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  • quicksandblock
    27.07.2021 - 7 minutes ago

    anyway my point is it's not L'Manburg anymore. it doesn't matter what Phil or anyone else does there, all he's doing is dressing a corpse.

    the people who used to love it don't live there any more and I don't think they'd come back even if Phil covered the whole thing up with a nice friendly grass layer. none of the L'Manburgians have indicated that they're even a little bit interested in what happens to it. it's deceased. what happens to the physical land doesn't matter.

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  • kaaras-adaar
    27.07.2021 - 26 minutes ago

    // I know I’ve made a few posts on Kaaras’ OCD but that’s because I’ve been getting more in touch with myself as well and I feel like it’s important to know these little things about Kaaras, especially because in a world like Thedas, something like OCD would be considered strange and not always understood.

    But another little thing is that Kaaras has intrusive thoughts about things going wrong if he doesn’t perform something just the right way or his routine is thrown out of wack.

    Things like if he doesn’t feed Ginger on time, he will starve or he will go hunting at night which might mean he could get in an accident and die. Something horrific would happen and it would be HIS fault.

    He doesn’t write a letter a particular way, it may be misunderstood and have severe consequences, so he often rewrites letters so they make perfect sense. I mean he rewrites letters about 3-4 times before he’s happy with it. Which he knows is a waste if parchment and he hates it.

    He doesn’t flick all of the candles out in a particular order so one of them might light the curtains on fire and burn down his chambers.

    He doesn’t saddle his mount in the correct order, they might get bruised and injured on a long ride, so everything needs to be triple checked before he even gets on them.

    Kaaras’ invasive thoughts can also be violent and sexual, which has him ashamed and not likely to admit what suddenly appears in his mind. It’s also why he’s exceptionally careful with lovers and communicating, because he does have intrusive thoughts that make him feel sick and question if he’s a horrible person. They are never things he’d act on, of course, it’s merely how his brain is wired.

    Just a casual reminder that he DOES deal with his OCD very well and most times he manages it in a sense that people might not always pick it up unless they’re around him long enough to see those traits and behaviours. His mother helped him from a young age to cope much better than he did as a boy, and he is able to schedule compulsions, tell himself that someone isn’t going to die because a rug is not straight or because a little bit of water fell on the floor etc.

    He still has bad days, of course, and some days are a lot worse than others, but he always makes his OCD about him and not others. He will never blame anyone for disturbing his patterns and routines, he knows it’s just the way he is, even if his behaviour is not always logical.

    #meta#Headcanons#OCD #Kaaras and OCD
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  • multasfacies
    27.07.2021 - 39 minutes ago

    * molly.

    Basic Ass Profile.

    portrayal notes:

    Fat, white, neurodivergent cis woman with repressed trauma and “elder daughter syndrome”. Closeted bisexual. 

    canon accessible, fanon avoidant. 

    I am more than happy to do canon divergent plotting with her children. :)

                                                                         ( to be continued… )

    basics.

    Molly Weasley (nee Prewett)  —N/A. Pureblood. Witch. Cis Female. She/Her. b. ~19XX

    appearance.

    Tall and fat, with pale, freckled skin and wavy red hair. Her eyes are a warm hazel. 

    Hourglass figure, but you can’t really tell under her layers of clothes. 

    relationships.

    Parents: [TBA] Siblings: Gideon and Fabian Prewett Other Family: Great Aunt Muriel Husband: Arthur Weasley Children: Bill, Charlie, Percy, Fred, George, Ron, and Ginny Weasley

    personality.

    Molly has hyperactive-type ADHD, which often manifests through constant cleaning, gardening, knitting, or any of several possible chores available to her. 

    Fiercely defensive---almost overbearingly so---towards her family and loved ones. 

    Near constant anxiety as it relates to her family’s safety, got significantly worse after the death of her brothers. 

    High strung, extremely irritable, and struggles with emotional regulation. 

    She’s used to being in charge, having her demands met, etc., and thus struggles when things don’t go her way. 

    A little naive and gullible when it comes to both people she trusts and “reputable news sources”

    need to know.

