#mentally tired Tumblr posts

  • doveybugg
    17.10.2021 - 37 minutes ago

    VENT/RANT SCROLL IF YOU DONT WANNA READ

    god i'm so tired of my anxiety. i couldn't tell if my mind was blank or overfilled with thoughts and just rejecting more. it was such a new feeling. ans i got one negative respond to me saying something about it. then when i wanted to reach out to my sister and explain what was happening, my thought started flowing in, i couldn't stop it. 'what if she hates me?' "what if she's busy?" "what if she finds me annoying?" "she doesn't love me" "even if she does after you tell her she won't" and i just can't stand it i wanna reach out so bad. but i can't not matter how hard i try. i can't break through the bubble. so i flipped my switch. the switch i have to stop feeling anything. i don't know what it is. but i can do it. and i realized like 2 weeks ago, it works for physical pain to. i banged my leg. and if didn't even hurt. like i didn't know i did it. if oliver didn't point out the bruise i would've never known. and i feel little out of my body sometimes when i do it. but besides that it's fine.

    #tw: anxiety #tw mental health #tw mental illness #mental problems #i'm so tired #natasha shut up challenge go! #vent#anxiety vent#mental rant #i'm deleting this before oliver gets off #i just needed somewhere to talk about it where i know it won't be seen lol #and if it does not by people who know me #anyway i'm going to bed #hope i feel better in the morning #goodnight
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  • iamsaltypeaches
    17.10.2021 - 1 hour ago

    If I was given the chance to pass away, I would do it. I’m not suicidal though right? I’ve been recently haunted by my failure and the fact about me moving to somewhere completely new. I wish I was back at my old house. I wanna talk to someone about my feelings. And it can’t be my family. My mom already is starting to hate me I know it. I need someone. I need my mothers validation right now. I need her to hug me but she’s always in a bad mood. She’d start talking to me about my grades and get me grounded anytime I’m happy in front of her. Why can’t she just be my mom. Not my dictator. I just want my mom back. I haven’t been able to cry loudly for a while. I need to scream. Sometimes I’d rather be dead than here. I wanna go home. I want my friends back. They knew how to comfort me. Now I have my cousin who also has problems but I can never vent too. I never cried as much I front of her as I want too. I wish I was smarter for my mom so she would think of me as her child not just my dad’s. I wish she loved me again. I hate ranting and venting about my life and how my mental health is doing on fricking tumblr but I literally know no one anymore and no one wants to hear me talk about my mental health. I don’t even know who to talk to at this point for all this stuff except my 6 year old sister who doesn’t understand a thing I say. My dad is someone I wish I could talk to. I cry in front of him sometimes. But I wanna vent to him. But he’ll never know what I’m feeling right now. Anytime my parents start yelling randomly not at me just randomly I start laughing because that’s how cope with anger abuse or something. Am I depressed or something. I literally cannot feel happy even though my birthday is coming on Monday. This is my second vent on this account I hope whoever sees this a nice day.

    #depressing post#sad thoughts #im so tired #im so done #i want my mom #family#lgbt#lgbtq community#mentally tired #mental heath support #im having a breakdown
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  • crypticcboyfriend
    17.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    If the depressed white skinny transmasc stereotype didn't exist my mental health would be so much better

    #jamison.exe #and i'm saying this as a skinny white depressed transmasc #i constantly feel like my body is too feminine to be able to participate in masculinity and it is debilitating #it has made me be two mental breakdowns away from an ed at any given moment and it's so tiring #not mlm#vent
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  • ladyanura77
    17.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    I still want to hold my breath and hope. I'll suffocate and die if I do.

    #i cant handle this #mentally tired
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  • angelfirevt
    17.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    I’m so tired

    #afvt speaks #it's just hitting me hard ya know #I  listened to the thing live #hear a fan say queer and ask about the confession #then jensen's intail response which was fine #then everything that followed #was.... a lot #you know #and it's just tanking me so hard #this show has always meant a lot to me #and just fuck man #I'm like on and off tears #and mental stuff is hitting me #because my studpid teenage self tied a lot of my self worth to it #because it was all I could do to survive #so it's just hitting #and all the shit about aro/ace stuff is dragging up is just so god gamn tiring #I just wanted  to do some fucking homework tonight #yo know #but i'm just so fucking tired
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  • eggviolence
    16.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    my aunt knows i cvt

    its not like i try to hide it or anything

    but for some reason she thinks that im going to stop when she says "you need to stop that shit"

    like yeah thanks for the reminder, i totally forgot about that lol

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  • imwritesometimes
    16.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    laying a guilt trip on me for not jumping through hoops to return your texts/calls when you ignored me for over a year is not exactly gonna help your case

    #i do not have the fuckin mental bandwidth for this shit today #every one else can drop off the planet #and ignore me #but if I don't answer a text and phone call #suddenly I'm like you know #evil #and I just need to be understanding! #I'm so fuckin sick of ppl #vodka crans my beloved it is time #I'm sorry I'm ranting and airing dirty laundry and ugh #I'm just fuckin TIRED man I'm tired of being SHIT ON #delete later
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  • prisonpiss
    16.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    soo today teachers at my school made sure i know that i cannot reach out to them and at this point i can just end it all since none of the people who are supposed to take care of me are willing to help me. i tried telling my friends too and most of them don't really care bc they don't think i'm doing that bad. i've given life so many chances but it seems like i'm not meant for any of this

    #cw rant#tw suicice#s3lf h4rm #s3lf h@rm #negativity cw #tw self destructive behavior #tw sh #tw self destruction #tw suicude#cvtting#actually traumatized #actually mentally ill #mental health awareness #mental breakdown#mentally tired#mental illness
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  • just-1-reason
    16.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    Day 279 - 16.10.2021

    Today I'm proud of myself for being indulgent.

