Alright the day I’ve waited for for 15 months came yesterday. I met A.
Oh my gooood.
I met him with a few other improv people. And I realised just now that he mostly spoke to me. Probably because he’s a bit socially anxious and don’t start conversations and I of course start them with him, but still. I literally had heart in my eyes every time I looked at him.
I touched his arm and shoulder many a times. It was wonderful.
Still I don’t really feel like I got anything massive back. Like it was essentially like hanging with him on zoom. He’s still fucking dreamy though.
We travelled back home together as we now live close. What a coincidence. That was nice. Spent 10 minutes talking while he waited for my bus with me. Like why he could have just left. When I said this was really nice he agreed. But you know these are just friendly things. Gahhh
So today I’ve spent the day regretting so many things I said that aren’t really that bad. But because he didn’t reply to the group message I sent about thanking for the lovely night, I of course think well he actually didn’t have a good time. And he’s not replying to my chess messages, which he hasn’t always done but there’s a question marks in them. It’s just weird. Idk.
So I hate that I feel this intensely and invested in something he might very likely not be interested in. It sucks.
It’s only now in the late eve I’m trying to tell myself, well if he doesn’t like me that way, that’s fine. You were yourself, although a little drunk, that’s you. You smiled and said nothing bad really. So there’s no regrets. There shouldn’t be.
People really need to grasp the concept that people are allowed to talk about arcs, beats, writing choices, stories, and characters in the fandom tags and have negative, positive, and neutral feelings. Fandom is for discussing, not praising exclusively. Nobody is infringing on your rights by disliking Azula just block them they’re allowed to hate her if they like, you just have to deal. Just like if someone loves a character you despise, all you can do is block or deal. You can say whatever you want just do it on your blog instead of by reblogging posts by people who feel differently to argue—that’s what’s rude. Do u think people need to ask the whole ATLA fandom if it’s ok to make a meme before drawing a comic making fun of Ozai for getting clowned on my Aang just in case one person in the fandom stans Ozai? No! People can make fun of Katara if they want! They’re idiots and wrong, because she’s a god, but they’re allowed to! People don’t only get to post opinions you explicitly agree with in fandom spaces—first of all its impossible, second of all that’s entitled asshole shit. See something you don’t like? Unfollow, block! Feel like a character should be defended? Make your own fucking post! But don’t make your inability to regulate your emotions when you see an opinion you disagree with the problem of the complete stranger under no obligation to slavishly adhere to your opinions to keep you happy. NONE of you never say shit about characters, it’s just you think your opinions are the right ones so it’s okay when you talk about how X is vile but if anyone dislikes Y uh why the hell is it in the TV Show they’re an EVIL purist or something—no you’re just entitled and stupid!!! No one is right 100% of the time not even me! You don’t have to like or respect other people’s opinions or them but you have to respect their right to have those opinions, it’s not hard! Just block them like a normal person or keep scrolling! Not everyone will feel or think in ways you like and they are /allowed/ to exist so publicly, that’s just life; get used to it, and grow as a person, or get offline! Because if you don’t you’re going to become a fandom cyberbully and somehow think you’re the good buy the whole time.
Literally so happy and so in love
AAAA I love you all SO MUCH 🥺🥺
wtf wilbur can just effortless carry people huh???
first with george,
then with mr. manifold himself.
this man, i swear. he just wants to flex he goes to the gym.
I went on a date today and I swear I found my bi wife energy future husband I have only talked to him for 2 hours but I am ready for marriage 🙏🏻
closed starter for @rlypretty
“why me? out of everyone you could’ve chose.”
Re-watching Skam NL and OMF Imaan's entrance will always be legendary 😂😂
[lesson 45 spoilers]
the absolute best feeling in the world is when it feels like your best friends would much rather hang out with each other and leave you out without saying anything and finding out that they're together over snapchat. 3 times in a row.
really, it's such a good feeling.
I already love Pearl and I think I will make her my priority hermit this season :3
When two highly intelligent people from different cultures/mindsets and who so clearly love and admire each other despite their differences debate morals, philosophy, art, and/or psychology with a lowkey flirtatious undertone 👀👀👀
@turnip2001 (hehehhehe hello i hope you are doing well !!) to answer these questions + tag some people i’d like know better hehehehe
last song/s: rapture by delcan mckenna
last movie: barb and star go to vista del mar
currently reading: waste by catherine coleman flowers (and i also got crying in h mart by michelle zauner when i was at the library but i haven’t started it yet, but.......soon.........)
currently watching: i’m honestly not watching anything recently whoops if any of you guys have shows you think i’d like, you should send me recs lol
currently craving: cold weather, a bowl of pho, a long car ride, and a museum visit <3
i’ll tag some of newer mutuals because i wanna get to know you guys, but no pressure to this of course lol @judestfrancis @moongloom and @bluesargnts
100% gonna add Marguerit from Sub.nautica after I finish BZ or mayhap..... even sooner.... (spoilers for both games in the tags!)