    Orphaned at a young age, Molly had the distinct displeasure of being under her great aunt Muriel’s care for her late childhood and adolescence. 

    Has certain complexes and neuroses related to being raised by a bitter, judgmental woman. Hasn’t bothered examining any of it. 

    A genius at charms who believes her true calling lies in being a housewife and SAHM. 

    links.

    verses.

    in character.

    headcanons.

    moodboard.

    #* basic profiles. #* molly hc. #* molly ic. #* molly mb. #* molly aes. #* molly musings. #* re: molly. #* molly verses. #* molly pages. #* molly meta.
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  • heidi891
    27.07.2021 - 53 minutes ago

    Thor in “Ragnarok” = Loki in “Thor”

    I know that my theory is not considered canon... But it explains why Thor is suddenly acting so OOC. He’s basically experiencing what Loki did in the first “Thor”.

    There’s a huge difference in the beginning though. Loki lets the Frost Giants into Asgard and later that fuels his guilt and self-hatred. On the other hand, Thor discovers that Loki is still alive. He feels deceived and betrayed and more heroic in contrast to Loki’s ‘villainy’.

    Loki discovers that Odin haven’t told him the truth about his origins. It devastates him. Similarly, Thor discovers that Odin lied that he’s his firstborn. He’s not as emotional as Loki, but he’s shocked and hurt. I think he doesn’t even realise how deeply wounded he really is.

    Their internal crisis manifests differently because of their different personalities. As an INFJ, Loki falls into Ni-Ti loop. He’s alone, but he’s also alienating himself from others. Unfortunately he doesn’t rely on his secondary function: Extroverted Feeling. He focuses on his tertiary function - Introverted Thinking - and he’s overthinking everything. He starts believing in things that are not necessarily true - that Odin favours Thor, that he’s not loved, that he’s a monster and that he has to prove his worth by commiting genocide. Eventually he falls into the grip of his inferior function: Extraverted Sensing. He becomes a  caricature of his brother whose dominant function as ESTP is Se. But Loki cannot use this function properly (since it’s inferior) and he becomes unusually impulsive. His decisions - like sending the Destroyer to Earth - are rash and irrational. Although he’s avoided violence before, he desperately wants to fight Thor now.

    On the other hand, Thor falls into Se-Fe loop. He doesn’t stop and think about what’s happened, he neglects his secondary function: Introverted Thinking. He doesn’t come up with a rational plan, he desperately wants to do something, because ‘that’s what heroes do’. Of course, he’s wanted to be a hero before, but now he seeks validation, he wants to be seen as a hero. His inner rational compass doesn’t balance his call to action and desire of validation from others.

    Thor (2017): You know, go ahead. Stay here and get drunk and enslave people for that lunatic. Keep drinking. Keep hiding. But me... I choose to run toward my problems and not away from them. Because that's what... Because that's what heroes do.

    He runs towards his problems without thinking, because he wants to be seen as a hero. Even if it doesn’t make any sense.

    He falls into the grip of his inferior function: Introverted Intuition. However, Thor’s story is about a hero who must win in the end, not about spiralling into villainy like Loki. In the grip of Ni:

    He blames Loki for everything.

    He predicts Loki’s betrayal. Thor seems more cunning, but Loki’s motivation isn’t villanous. Thor expects betrayal because of Ni grip, not because it’s logical. What’s more, if Thor was more rational and ‘normal’, he probably wouldn’t be betrayed at all. But he is and then he is unnecessarily cruel. He believes Loki betrays him over and over again, even though it’s not true. 

    He becomes detached from his surroundings. But it turns into mystical experience when he sees his father and realises what power he possesses.

    He comes to the conlusion that the only way to defeat Hela is to destroy the whole Asgard. It’s Loki who does it in the end, but it’s Thor’s idea and Thor’s decision. In some other, not Thor-friendly film this could be seen as villanous action of someone who cannot deal with family drama.

    I’m not saying that Thor becomes a delusional villain. But he’s experiencing severe stress.

