And yet as you proceed to live on don’t ever think in your mind that the battles will ever go away for good. For there can be no sunshine without a little rain. This past month made me realised that I did sometimes used studies to escape my mental battle or should I say reality. As I’ve finished, I found myself in complete “what now” situation. Fortunately, at this age I know where to go for help. Meditating to his words and praying have helped me and it’s the main reason I aspire to draw closer to God. I know for sure he is the only one that can help me overcome this mind game that exhausted me years ago. I’m learning to love myself, love the people I have in my life even more and be comfortable with being uncomfortable. I’m learning that every-time I find myself in my thoughts I’ll be able to get out and believe it’s just one of them days. Regardless of how tough it’s going to be, FIGHT! THROWHANDS! DO ALL YOU CAN DO TO WIN! To myself, bih why you built like that, kidding…You did not come this far to only come this far. GOT TO WAR 🥰

I was in the middle of straightening my hair and talking to my thoughts 😂

Love thyself first. Why did I forget to do that! Why have I been waiting for someone else to do that for me? I’m an introvert and lately I had been thinking how lonely I’ve been, how badly I wanted to have a loving meaningful relationship, little did I realize that I needed to have that with myself first.

I masturbate a few times a week usually right before I go to bed. Nothing spectacular or special, just get the job done but it wasn’t always like that.

I used to have several collections of sex toys over the years and always gave them up because I felt that being gay or bi was forbidden and after pleasuring myself I would be overcome with a sense of shame or guilt which is one of the reasons that I was an alcoholic.

So it has been many years since I have fulfilled those desires but today for whatever reason I found myself in an Adult toy store buying one of my favorite dildos, a 10” insertable 2.5” girth, beautiful smooth monster. I also picked up a butt plug that sends electric vibrations and pulses through a wireless remote that was out of this world.

Needless to say I had an incredible afternoon playing with my new toys and giving myself one of the most memorable climaxes that I’ve had in recent memory! This time around there was no alcohol included and I’m left feeling incredibly blessed and have a sense of well-being. I no longer feel guilty or shamed. I know that this is who I am and I’m good with it.

Eu quero tanto levar você pro mar Pra a gente se banhar Deixar meu beijo no teu beijo E namorar colado, até o sol cansar De ficar acordado, e você vai lembrar

-Não passa vontade

Affirmation for Today: 22 October 2021

Affirmation for Today: 22 October 2021

Good day everyone, Repeat Affirmation throughout the day. Remember to truly believe it. “I deserve the love I am given.” With all my heart, thank you for your ongoing support and taking the time to read my post. I am truly grateful for every view, like, follow, and comment I receive. May you have a day filled with laughter🤣 and love💕. 🤗Big Virtual Hug Coreen

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Eleven long years ago I left the scene. When I left, it was in tears, a heavy heart but at the same time soothed. I didn't know what I was going to do and become. I had left the false lion and yet, if I had to do it again I would do things very differently. But it's in the past and we can't change the past. "For nothing in the world would I come back here." It took me eleven years to come back but for a very different thing. If I had known. But I don't regret, I just never imagined it was going to take this turn. You, you were so far from all that, from what I lived. Compared to me, who knows what you are going through and what you experience on a daily basis when I see you. It's like going back eleven years, it makes me vulnerable and strong at the same time. I dreaded this passage a lot but I think it is a gift of life to swallow the pill as well as possible. Coming back to hell and seeing that everything has changed there, it's so nice. It is as if everything I had lived had never existed, time has given way to new stories, new sorrows, new joys ... it's each his chance, each in turn. It is so strange. If we had been through this hell at the same time, I'm sure I would have fallen in love with you .. I have no doubts. Soon you will be leaving, like I did. And I will never see you again. No matter how hard I look, everything I had left has completely disappeared. I am having a funny experience. Are we each going to disappear into nature without ever crossing our paths? Is this life? What are we going to become? What will we be in eleven years? What will you do ? It's such a strange and deep feeling to look a person in the eye and know that you will never see them again. 🎈✨⏳

" Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise"

Verse of the day!! Oct 19, 2021 This teaches us that patience heals and purifies others. I understand we all get short-tempered on certain things we see people do or say; but we need to condition ourselves to show more patience to others. Cause in the long run, patience shows the love in your heart! #Godisgood #jesussaves #loveeveryone #loveeveryday #loveeverywhere #loveyourself #treatothersthewayyouwanttobetreated #satisfyyoursoulnotyourflesh #community #GodKeepsHisPromises #yournotalone #askforhelp #staystrong #repent #repentance #forgiveyourself #FocusOnNeedsNotWants #havefun #behonest #behonestwithyourself #behonorable #beAware #yourblessed #artwork #photoartist #VerseOfTheDay #love #cleanse #spiritualcleansing https://www.instagram.com/p/CVTmrvFhwFJ/?utm_medium=tumblr

𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒆𝒍𝒔𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒔 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒐 𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒂𝒏’𝒕 𝒑𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒎 𝒆𝒎𝒑𝒕𝒚 𝒄𝒖𝒑. 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒄𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕. 🌸💗

SELF LOVE

It was my birthday yesterday and I looked so hot 🖤

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You are always a queen 👑

Picasso Jasper Healing Bracelet

Broken

She left him

With broken wings

And bleeding eyes

He was left without a soul

A man without feelings

In his darkness lonely

As harsh as the rocks it looks

As a soft baby he is deep inside

Eu passei muito tempo pensando se um dia você voltaria, e eu esperei. Durante muito tempo, eu esperei. E você nunca voltou. Por que agora? O que o faz pensar que aceitarei sua presença na minha vida novamente? Felizmente eu me desintoxiquei do que você chamava de amor. Me libertei do elo que me prendia em você.