would Wreck the fear economy
The Vast - if there is a play structure available, they will be congregating at the highest point and attempting to recreate the death of mufasa
The Stranger? clowns are literally hired for birthday parties. Also, a five year old asked me last week if she could have my skin and i’m still not sure if she was joking
The Eye? small children have negative sense of personal privacy and will trauma dump to a group of peers and adults that they met two hours ago
The Desolation - after listening to their accounts of their Fourth of July experiences, i’m convinced that we’re all pyromaniacs at heart and some have just aged out of it
The Web - while it’s not particularly subtle, tears and breakdowns are very commonly used manipulation tactics to get what they want. a little supernatural training and i’m sure they’d all be happy to pull the strings in a more accurate way
The Spiral - approximately a third of the things they say are just random words strung together. I don’t think they’d be bothered by their surroundings not making sense
The End? why would they fear the end? they literally just started their life. they have no real sense of the slow but relentless march of time. also, death threats are surprisingly common coming from kids
The Lonely - this is the one that would probably be the closest, but they also are Very willing to suggest a time-out as punishment for another kid who bothers them. so, yknow. avatar stuff.
The Extinction - re: End. no real sense of an encroaching existential threat
The Flesh? literally just meat. depends on the kid but i firmly believe that some of them would have no scruples about cannibalism
The Hunt - literally just tag.
The Buried - dunno how okay they are with weight themselves but they certainly enjoy pinning each other and you under heavy signs and piles of bodies
The Slaughter - if you give an eight year old boy a stick, someone is going to get whacked
The Corruption? babies are messy but seven year old girls will dare each other to lick the floor of the playground if they are not stopped
conclusion: children are terrifying
Me: tries to play with the cat for 10 minutes
Cat: *is disinterested
Me: *stands up
Cat: play with me human, or I will scratch your eye out