i feel like a failure
i feel like a failure
my favorite thinspo lately!
Day 8: erm walking as much as possible. Being disabled severely impacts my ability to exercise but I do what I can
I guess this took about 10-15minutes
Day 7: erm they know I’m eating healthier? They probably wouldn’t believe me if I told them I’ve had an eating disorder for years
jesus i forgot to post my food log yesterday but i kinda ate too much and i think it was around 1500kcal??? but i burned 160ish so its like 1340
but heres todays food log
coffee with milk ~ 70 kcal
burger with vegan meat ~ 700kcal
calories burned: 280
also i shouldnt have eaten that burger cuz it was not worth 700kcal but its still pretty good :)
6/21- maybe 600-800cal? no idea, i cant remember
6/22- at least 900cal! :(
6/23- about 200cal, maybe 300?
6/24- (so far) 120cal, update after dinner!
AFTER DINNER- my dad made me order extra food.. I was planning to eat 300cal and total at about 420 but I ended up eating at least 1000cal... gonna fast tomorrow
me encouraging my younger sibling to eat more while cutting calories out anywhere i can
plz reblog/interact with this if you’re active in 2021 and post at least some gender neutral ed content or male ed content??
seeing specifically “skinny girl” in relation to eating disorders makes me feel invalid in both my disorder and being trans.
looking for mutuals to follow
i am pro recovery!!! i am just not in it currently
literally what the fuck can my ed be consistent PLZ??? i literally weighed myself yesterday morning and weighed 97 and this morning i weigh 93??!?! IS MY SCALE BROKEN 😭🧍🏻
i mean it could be water weight?? idk i’m so upset rn i just never wanna eat again :/
Just some of my fav thinspo rn <3!
Food and their calories!!;)
Literally how I do things
Missed a few days so here’s them all in 1
Day 3: I love everything
Day 4: greatest fears about weight loss?
Due to how big I am I know I won’t be able to get to my goal weight without a ton of loose skin also that will add weight to me so I don’t know how I will ever reach it.
Day 5: I’m doing it for me because I’m morbidly obese but I’m also very conscious of others opinions of me which largely impacts this
Day 6: do you binge? Yes, a lot. From a young age I was taught to fix sadness with food which then spiralled. I can’t seem to stop the cycle
I actually went outside today
This is my only day off this week so I'm making the most of it
I have two jobs now (waiter at a restaurant/Hotel receptionist) so hopefully by the start of next year I can move out cause my parents are really toxic
I didn't have breakfast today
But for lunch I had:
Oven baked Crisps: 110 calories
Smoked salmon and tuna sushi: 218 calories
Monster energy Ultra: 10 calories
Total calories: 338 calories
I'm not going to eat anything else today
okay im gonna start food log tommorow and i just hope it will make me binge less because if i binge then all of you are gonna know about this and it will be embarrasing
I’m always fucking up with the people I hold most dear to me. Pushing people away is all I’ve ever known, because I know they deserve better than me,