    Loki actually acknowledges their similarities:

    Loki (2017): It hurts, doesn’t it? Being lied to. Being told you’re one thing and then learning it’s all a fiction.

    Some people argue that when Thor tortures his borther, Loki decides to change and ‘become a hero’, while others see his return as resignation and ‘knowing his place’ as inferior brother. However, I believe that in that moment he realises what Thor experiences and why he’s behaving like that - because Loki did it too, six years earlier. He knows the stress, the delusions, the urge to hurt someone he loves. And since he’s a bit healed and he’s more surprised by Odin’s love than by his lies, it’s easier for him to understand Thor, forgive him and be there for him.

    Loki (2017): I’m here.
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  • scarletrain1724
    27.07.2021 - 58 minutes ago

    Barbatos is honestly such a cusp Leo-Virgo....He has characteristics of both signs: patient, reliable, hard-working,  perfectionism,  (Virgo ) and fiercely protective of those dear to them, loyal, compassion and generous (Leo)...But he seems to be more leaning on the Virgo, if you asked me personally. 

    #obey me barbatos #Obey me #Obey me meta #zodiac signs
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  • multasfacies
    27.07.2021 - 1 hour ago

    * nur.

    Basic Ass Profile.

    portrayal notes:

    neurodivergent bisexual nonbinary woman of Turkish and Bulgarian descent, born and raised in France. 

    canon atheist, not fandom observant.

    Headcanon based Fleur Delacour, but without the xenophobia. 

    Open to shipping, but don’t feel beholden to canon. ;D

                                                                         ( to be continued… )

    basics.

    Nurgül Isabelle Bey-Delacour —Nur, Belle Half-vila. Witch. Nonbinary. She/Her.  b. ~1977

    appearance.

    Nur takes after her mother in terms of height (5′6″) and coloring (honey-blonde hair and icy blue eyes), though she’s inherited her father’s features and his olive-toned skin. 

    “Parisian chic” (aka borderline minimalist fashion staples)

    Carries herself with a natural grace that is the result of years of ballet mixed with a natural vila charm. 

    relationships.

    Parents: Halim Bey and Apolena Delacour Siblings: Sevim Gabrielle Bey-Delacour (sister)

    personality.

    Comes off as a haughty, arrogant, know-it-all... and while that’s not necessarily untrue, it’s mostly that she has poor social skills and struggles to connect with her peers. 

    Really nerdy once you get to know her. 

    Prone to giving ridiculous nicknames; Gabrielle is the most common victim of this.

    need to know.

    Nur is Turkish on her paternal side and Bulgarian on her maternal side. 

    Quadrilingual: French, Turkish, Bulgarian, and English. 

    Started her Healer career at St. Mungo’s following the end of the Triwizard Tournament, knowing that war was likely to break out soon and determined to help where she could. 

    links.

    verses.

    in character.

    headcanons.

    moodboard.

    #* basic profiles. #* nur hc. #* nur ic. #* nur mb. #* nur aes. #* nur musings. #* re: nur. #* nur verses. #* nur pages. #* nur meta.
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  • quicksandblock
    27.07.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Something I find interesting about the l'manhole is - at least as far as I can remember, and please do correct me if I'm wrong on this - none of the former L'Manburg citizens have ever done anything with it. None of them have so much as touched it. I think the most consecutive time any of them have spent there was on the day of Wilbur's resurrection.

    Puffy, an outsider, was the one to glass it over and make it a monument. Foolish, who was never even on the server when L'manburg was alive, cleared out the bloodvines. Both things to honor the land and preserve its history - but no one who actually lived that history bothered to do them.

    Everyone who was a part of L'Manburg scattered immediately after its destruction. None of them looked back even for a moment or clung to the last remnants of the place that used to be their home. I think that's because they knew there was nothing left in that place to save.

    L'Manburg is dead. The crater is a corpse. Everything important that was there is gone now. The life - the people - can never come back into it. They knew better than to try.

    Now Philza is the third outsider to come to work in the ruins of L'Manburg. And honestly, that doesn't upset me at all. The fate of the corpse might as well belong to one of the people who helped make it.

