I'd rather be dead, thanks Tumblr. 😒
I'd rather be dead, thanks Tumblr. 😒
Obsession: that’s my dominant personality trait. I obsess over things, and I can pinpoint times when my obsessions changed over the years. As a very young child, Ghostbusters was the obsession. Around 8 years old, it switched to wrestling. At 10, I became obsessed with basketball. At 14, I went back to wrestling. Post 9/11 and in college, I was obsessed with conservative politics. Also during college, I had obsessions briefly with The Matrix movies and then Star Wars. Since 2006, I’d say Ghostbusters has been my major obsession again. I’ve come full-circle!
Food has always been my background main obsession though. When my mind wasn’t focused on all of those other topics, it would be on food. I know it’s basic human instinct to think about food, but I obsess over it. Even post-surgery, my mind is all about food. The good thing, my mind doesn’t obsess over things like McDonald’s, Taco Bell, doughnuts, chips, candy, and soda. I often find myself thinking about what protein I’m going to have that day for my meal or what flavor of protein drink I’m going to have. It’s a very positive change I think!
These days, I think I might be a little too obsessed with Ghostbusters and the new movie coming out in November. In the last 5 days, I’ve gone to a dozen Target stores looking for the toys from the new movie. I’m 37 years old and going to multiple stores in search of action figures. That’s absurd. As I thought about it yesterday, I think I replaced my absolute obsession with food with an absolute obsession for stuff. The main thing I collect is Ghostbusters stuff, so now that this new movie is coming out, my mind is always on getting those toys. Why? I honestly don’t know. Am I a hoarder? Maybe. Can I stop? I really don’t know, and that scares me!
I don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to be obsessive about everything in my life. I crave normalcy, but I don’t think I have it in my DNA. I feel like I’ve taken a lot of positive steps in my obsession with food. I’ve rewritten the script on that. Now I need to take more steps in my obsession with stuff, particularly Ghostbusters stuff. In my head, I know having a collection of a few select items is okay, the same way having a single meal at a restaurant is okay. It’s not okay when you obsess over having every Ghostbusters figure in existence or eating 7-10 items on a fast food menu in one sitting. I have to reign myself in and redirect that energy toward something positive for myself, for my wife, for my family, and for my friends.
That being said, obsession is the new obstacle I’m going to try and tackle for the month of August. My next step will be to get to the source. Why do I obsess so much? What am I gaining by it? Once I have those answers, I can move on to answering more questions and hopefully be on my way to a healthier mind to go along with my increasingly healthier body.
Thank you for reading! Never give up!
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Day 15 1/8/21
My 36 hour water fast just came to an end, and I’m gonnna break it with coffee and watermelon :)
83,5 kg / 184,1 lbs
31,5 kg / 69,4 lbs
Yes but actually no, i do it for myself and my health, but i really want to be skinny because i fall in love with a girl and she didn't love me back because i'm fat so i do for she and myself both.
English isn't my first language, I hope you can understand
started the “august improvement month” with a fast,
for breakfast/lunch i will be making myself a cute fruit bowl but let me look up some inspiration first (no NOT thinspo dumbass!! food inspo!!)
Hej, motylki🦋 Limit na dzisiaj to 500kcal
Aktualnie jem śniadanko, a po nim chciałabym poćwiczyć. Trzymajcie się chudo!🦋