It’s literally true that you can succeed best and quickest by helping others to succeed.
Conveying my special thanks to Andrew Turner
Andrew Turner has been an entrepreneur for the last 5 years and has appeared on HGTV 6 times as a landscape design expert for Flip or Flop Fort Worth.
@fortworthroots is a variety podcast that brings all of the podcasting subcategories to one location.
I got the opportunity to be interviewed for his podcast which will soon be released.
And thank you Andrew for showing interest in reading my book.
It was such a great conversation full of fun and insights and glad that you loved the India Samosa and Tea.
I guess technically the way that I’m losing weight is unhealthy. I just restrict how much I’m eating and I’m not that into exercise so I try not to eat more than 500 calories in a day. The people around me dont think I’m being unhealthy but that’s the stigma with being overweight instead of underweight right?
Saw this the other day on here and had to save it as the background on my phone. I have been on a journey, as most of you know, to lose weight for years. For some reason I hit my first few goals then lose complete motivation and ambition and fall back into old habits. All the cards are on the table now and the true emotions are coming out.
(I apologize in advance for this being a novel of a post. I’ve needed to get a lot of this out for myself to heal and get a grip on what I’m feeling. So many of you have been incredible motivators, supporters, my biggest go to’s for encouragement and if there was one time I needed it the most…that would be now. So bear with me and my word vomit of emotions….)
A year ago February I started my WW journey and lost almost 30#. I was so excited, felt great, and was ready to take on the world!!!
Then Covid-19 hit… life became turned upside down, financial stressors came around, I wasn’t able to workout with my trainer and gym friends for 4 months due to everything being shut down (I know you all feel the pain of that one). My eating habits went 100% down the drain due to my trigger of stress/emotional eating. I went from feeling on top.of the world to lost, terrified, discouraged, and depressed within a week (if not within a few days). At first I was trying to pep talk myself and say it would all pass once we figured out the “new normal”. Yeah, that’s a joke. There is no new normal here in MN yet. We still haven’t figured our shit out. We shut down, we open up, we talk of shutting down again. On top of all that stress, I live within miles of the protests for George Floyd, within miles of the riots, falling asleep to the flash bombs/military choppers/gunshots, trying my damnedest to give my love and support where it is needed the most. Trying to educate not only myself but my friends and family. (Needless to say my feelings are nothing compared to what others feel on a daily basis and I’m not at all trying to belittle those feelings.)
This year has been a complete and total crap shoot and it’s only JULY!!!! Every single thing I have looked forward to this summer has been canceled, every plan of getting together with my mom at our cabin to work on things for deer season is gone. Celebrating new births, birthdays, sadly funerals, anniversaries, etc is out the window. Just when I planned to go home I find out a coworker may have Covid (I work extremely closely with 10 people in a small veterinary clinic so this is kind of a big deal for us, there is no chance of “social distancing” when you work with animals). Take all of that stress and pile it on top of what I already was struggling with and here we are….July 11, 2020. No one knows what is to come, where to go, or what to do. Life keeps piling up and I keep trying to slap a smile on my face and say “I’m fine”. But I’m not fine. I’m not handling this well. I’m not as strong as I try to portray. I’ve been bottling it all up inside for months now.
Today is the start of 5 days off from work in a row for me. I took Monday through Wednesday off at first to go camping and once that fell through I decided I’m taking these days to heal. Taking them to find myself again…
~ Today is the emotional step of getting it all out and having a good cry.
~ Tomorrow I will start to pick up the pieces with my Bestie.
~ Monday I will make a plan and set some goals, put together a vision board and do some serious soul searching. I’m going to stop focusing on the numbers and start focusing on the physical aspects of my weight loss journey - dropping sizes, gaining muscle mass, losing fat mass, feeling better, sleeping better, living healthier.
~ Tuesday I am spending the day with my most amazing supporter, my cousin.
~ Wednesday will be cleaning day - getting all the negative energy out of my apartment, cleaning everything, and getting ready to start over with a new fresh feel.
I’m going to stop focusing on the negative emotions and start focusing on the positive ones. I’m going to get the hell out of my head and START LIVING. I know I can do this because I’ve done it before. I know I have the strength and determination in me I just need to find it again.
I must heal from the inside out. Remember the feminine side. You are the master of your own universe. I remain centered and at peace in the kayos around me. Let the shadows fall away. Today’s a new day. Show your inner strength. Keep moving ahead and love will find you. Bring harmony.
“All grown-ups were once children, but only few of them remember it.” - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
The Little Prince satires the unflattering points of grown-ups and their hopelessly narrow mindedness, unlike children who have the willingness and open mindedness to explore the world around them. The problem is, all grown-ups were once children, but only a few can recall the gist of childhood memories. It’s lost, nowhere to be found they say, but it’s only inside of you. Locked in the shackles of forgotten dreams— the forgotten childhood.
Can you still recall the little kid inside of you? That natural impulse to play and be mischievous? The sheer excitement of creating new friends. The fondness of joy to discover new things, or just doing whatever your heart desires. It feels extremely nostalgic, and my heart yearns to relive these innocent moments, but right now, we are all too focused on the race of accomplishments that we have completely forgotten the essential. We have over subdue ourselves to the matters of consequence. Compliments, certificates, golds, and medals: these are some great achievements in life that can give honor to us all, but what makes life exuberantly fascinating is the chances we get to spend time with our loved ones and doing the things we love the most. The most valuable things in life can never be seen through the naked eye, although ironically speaking, it can be figuratively seen through a person. Love, integrity, hope, friendship, kindness, compassion, trust, and bravery— these are the essences that can bring everlasting joy and fulfillment to one’s life. Art, music, solitude, memories, scents, food, and our fluffy animal best friends are the other factors that can add richness to our lives.
That for me is one of the greatest feelings in life, for these are the things that can make life effervescent;
Now I would like to share a quote from one of my favorite movies, “The Dead Poets Society”:
“Medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits, and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, and love, these are what we stay alive for.” - Robin Williams as John Keating
However, we also tend to forget the fascination of growing up. It gives us more sense of freedom, means, and maturity. Come on, who isn’t excited to be entitled to watch r-rated movies? Or have your curfew slowly cut short? Or the fact that you are finally grown enough to listen to your family dramas? What’s making you afraid? Aging?
Dear child, adults aren’t disappointing simply because they have aged or obtained jobs that entails full responsibility. They are being called out in the story because they have forgotten the authenticity of life as they are blinded by the appearances of the world
submerged themselves into every single affairs. They have overlooked and overvalued things where one can experience with the senses and the heart: people as robots and statistics, food as fuel and energy, education as functional, clothing as utilitarian, and art as an unnecessary gift. One can be mature yet still appreciate the sweet delights of imagination. One can be a grown-up yet still enjoy the wonders of a childlike persona. It all boils down to the idea of balance,
so how do we pose a balance? We should know when to act serious and when to sparkle up our childishness. To make it frank, know when to draw a line.
But always remember to keep that child in you— curious, imaginative, open minded, and hopeful. Growing up can get pretty gritty and uncomfortable because there are numerous developments — countless crossroads, but never ever forget that child in you, because honestly you’re going to thank that child in you one day.
P.S These thoughts are actually just from my Little Prince reviewer so there are some irrational ideas, wrong grammars or whatever so pardon me for that.