Writing this for myself, since I’m thinking about eating again.
Remember that girl you absolutely hate for no other reason than because she’s beautiful? She’s everything you’re not. She’s pretty, thin, desirable, people want her. They don’t want you, you’re fat, ugly, annoying. You take up too much space. Think of how good it would feel if you were smaller than her, to have people want you more than they want her. People would recognise you as the really skinny one. I guess you just don’t want it enough huh? You’ll never be good enough let’s be honest.