Took this photo of two cute lady birds - I enjoy nature shots, macro shots and colourful shots and I feel that nature and being amongst nature is a reminder for me that there's more to life than the online world. With the pandemic over the past year or so and with my insecurities over my weight gain/self image, my healing process from past abusive relationships I've become increasingly self aware of how I look to others and about connecting with people in real life for fear of rejection or putting myself/my children being in danger... Which in turn has made me feel concerned about joining society because in the past/recently I've had comments about my appearance and of course how I've been treated by people. I find most days I'm battling against my own brain about my own self worth but I've done this since I was 13 and when you meet people who prey on this it really makes you doubt yourself when you haven't been discerning in seeing behavior for what it is.
It's no secret that the social media has negative effects and studies have shown that social media use can lead to depression, low self esteem, body image issues, anxiety, social isolation, etc. It can even perpetuate eating disorders and self-harm behaviors. On the flip side, social media can bring communities together and can be an engaging platform to meet new friends, help businesses, education and more!! Seeing others’ curated, polished images of only happy moments or attractive photos can set up an unrealistic expectation of ourselves though and we sometimes put people with more followers, a high engagement on a pedestal but why? Likes doesn't equal worth. Followers doesn't equal worth and yet this society or generarion make us feel that we are somehow inferior. Ok, so this could also be a mindset and I know I've got into a negative mindset in regards to comparing myself to others. Social media can be a great tool for keeping in touch with friends and family, but excessively using social media—at the expense of in-person interactions with people - can negatively impact relationships and well-being... And I need to remind myself of that as I want to be as authentic as possible and real and it's ok to be.