    #dream smp#philza#doomsday#l'manburg#l'manhole #dream smp analysis #talk#my meta #it's 4:30 am have some Thoughts #also very interesting what exactly hes decided to do there #he's finally healing the wound a little #or alternatively: helping the corpse finally start to rot #I'm still thinking about what exactly that means but it is fascinating
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  • ptriarch
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago

    someone: the yilling patriarch has powers we have no idea about yet

    wei ying: *literally laying on the ground*

    the ghost girls in perfect unison: they’re fine. they’re just having a panic attack. happens all the time

    #( sorry about the mental illness king. you're sexy as hell though ) #i lost my heart in the burial mounds ( meta & musings. )
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  • ailendolin
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago

    I'm still convinced that Loki and Mobius would have created Nexus Events of their own if their profound moments had happened on the Sacred Timeline and not at the TVA / in the Void.

    I mean-

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  • kienansidhe
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago

    twitter: you can only scroll back so far before we stop loading older posts, but hey if you exit the app and come back we save where you left off in your timeline

    tumblr: you can scroll indefinitely in theory, but god forbid you accidentally exit the app or it crashes or the internet goes out for awhile or you breathe wrong cause then its back to the top of your dash!!!1!1!!1!

    #if only we could have both smh #headspace #love how twitters feed is called a timeline and is not in chronological order #whereas tumblrs is a dashboard and is in chronological order #seems swapped lol #tumblr meta#internet meta
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  • the-sassiest-trixster
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago
    #sass answers#rose edition #Killer and Healer #zhan junbai#yu tangchun #i love talking meta and discussing shit like this
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  • multasfacies
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago

    * corey.

    Basic Ass Profile.

    portrayal notes:

    Half-white English, half-Hakka Chinese-Singaporean neurodivergent cis woman. 

    canon atheist, fandom ignorant.

    Cho Chang, except I care about her as a person and not how her character can serve Harry.

    Disinterested in shipping Corey/Harry during their Hogwarts years. So disinterested it’s not canon on this blog.

                                                                          ( to be continued… )

    basics.

    Chiu “Corrine” Chong // [insert Hakka pronunciation] // 張秋 —Corey Half-Blood. Witch. Cis Female. b. ~ 1979

    appearance.

    “Very pretty” with long black hair, freckles on her nose. Petite; at 4′11″, she’s smaller than her peers and confused for a young teenager well into her twenties and even thirties. 

    Most often has her hair in a ponytail; avoids makeup.

    Dresses plainly, focusing on fabric quality and ease of movement. 

    relationships.

    Parents: Eileen Morrison & Kiûn Chong (張君) Brother: William”Liam” Sṳ̀n Zhang (張成)

    personality.

    Girl-next-door type, if the girl next door was also the biggest jock in school and the popular girl in class.

    Friendly, very approachable. A lot of friendly acquaintances, but not many deep friendships. Lonely, but feels pressured not to show it/distracts herself from the feeling.

    Easily swayed by those around her when it comes to her weaker subjects: relationships, feelings, etc.

    Kind of oblivious to a lot of dynamics, simply because they don’t interest her. 

    Very obviously autistic if you know what to look for---then again, she’s masking pretty well. 

    need to know.

    Corey and her brother are both half-”Hakka Han” Chinese-Singaporean on their father’s side and half-white English on their mother’s.  

    Doesn’t date Harry while they’re still in school (she’s GRIEVING)

    Her special interest is Quidditch, which is obvious as the conversation always seems to go there.

    Don’t call her Chewy. >:(

    links.

    verses.

    in character.

    headcanons.

    moodboard.

    #* basic profiles. #* corey hc. #* corey ic. #* corey mb. #* corey aes. #* corey musings. #* re: corey. #* corey verses. #* corey pages. #* corey meta.
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  • bleuskais
    27.07.2021 - 2 hours ago

    hi yes i would like to once again thank the genius who cast Nakamura Yuuichi as Kumatani & Sugita Tomokazu as Usahara

    so glad they kept this lmfao

    #uramichi oniisan#usahara tobikichi#kumatani mitsuo#seiyuu#sugita tomokazu#nakamura yuuichi #all the meta #how do you vid? #this is basically the same dynamic for them irl #will i ever not associate one with the other? #am i talking about the characters or the seiyuu? #you'll never know #why did this hellsite nerf the video quality?! #it was okay on my computer ლ(ಠ_ಠ ლ)
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  • mindinmuken
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

              My my, how high-spirited.