    I was feeling pretty tired today, probably not helped by the fact I had a super long day yesterday. As such, I decided to have a really chill day, staying in bed for the most part and watching youtube and reading. It felt really nice to have a day where I didn't really have to think about anything in particular, so hopefully I'll be more rested come the morning.

    I look forward to tomorrow 🌅

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  • revolvinghell
    16.10.2021 - 6 hours ago

    Dash game

    Vibe check

    “Uee hee! The Diagnosis aren’t wrong, wrong! Never knew though my looks were full, were full of charm!”

    #|| Character Jevil || #||Main Verse (Chaos Chaos Uee Hee) || #Dash rp game #Please notice I might not reply to comments because I'm mentally tired
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  • imwritesometimes
    16.10.2021 - 6 hours ago

    I'm trying to have a Jackie Daytona Saturday

    #I am so tired just mentally and physically and if I can't spend the rest ofy day #fucking off completely and drinking vodka crans #I'm gonna snap #I had 1 good day this week LOL I am so mentaly stable so very much a functional adult OMG I'm having such a good time #erin explains it all
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  • lizziawh
    16.10.2021 - 9 hours ago

    Beyond accurate

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  • skelesposts
    16.10.2021 - 9 hours ago
    I hate myself, I hate my face, I hate my smile, I hate my body, I hate my personality. I don't feel like me anymore, I'm just someone in my old body. Nothing feels like anything. Everything is just In complete fog, I can't recognize myself in old photos or videos. I'm completely new person and I fucking hate it.
    I don't have anyone. I'm all alone. Nobody knows who I am not even me. I don't know anymore this just hurts.
    I WANT OLD ME BACK
    #tw ed mention #tw ed talk #mental illness#mental health#mentalheathawareness #i'm so fucking tired
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  • infp-primrose
    16.10.2021 - 9 hours ago

    puppeteer

    choked up, tensed up

    these thoughts will not let me leave

    among these demons I am merely a pawn

    a pawn in the game of life that is

    they want me left and right

    convincing me to shred my own soul

    telling me I had not yet enough to suffer

    .

    I wonder how many hours of sleep rendered

    when the last bite of food was consumed

    these thoughts they will not leave me be

    I am merely a pawn to these demons

    to compete, to destroy

    as if that is what it means to be human

    pitting us against each other

    making us dance like raindrops on cold glass

    .

    I will not be a willing puppet

    because I would rather evaporate my own soul

    than try to shatter others

    .

    I want to believe in faith, in hope, in trial and error

    utter perfection is a myth bestowed on us

    life lies in trying, scrambling on our feet to make ends meet

    so that one day we could break the cycle

    and not decept others the easiness of perfection

    .

    I will cut these ropes personally

    the only puppet master

    is the one I created myself

    ~infp-primrose

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  • assassin681
    16.10.2021 - 10 hours ago
    i haven’t disappeared i just have been under a lot of ✨stress✨ to focus on writing
    #∘⡊  ☽  ˚ ⊹   ooc  ┊  ❛   iced coffee queen   ❜ #i will be back at some point #I’m physically sick from stress due ti work so mentally im not here rn #and I’m just so tired of explaining everything and just so tired as a whole so when it’s my weekend I just wanna sleep #or in this case play animal crossing bc it’s a feel good game #or im trying to be better around the house so im sorry for being inactive #im still here for my two girls im just not in a spot to write on tumblr rn if that makes sense #I do wanna write but maybe discord is where im at rn? as far as writing goes bc it’s just Too Much for icons and everything #on top of trying to write a female oc for some reason that gives me anxiety sometimes bc im afraid people won’t like her #like yeah that’s in my head but still y know #anyways ily all drink water and pls be kind to everyone 💕
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  • skyenthusiast
    16.10.2021 - 10 hours ago

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    #honestly been feeling ill and miserable for the last few days.. #my mental health got worse again to the point that i had some thoughts about going back to hurt myself again #but my body has already felt like shit and prolly the last two brain cells in my brain actually tried to force some sense to me #that its just gonna make things worse.. #and now i fcking cannot sleep bc my whole body still aches and my heart beats too fast #oh yeah i also tortured myself a little more by watching united. thank god i decided to turn it off after the first half though #this is all so ridiculous #can i just... magically be healthy again physically and mentally the moment i wake up tmr #im really... truly.. tired... #im literally fcking laughing at myself bc of how shitty i feel.. how shitty my body feels.. OH MY GOD #this is such stupid rambles #tw: self-harm
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  • lilliesblog
    16.10.2021 - 11 hours ago

    I just sat here and let him scream at me. Couldn’t do anything. Was speechless. My body didn’t work, it didn’t listen to me. I could throw up. I wanted to disappear.

    I was experimenting, trying to stand up for myself and not let someone define me again. I failed. He got what he wanted, I couldn’t win the way.

    Lost it.

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  • deendee
    16.10.2021 - 11 hours ago

    I have listened to dis playlist a lot recently. Not doing so swell 😍

    #I really really am so fucking tired of this year fucking hell #anyways hi fellow mentally ill people :)
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  • tiredspacedragon
    16.10.2021 - 12 hours ago
    #also #consume enough bionicle #doctor who #lord of the rings #merlin #and other similar material #and you wind up with a mental age of something like 1500 #i have the face of a 17-year-old #and the attitude of a tired wizard who's been wandering the world since chain mail was invented
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  • miniflower93
    16.10.2021 - 14 hours ago

    “She tries to smile,

    To feel happy,

    But she jut feels so

    Empty.”

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