I thought I had this super power. Well, less a superpower and more an ability. When I really needed to, I could leave my body and watch everyone from far, far away. My body would remain, invisible to those around me, but there I would be. It was almost like turning on a television, watching life around me through a glass screen. No one would see me go, no one would see me return. More often than not my body would wander off on its own, carried away on legs that always felt like the same combination of rubber and feathers.
As a child, I didn’t see anything wrong with it. I didn’t know there was anything wrong with it. It wasn’t until I was older that I learned what it really was.
Disassociation is defined as: Disconnection and lack of continuity between thoughts, memories, surroundings, actions, and identity.
As a child my own mind was breaking down, trying to protect itself from the world around me. Trying to shield me. However as a child, I would never understand it as more than just a really cool superpower.