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  • b-0-nyy
    23.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    I hate period hunger so much, my period starts in 7 days. It’s 1:47am and so far today I’ve had two oreos. I feel disgusting…about to get some diet soda.

    update: had a whole bottle of water instead ~

    Here is yesterday’s total, tbh it was probably a little more than this:

    #tw ed behavior #tw eating things #ftm ed#male ed#ana boy#malesp0 #tw ed vent #ed vent
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  • oh-to-be-a-real-boy
    23.10.2021 - 7 hours ago

    I love this guy from the new school I've been going to recently- I knew him before then and he's the one that helped my get my binder from the other post. But seeing him in person recently has well I don't really know how to put it other then feeling content. I have really bad commitment issues and I knew it'd never work out if I were to tell him I liked him. Recently I've been having some internal self hatred with the fact my mind makes me feel less like a man for crushing on a guy. In the back of my mind I know a guy will never consider me or view me as a guy if we were to date. But this guy was one step to the point he at least acknowledges my pronouns and what I prefer and uses them. We flirt a lot harmless fun but it makes my brain have meltdowns because what if something he brings up in a later conversation is joking as well. We had made multiple scenarios about dating most jokingly or I guess all. I should of seen the fact he didn't like me that way with the fact he'd talk about his school crush with me and made it clear he had no interest in dating someone from a lower grade. But some jokes I just took to heart so I thought maybe just maybe he'd date me. He had asked me out to the fall dance and asked me if I think I'd be willing to go to homecoming as well so I took that as a sign and just asked him if he'd want to date...it didn't go as plan.

    It wasn't the worst respond but it still made me feel terrible and uncomfortable- I don't exactly want anything sexual liking making out I just want someone I can proudly brag about and know they love me and respect the fact I'm trans, I want a official relationship with him so bad. I know it's selfish but I got really mad about the fact he said he wanted to keep me a secret to keep his options open- it was around 1 in the morning when I sent him that so I just decided to sleep on it and decided that I was in the wrong for crossing the boundary and that I shouldn't be mad at him. I feel like I made everything worse because now what if he thinks all the flirting I do now is because I like him and not just banter... like I still want to banter with him like I do all my friends but what if he takes it the wrong way

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  • copincigs
    23.10.2021 - 7 hours ago

    Being in love is such a ridiculous thing. It can literally drive you to better yourself or make you lose yourself and head down a self-destructive path.

    I'm literally in love with an imaginary boy, and that's motivating me so much right now. Yes, I know, it sounds ridiculous, but it's silly reasons like these that keep most of us going. Plus, no harm in simping over fictional boys.

    Every time I want to give up, I just picture that beautiful boy, and I'm all fueled up to keep going. Idk why such an imaginary character brings out so much out of me.

    I can't stand this infatuation (it's been so long since I had a fictional crush), but it's all the motivation I need.

    I'm saving m@lesp0 for dark rainy days, and regular th!nsp0 isn't doing it for me anymore.

    #thinspo#ed thots #tw ed thoughts #disordered eating tw #eating disoder things #eating disoder thoughts #malesp0
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  • oh-to-be-a-real-boy
    23.10.2021 - 8 hours ago

    //warning// suicidal and self harm

    I paid a fellow trans guy from school 50 dollars to get me a binder because he had more access to getting one. Then we got in drama after I told him I felt uncomfortable with him calling me piggy, and him refusing to not stop calling me that and stuff. He refused to give me the binder or my money back. The night he told me he might not give it to me was almost my breaking point I started re-cutting and it got so bad to the point some of the cuts would reopen every hour if I made the tiniest movement. He made me really uncomfortable because the reason he got made was because I had told people what he called me and that gave him a bad reputation. I only told 3 people at the time because he was making me really uncomfortable but I didn't want to burden anyone. When I got a bit better I texted him at least 6 times in 2 weeks about him giving me either the binder or money back and he wouldn't respond. At this point I was so weak from not eating,drinking, and overall self care that I stated home for 2 weeks and refused to go back to that school because he was really my only friend there, I had told other people wondering about it that I was on vacation and was moving schools. Once I got back into a better state, I continously asked him to give me either one to no avail. I started dmming people I knew he hung out with. they had told me when they asked about he said that I was the one ignore him and that he was trying to give me the binder and that he tried contacting me... after that I moved schools to be with some other friends and one of them ended up threatening him to give the binder to me so he eventually did

    Just thought I'd let you guys in on what's been going on- I'll probably make another post of another situation

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  • lakritsiiii2
    23.10.2021 - 9 hours ago

    i just want to close my eyes and feel happy for once.

    #tw ed thoughts #tw ed mention #meanspø#notprojustusehashtags #not pr0 ana #eating disoder mention #malesp0#anorecsick #skip dinner get thinner #model thin
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  • b0neboy17
    23.10.2021 - 10 hours ago

    Only ate about 400-500 cals today so shedding 202 its too bad

    10/22/21

    #ftm ana#male ana#ana boy#anorekic#male ed#malesp0#thinzpo#trans ed #self h@rm #tw sewerslide #tw ed related #tw ed talk #tw ed thoughts #i want to be skiny #skinnnny #i will be skiny
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  • skiny-lovely
    22.10.2021 - 15 hours ago

    I gained weight again, fuck my metabolism, guess it's time to SUFFER :(

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  • sxrcasm9
    22.10.2021 - 16 hours ago

    I need someone to talk to and keep me motivated about loosing weight cuz all my univ buddies are always taking me out to eat fast food 🥲

    Btw I’m FTM, 23 so please not be minor or a creep 🙃

    We can either chat on WhatsApp, kakaotalk or discord

    Snapchat works too

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  • xlovely-little-bonesx
    22.10.2021 - 18 hours ago

    -You ever just realize that a friend who is basically your size is judging you for what you eat........like bitch we are the same size quit looking at me like that-

    #anorekic#pro ama#anamia#pr0 anamia #not pr0 ana #anareksja #not pr0 just using tags #pr0 @na #tw eating mention #cw disordered eating #malesp0
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  • lakritsiiii2
    22.10.2021 - 21 hours ago

    hey hi hello yo wassup ! I DO NOT PROMOTE ED !