    #MUSE: THE FALSE GOD (AIZEN SOUSUKE) #dash comm; #[ 'high-spirited' like ascension & perfect transcendence ahaha he's awake for now & thinks he's clever as always X'3 #aLSO HI WE'RE HERE asdfghjk just been busy & working on projects here and there #& grinding bbs when we're not swamped TvT;;; #I hope everyone's been doing good tho !! as usual m having a blast with my meta brainrot esp with that new Aizen >B)) ]
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  • lupuswisteria
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Headcanons Dump 1

    Unlike his twin brother, Itsuki was a recommendation. He did not passed the same tests as the latter. His addition in Class 1-A does not make them 20 anymore.

    Due to his methods of training, he has leveled to a point, where certain constructs can be made, out of his quirk. While he let Shiniqua summon the shields, Itsuki has no problem creating a set of archery gears, quiver & arrows included and a scythe, the latter takes more out of him though. 

    This leads him to have efficient archery techniques, doubled with his lupine/nocturnal eyesight.

    However, he has a preference for luring foes/opponents, think ahead of time, similar to his sibling. He often prefer going in close combat, as in no quirks fights or make use of the terrains around him. His nails aren’t just for aesthetic, & his tail, with enough force, slap pretty hard.

    He goes hunting 4 days, in each weeks, or more, if the mood takes in. 

    Over all the woods, surrounding UA, Itsuki’s hunting grounds, is the one place seen, when Gentle Criminal manage to sneak in. & though its not a place owned by the school, its known that Hounddog often patrol there, ever since that event. However, it is not to say that the forest belong to Itsuki, many other students do often wander there. Just as long as distance is kept, it doesn’t matter to him, that peoples hang around the woods.

    Whenever he does go hunting, he leaves notes onto his locked room’s door, so that no one comes looking for him, seeing as this wolf boy value his privacy alot.

    Because of how cryptic he speaks sometimes, it is very hard to understand what he means, most of the times, being that, he does not want to be understood & will offer little to no explanation.

    Though preferring archery, he does not lack control when it comes to wielding a summoned scythe construct.

    During the 1-A & 1-B battles, Itsuki was not present, as he had replaced a sick student, in the second years, as these classes were also doing the same.

    #headcanons#ooc #do not reblog if not me #meta#muse relevant #some of them are going in the blog About page
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  • bloofirefae
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Gods, I can’t get over this.

    Essek may have internalized it under the guise of needing to know more about dunamis and the potential the Luxon Beacons had, but under all of that thirst for knowledge was an entirely different thirst—a hunger—that he could never have uncovered on his own. Essek was lonely.

    It wasn’t that there was no one around him. It was that there was no one around him with similar interests and values, no one willing to do what he was willing to do. No one willing to challenge the shackles of rigid tradition, religion, and culture that the Dynasty is mired in and seek more. To reach further. To question why. No one to match him intellectually on the levels he found integral to his passion for magic and knowledge.

    Essek was so desperate to find someone who understood his thirst for knowledge in this particular regard, even the tiniest bit, that he reached out to the ENEMY NATION’S corrupt, powerful wizard circle to find that connection.

    And he thought he had found it. He was so sure he had. Until he was finally faced with someone like him; someone who challenged every box that held him, who looked for more, who reached further, who questioned why. Essek met Caleb, and within a very short time, realized he had been missing someone like him his entire life.

    Essek Thelyss had been looking for a Caleb Widogast for a very, very long time but was too entrenched in both his selfish drive to further his own knowledge and his disillusionment with the way the Dynasty treated research into dunamis, that he became blind to it.

