lonely sad rambling below
dont have anywhere else to vent pls ignore if not your thing
I miss my friends
And basically everyone
And I bring this up because i just have dream after dream after dream every single fucking night of everyone I've ever known and at this point I'm close to waking up in tears. I haven't met a single person or REALLY spoken to someone in a deeper conversation in almost 2 years now. Online or otherwise. I just feel alone and trapped.
And every time I get a chance to have a friend I ruin that too because I'm picky and unreliable and honestly just an annoying downer anytime im myself for more than a few minutes. Or I freak out and convince myself that they already hate me and I stop trying and then they really do start disliking me.
And I'm literally complaining on Tumblr about it so I don't have to do anything myself. Because my brain halfway DOES think if I complain enough, the universe will finally just fucking help me over how pathetic I look. And that's uh. Kinda deluded. But it's really all I have to go on because I do not believe I am capable of helping myself. Ever. And I don't think I'll ever be able to grasp that I am my own responsibility. I just want to cry and close my eyes and beg for the universe to make it stop.
alright everyone, it’s only a few days away but i’m still trying to organize myself enough to participate in kinktober.
so far, i have a few ideas (mostly) solidified and an ongoing list of ideas that are still floating around in my brain. below the cut is also a list of kinks that i would like to write for but haven’t assigned to anything as of right now, so i am totally open to suggestions/requests as i try to figure the rest of this out. i’m a mess, but we know this.
as always, this is 18+ only! some of these will probably include more kinks than what’s listed here because i’m a heathen lmao but they will be tagged appropriately when posted. naturally, not everything on this list will be everyone’s cup of tea, so i of course only want people to interact with what they’re comfortable with.
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this is definitely going to be more go-with-the-flow and subject to some changes because i never know how my brain is going to function. certain days may be switched around depending on what i get done first, and it’s also unlikely that i’ll be able to get something for all 31 days, but some are better than none!
this was originally inspired by the prompts from this list but i’ve heavily modified it and added my own things along the way.
(subject to change) ✦ = finished ✧ = in progress
DAY 01: ice play — cobb vanth ✦
DAY 02: age play | aphrodisiacs/sex pollen | mommy kink — anakin skywalker ✧
DAY 03: knifeplay | bloodplay | blindfolds — hunter
DAY 04: cock-warming | partner sharing — obi-wan kenobi
DAY 05: bondage | face-sitting — poe dameron
DAY 06: nipple play | body modification — darth maul
DAY 07: size difference / size kink — wrecker
DAY 08: sadomasochism | deep-throating | choking/breath play — darth vader (based on this bc i’m horny for it)
DAY 09: cuckolding | humiliation/degradation — han solo & luke skywalker
DAY 10: edging | begging — luke skywalker
+ more to come
threesome — obi-wan kenobi & anakin skywalker (i wanna add more to this but i haven’t decided yet)
uniforms | gunplay | exhibitionism — crosshair or wolffe (and/or someone else?)
sex toys | masturbation — tech (add more?)
partner sharing | threesome/foursome — finnrey/finnpoerey??
I got 28 hate messages from this person calling me a whore and an incel which is mostly funny because those words are basically opposites.
@lesbianshepard i think this is your old anon
really sad that i’m not being fucked rn :-(
Anyways,,, somebody, anybody, talk to me about incubus Tommy right now before I explode and die 🥴😌🌸
hey dream not to be that guy but i think all of us could really use a chill stream right about now ♡
a little to - do list for the next few days , mostly for my own sanity :
work on setting up a snazzy carrd for harley (and cry when it inevitably goes wrong)
updated mains & exclusives call to go along with the carrd
finish posting the canon one-liners i owe
actually do some writing for once
get over my anxiety and finally message people back
A cute little crop top with no bra🥺
Where is my perfect partner?
Text message when you’re redoing your reading of them. I can capture the universal not too pun it on, Theme is “space” nothing to say about it bring universe in your space and you are not going to be completely in reach. I got a place breathing issues at the planet in peach. But it’s okay as long as I can have the right to speak, then I can reach. Clue over and out. We all know space time or what? Text nexts if you please. If you’re going to read me as a book I’d love to have it heard, anything to help with me and my feelings is therapeutic to me instead. Really appreciate you guys too much for the sweet words but you’re seeing everything as it’s pure aesthetic and non existent so I’m sorry I just got to say hi how are you doing today I am completely aware that I’m not ugly okay ✅
New day new lingerie🥵🥵
we have rymin bubbline au but have you considered...
grimon bubbline au!