    #tw eating things #model thin #skip dinner get thinner #anorecsick#malesp0#meanspø #eating disoder mention #not pr0 ana #notprojustusehashtags
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  • ratgothboy
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    have court for truancy today besties pls wish me luck im not tryna go to jail

    #malesp0#male ana#anamia#ftm ana#malespiration#malespii#anarexik#bulimyc#tw vent #literally all bc i stopped going to school like two years ago bc i came out & got depressed lmao :/ #was getting sick bc i was going to school & it provoked my anxiety to matter the medication i was on #even was on ssris & they all made me wanna kms so i had to stop :/
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  • 1200tears
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    I’ve been eating so much lately and I don’t know why! I feel so disgusting and worthless. How am I ever going to achieve my goals if I keep eating like this?! I’m so stressed out and on edge I just really need to buckle down, figure my shit out, and drop some weight because this is getting out of hand.

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  • krisises
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    i’m so proud of myself! my meals weren’t all under 350 like i want them to be, but i’m still sub-700 cals !!!!!!!!!! FUCK YEA!!!!!

    i still feel guilty for having that monster and piece of gum during my fast. it was together less than 15 calories and had no sugar but still :(((( grr

    at least my net is just 643 for today

    hopefully i can start doing that consistently.

    i think i’m going to re-write my rules for myself so they’re more consistent to my actual performance

    #not pr0 ana #anorekic #tw ed talk #male thinpo #not pr0 just using tags #guy thinspi #just ed shit #trans ana#malesp0#male thinspi
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  • dyingtobeskinier
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    Guys I finally figured out how to make myself purge . It's been months since I asked on a now terminated account and tried every technique that was suggested to me and I finally did it! I mean, I do smell like vomit and toothpaste now but holy cheese it was all worth it because I'm kinda proud of myself. I feel valid now that I can make myself purge

    I just had to stick my fingers down further into my throat and I did it! I don't know why I didn't try it sooner but whatever

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  • krisises
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    i burnt 222 calories on my walk today so i looked up the angel number

    it means that i’m being too hard on myself and that made me think about everyone here.

    i was walking out of guilt. from what? for having net 1400 calories yesterday. well under the recommended amount for my weight/height.

    we’re all being really hard on ourselves and i want you all to remember that you all deserve to eat yummy food. everyone please be careful.

    remember to drink water,

    eat at least SOMETHING today (unless today is a fasting day, then please just drink extra water or a sugar free drink)

    know that i love you ❤️ even if i don’t know you, if you are reading this then i know your struggle and i want you to know that i love you and i am so, so proud of you

    #not pr0 ana #anorekic #tw ed talk #male thinpo #not pr0 just using tags #guy thinspi #just ed shit #trans ana#malesp0#male thinspi#ana girl#ana girls #ed girl shit #pr0 ana#ana mia#anaboy#ana#anamia
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  • krisises
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    i have my asks open i think i’m bad at tumblr

    if you’re struggling to find low-cal recipes that taste good, send me your taste and your calorie limit per meals/snacks in my ask box :3

    i literally looooooove cooking and baking and i have SO MANY RECIPES in my phone for low cal food/recipes !!!!

    #not pr0 ana #anorekic #tw ed talk #male thinpo #not pr0 just using tags #guy thinspi #just ed shit #trans ana#malesp0#male thinspi#thinspo #low cal ed #low cal restriction #restrictive ed#anamia#ana mia#pr0 ana#anaboy#anarex1c#anareksick
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  • krisises
    22.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    XXXL sweater make pain go away 🖤

    #not pr0 ana #anorekic #tw ed talk #male thinpo #not pr0 just using tags #guy thinspi #just ed shit #trans ana#malesp0#male thinspi
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  • dyingtobeskinier
    21.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    Sometimes I don't wanna recover. My ed gives me a distraction from my gender dysphoria, my home life, and how much people hate me. I want to look thinner than this girl at my school to make people worry about me. I want them to be worried because then they won't be calling me names and telling me to rot in my room.

    I just don't want to look in the mirror and feel disgusted with what I see. It's not like I'm at least a little thin, I'm over 200 motherfucking pounds. I hate going to school and seeing everyone thinner than me. I wanna be the thinnest guy there. I just have to work for it

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  • svalinnsnow
    21.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    I wish i looked the way i look to you in your eyes..

    but it also terrifies me to think maybe i'm not as lovely as i think you'd percieve me to be.

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  • dyingtobeskinier
    21.10.2021 - 1 day ago

    Found my mom's vape omg yayyyy

    Seriously though, I've been lacking and binge eating all month. I fucking hate myself for being like this. I need meansp0 FUCK

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