    No wonder he was suddenly faced with the vacuity one becomes intimate with when everything they’ve been building towards suddenly falls out from under their feet, no wonder he unraveled so quickly and fell straight into an existential crisis.

    The Mighty Nein helped shape Essek into someone who no longer had to stand in the presence of loneliness and not recognize its face, but Essek no longer has to hunger for someone who would get it; because Caleb does.

    #whoever said essek has been looking for caleb his entire life: this one's for you <3 #ive edited this a gazillion times and still hate it #-hands this to the fandom- i hope u like it fam #i think about the way caleb and essek slowly became more intertwined over time on a daily basis #and the symbolism and imagery that surrounds them and only grew more numerous and poignant as the campaign went on #there's just SO MUCH #and trying to put any of it into words feels impossible #but here's my attempt at a tiny sliver of it that managed to escape me somewhat eloquently #ok debrief essay over #shadowgast#essek thelyss#caleb widogast#critical role#cr meta #critical role meta #my writing#thought dump
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  • multasfacies
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    * andromeda.

    Basic Ass Profile.

    portrayal notes:

    White, neurodivergent cis woman. 

    canon accessible, fandom ignorant.

                                                                          ( to be continued… )

    basics.

    Andromeda Tonks (nee Black) —‘Dromeda, ‘Meda. Pureblood. Witch. Cis Female. She/Her. b. ~1953

    appearance.

    Andromeda has the same harsh beauty of her sisters, though she seems… gentler, as it is neither as fierce as Bellatrix or as cold as Narcissa.

    Tall, with dark eyes and dark hair.

    relationships.

    Parents: Cygnus Black and Druella Black (nee Rosier) Siblings: Bellatrix Lestrange, Narcissa Malfoy Aunts and Uncles: Walburga Black, Orion Black, Alphard Black, Lucretia Prewett, and Ignatius Prewett Cousins: Sirius Black, Regulus Black Spouse: Ted Tonks Children: Nymphadora Tonks

    personality.

    Andromeda is hard to read. Most people think of her as a blank slate to which they project their own thoughts, which suits her just fine. Usually.

    Diplomatic, resourceful, and ambitious, she has some of the best traits of her house.

    A curious individual who isn’t beholden to tradition. 

    need to know.

    Sorted Slytherin.

    Tried to pursue a Ministry career, but was discouraged by the discrimination she faced by some of her pureblood colleagues and superiors after her elopement with Ted.

    Works as a freelance writer with publications such as Witch’s Weekly under a pseudonym.

    A natural Occlumens. 

    Loves her family, but not enough to derail her life for them. 

    links.

    verses.

    in character.

    headcanons.

    moodboard.

    #* basic profiles. #* andromeda hc. #* andromeda ic. #* andromeda mb. #* andromeda aes. #* andromeda musings. #* re: andromeda. #* andromeda verses. #* andromeda pages. #* andromeda meta.
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  • multasfacies
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    * narcissa.

    Basic Ass Profile.

    portrayal notes:

    demisexual/demiromantic, neurodivergent, white (English) cis woman, interpretation based in part on the concept of “patriarchal bargain”

    canon atheist & divergent, not fandom observant. 

    main continuity assumes Narcissa was in a dysfunctional marriage to Lucius Malfoy, and that they later divorced after the second war. 

    This will absolutely be negotiated with any Lucius RPers.

    a major verse involves Rabastan as Draco’s biological father (exclusive to @knowshisown / @bastardpure / @ourpyrrhicvictory)

                                                                          ( to be continued… )

    basics.

    Narcissa Delphine Malfoy (nee Black) —Cissa, Cissy. Pureblood. Witch. Cis Female. She/Her b. ~1955

    appearance.

    A harsh beauty like that of her sisters, tall and slim. Light brown hair that she regularly colors lighter or darker with the use of charms. 

    She’s Not Looking Down On You, She Just Looks Like That

    relationships.

    Parents: Druella & Cygnus Black Siblings: Bellatrix Lestrange, Andromeda Tonks Cousins: Sirius Black, Regulus Black Spouse: Lucius Malfoy Children: Draco Malfoy

    personality.

