[No death.]
“It’s not supposed to end like this! You’re not supposed to die like this!”
He’s going to die.
Cold. Ion’s body is so cold. He’s shaking, shivering, his lips turning blue. And no matter how tightly I hold him, I can’t share enough of my body heat. His blood leaks out from the bullet holes in his back, pooling on the rooftop.
“It hurts.” He presses his head against my arm. “I can’t breathe.”
“You’re alright,” I lie. “You’re going to be fine.” But he’s not.
He’s going to die.
He jumped in front of me. He… he jumped in front of me, putting his back to the Ravager as the Ravager was going wild with a machine gun. Ion sacrificed himself for me, and now he’s dying in my arms. A small smile turns up on his face as he gazes up at me. “Hey,” he rasps, his voice broken. “Don’t be sad.”
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currently i’m just sitting downstairs on tumblr having a few oreos and logically i know i could put a load of laundry in and continue this exact behavior while getting something that needs to be done done but i’m still not doing it lmao @ my brain can we please cooperate today thanks
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Sto ricominciando a credere in me stessa. A darmi fiducia e ad ascoltarmi. È difficile e sfiancante ricordarmi di non essere meschina con me stessa, ma mi lascia un sorriso nel cuore, anziché il finto ed estremo sorriso che ho sempre in volto.
Laura, la sciamana peruviana, mi ha detto:
“Anche un assassino o il più crudele degli uomini, merita di vivere felice. Ti meriti una vita degna.”
Me lo dicono di continuo. Permettiti di essere felice. Raramente do loro ascolto. A volte mi dimentico che, anche se non sono la persona migliore del mondo, non mi merito di castigarmi di continuo con la sofferenza.
Un giorno scoprirò perché mi punisco così duramente; sarà un giorno pieno di dolore, ma anche il giorno della mia liberazione dal passato.
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21.01.2020
This week, before my trip, I’m mainly trying to catch up to all the lessons I’ve missed while being sick. So here are some physics notes!!!
🎧BTS, Black Swan
1just spent 20minutes frantically searching for That One Guitar Suite a guy played for me like 5 years ago and that I loved a lot; and how’s your studying going
0Playing pretend - Pixie
For anyone who likes to be a pixie - or just like playing pretend!
I like to start by sitting on the floor in my room. Setting a good atmosphere helps so I’ll put on a movie or show about them (it’s usually a tinkerbell movie). You can look around at everything and notice how much taller everything looks compared to before. This is when I start imagining things. I imagine what it would be like to interact with things in my room at such a tiny size.
I think of things like how I would be able to fit in my jewelry box and how big and heavy all of my accessories would be. All my plushies would be so giant (the perfect size) and super soft. Any thoughts like that are helpful.
Then I imagine what I’d look like! Sometimes visualizing is hard so I like to draw it. You can draw what you want your outfit to look like and how you’d like your hair to look. Most importantly draw your wings! The more thought and creativity you put into them the better. After all, they are your special and magical wings! If you want, you can put the drawing somewhere you’ll see it if looking at it helps.
From there, you can decide what kind of adventure you have as a pixie as it becomes easier to imagine. Learn how to fly. Imagine what it would feel like to have your wings scatter the air around you. Go on adventures! Explore your room, house, or outside. Maybe you can talk to your pets or plushies! Go outside and go treasure hunting to find pretty rocks and coins.
Thats all I can think of for now. I’m also making more of an aesthetic post to go along with this to maybe help with feeling more like a pixie . I hope this is helpful!
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