    Her outer persona is elegant, refined, and haughty. She comports herself as someone who belongs at the pinnacle, for no other reason than it being her birthright. Aristocratic. She holds those beneath her—and that’s just about everyone—with disdain.

    Her outer apathy masks an interior ruled by fear and a desire for self-preservation. This leads her to largely conforming to the expectations put on her, even to her own detriment, in order to keep her status.

    Narcissa is fiercely loyal to her family, and loves her son above all else.

    need to know.

    Narcissa tolerates Lucius at best, though I am open to discussion with Lucius RPers about other dynamics. 

    Has Generalized Anxiety Disorder, though undiagnosed. 

    Tutored in Occlumancy in an effort to better control her “nerves”, to mixed results. 

    links.

    verses.

    in character.

    headcanons.

    moodboard.

    #* basic profiles. #* narcissa hc. #* narcissa ic. #* narcissa mb. #* narcissa aes. #* narcissa musings. #* re: narcissa. #* narcissa verses. #* narcissa pages. #* narcissa meta.
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  • cosmicjoke
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Ugh, okay, chapter 81 of AoT, and I’m in the corner cryin’.

    But seriously, what an emotionally powerful chapter this was.  God man, it’s gonna’ take me a minute to get my thoughts in order.

    Well, first of all, Erwin, and all of the recruits, watching them sacrifice their lives here was just so absolutely, emotionally powerful.  Just incredibly moving and heartbreaking.  Even after Erwin gets hit and falls, (and the panels here of him dying are truly devastating, powerful images) to see the recruits continuing to charge forward, to carry on in his stead, it really is just so intense, and as well speaks to Erwin’s own power as a commander, how he was able to inspire these people into giving their lives for a greater cause.  To see their courage in the face of certain death, carrying on Erwin’s spirt here, it truly was one of the most moving, and also one of the most heart-wrenching moments in SnK up to this point.  I felt so much for all of them.  The way Marlowe thought of Hitch too, in the end, never realizing it was because he was in love with her, ugh, my heart.

    Now contrasting that, and I swear to Christ, I really, REALLY don’t understand how anyone can sympathize with Zeke given the sick display he puts on here, his cruelty and ego-driven rage towards these young men and women, and how he lets his rage towards his father fuel his violence towards these innocent people just... it pisses me off so much.  I can’t even.  I mean, Zeke is one twisted, sick mother fucker.  He’s demented, truly, the way he swings wildly between violent rage and perverse glee as he kills them, and then has the unmitigated gall to act like he feels sorry for these people, how clearly he thinks of them as pitiful and pathetic, their sacrifice as meaningless.  He treats them like their lives are pointless, and then has the nerve to play at sympathy for their plight.  What pisses me off the most about Zeke is how utterly self-centered he is.  How everything he does, everything he thinks, is filtered through his own view of the world and life, and how he never once stops to consider the lives of others, their own views or experiences.  Because he’s deemed his own life as worthless and without point, so too has he deemed the lives of every other Eldian.  He’s far and away the most self-centered, ego-driven and selfish character in the whole series.  Oh, he just made me sick here.  His own hypocrisy is equally disgusting, with how angry he becomes when Levi dares to make him pay for what he’s done.  As if he can’t believe anyone would dare cause him harm, unable to comprehend why they would even wish to do so, as if he’s some great, godly figure sent to the world to bestow his twisted sense of mercy on those he deems unfit to live.  Just the whining, hysterical reaction he has to getting fucked up. The ego on this guy is seemingly infinite.  He truly is despicable.  Just a pathetic child of a man taking out his issues on everyone but himself, throwing temper tantrums when anyone dares to challenge him on what he’s decided is right.  Fuck Zeke.  Seriously, just... fuck this guy so much.

    Now, enough about him, let’s talk about Levi.

    Truly, some of the most heartbreaking moments we’ve seen with Levi up to this point happen in this chapter.   The moments following him taking Zeke down (and yes, that whole sequence was epically bad-ass), just seeing the depth of Levi’s pain here was so devastating, and incredibly moving.  You can see how preoccupied he is with what’s happened.  Zeke isn’t even his main consideration or concern.  He seems almost distracted, looking back behind him, out over the field of his fallen comrades and friends, and wondering in an almost frantic, inner monologue to himself if anyone out there is still alive.  He’s hoping beyond hope that someone, ANYONE, is, so that he can save at least one person.  This goes back to Levi’s determination to keep the new recruits alive back in I think chapter 78 or 79, ordering them not to die, and then trying desperately to get those with the horses back on the other side of the wall.  It really puts into perspective just how devastating this is for Levi, to see all of these people, dead, crushed to death by rocks, all of these people who just a short while ago he had been doing everything he could to protect.  To know they had to die to save only a few.  HIs desperation here, the way he clings to the hope that at least one person is still alive, out of all of them, to be saved, the way he reminds himself that as long as they’re breathing, it can be done, if he gives them the serum, it all just drives home in the most poignant way just how pained Levi is at the sacrifice they’ve all made.  It drives home how much it’s cost Levi, to allow them to do it.  I said before that him making that choice for Erwin was Levi going against every, innate feeling and instinct that he has, the need to protect and save people.  Levi had to go directly against his own nature in order to make that call, and the consequences of that are plain to see in these panels.  His wide eyed, shocked expression, the frantic, mantra-like thoughts going through his mind, almost childlike in the way he keeps asking if anyone is still alive out there, if there’s anyone he can bring back.  And the way he thinks of Erwin specifically when he asks that, it serves as such a cruel reminder that Levi’s just given up one of his dearest and closest friends.  That he’s just willingly lost a person that meant so much to him, in order to obtain any sort of victory for humanity.   It reminds us of the personal cost to Levi.  Another person he’s lost in this battle for humanity’s salvation.  Ah, he just breaks my heart so much here.  And also how it’s that hope, that desperate wish that someone is still able to be saved, that stays Levi’s hand from killing Zeke immediately.  How it’s purely Levi’s wish to save someone that keeps him from killing Zeke then and there, it truly speaks volumes about what kind of person Levi really is, about how much he values life.  

    And then of course there’s Levi’s reaction when Pieke catches him off guard and steals Zeke away.  Levi’s stunned horror, as he watches Zeke escaping is, for one, I think, because his chance to save even one life is being taken away, there before his eyes, and, of course, because the purpose behind all of his comrades sacrifices, the reason they gave up their lives, in order for Levi to kill Zeke and provide those left a means of escape, is being rendered meaningless.  We then see Levi’s stunned horror turn to unbridled rage, as he realizes the promise he’d made to Erwin is slipping from his hands.  He can’t allow for all of these people to have died in vain, he can’t let their sacrifices mean nothing, he can’t let that stand.  Once again, the depth with which Levi values the lives of other people is truly incredible, and the emotion in these panels is perhaps the most powerful example of that quality in Levi up to this point in the story.  I just felt so much for him all throughout this.  

    When you think about what Levi’s been through here, too, how before he even went after the Beast Titan, he’d already run himself ragged taking down some unknown number of smaller Titans to protect the horses and the new recruits, and then in order to get to Zeke, he had to take down probably a dozen or more 12 or 15 meter Titans, before finally taking the Beast Titan down, all this by himself, it displays the strength of Levi’s will so powerfully, how much of himself he’s willing to give in order to further the cause of others.  For him to then continue to go after Zeke, after all of that, just the way he never gives up, never stops fighting, exemplifies how wholly Levi truly embodies the ideal of the Survey Corps, and the fight for humanity.  What an absolute hero he is.

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  • oficytheft
    27.07.2021 - 3 hours ago

    || CLOSED || Len & Lisa ||

    @gclden-fidelity​

    “Everything we know about Meta’s, Magic and Time Travel; you really all that surprised to see me alive, sis?”

    #gcldenfidelity #v; Time Meta #HI I AM TRAPPED WRITING A FIC THAT HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE BUT LEN LET ME TAKE A 5 MINUTE BREAK TO WRITE THIS BC (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻ LISA
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