we’ll be right back
we’ll be right back
I am moving out this december. So I am making a list of reasons for myself (and fellow autistic people) to make moving out to live on my own don’t sound that scary to my brain anymore. Feel free to add on.
Life is good atm
Went on Realtor.com and looked at apartments in Moncton for an hour because that’s all I could find within my budget. Then just decided to look at New York City for fun and got emotionally hurt.
I can’t wait until I move out and my mum’s friend moves in.
Her friend is always 1. blunt 2. oblivious of when she’s getting on my mum’s nerves.
She’s going to call my mum on the dishes she “washes” and put in the dish strainer or drawer/cupboard.
She’s going to call her on it every time she assigns blame to a person/object to avoid taking responsibility.
She’s going to call her on it every time she tries to rewrite history and pretend she did/didn’t say/do something.
My mum’s choice to communicate badly (as a way to secretly test people) will blow-up in her face AND she’ll get called on it.
I can’t wait for this narcissistic bitch to have to face another adult and explain her behaviour. I can’t wait until she comes to me to complain and I can just tell her to grow up and handle things like a respectable adult and stop self-victimizing.
I can’t wait to be free from her and this place.
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One of those places you know exist and you put on the list of In-Case-I-Am-Nearby.
Well we weren’t nearby but we had some free time on our hands before heading back home so it made sense to stop for a coffee. #DoneAndCheckedOffTheDone
i havent been on here in a hot minute but im moving out and i wanted to know if any one of u guys have those moving out masterlists? i’ll be moving into a friends house so im not completely on my own bc ill be with a family i just need to know if someone has a list of stuff i need to pack so i could have a checklist thank u xoxo
Played on: September 17th, 2020 (UTC-4:00)
Ricky (Packed up)
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okay so my original plan was to take a year off to save up money for school but uh,, I think I changed my mind?
I still wanna go to college eventually
but I think I’m gonna save up my money to move out and legally change my name first before going back to school, not that anyone here really cares, I just like sharing
I just think that’ll make me feel a lot better and safer y'know?
Inspired by my bittersweet moving out from Las Vegas (where I had lived in for seven years)
This is literally gonna be a add on to my last post but I can’t sleep and this will help me just push it out again. I’m STRESSED! There’s no way I can handle this. I brought myself to have nothing short of A’s because of my first year. So I’m collapsing under the pressure of maintaining perfection. I plan on moving out next summer so I have to start preparing for that and thinking about how I’ll manage that!? On top of that I’m single and stressed I’ll be alone forever. I have 24 million assignments due in the next two weeks and they keep compiling. I’m job hunting. I plan on traveling next summer so that’s a stress I’m thinking about. I hadn’t thought about the fact that I might not even be accepted into my grad school program at U of W. If I AM accepted I have to uproot my life across the country and pay for grad school which is gonna be my life’s worth of money. If I’m not accepted then what? I have a physical this Friday. I have to maintain a social life. My grandma is really sick and I start crying every time that so much as crosses my mind. I am still losing weight and every time I weigh myself and I fluctuate even a tiny bit up I feel like I have to fast to maintain my weight which I know is SO fucking unhealthy. I just can’t even fathom each of these stressors. And on top of that there’s a world pandemic, our country is on fire, climate change is killing our planet, we have concentration camps at the border. I don’t even know how to keep going. On top of all this stress I want to just collapse and stay still forever doing nothing. This low motivation just drags me down worse. I’m pressed and just want to quit. But also quitting will collapse every single one of these stresses into infinitely worse ones. I hate it here.
I think the seriousness of moving out is finally starting to hit me. Like. All this time I didn’t get why people were sad about it or why people cried over it. But. Here I am. Crying about it. Like. I have good reason to want to move out. Things I can’t do if I don’t move out. And I’ve spent the past 5 years looking forward to finally getting away.
But. The closer I get to it. The more anxious and scared I get. Also. The sadder I get. Like. I know I can come back “home” whenever I want but lbr this won’t really be home anymore. I’m gonna be living away most of the time, just here on holidays. And that’s not really home anymore than is it? It’s 4am Thursday rn. And I leave on Saturday afternoon. And the closer I get, the more I want to hold on to the familiar things.
Moving out is getting thrown out into the world. And it’s so so so different from everything I’ve known so far. And it’s bittersweet really coz yay new things but also boo saying goodbye to everything you’ve known so far in your life. And. This is the really doozy here. Coz I don’t get it. My mom. With all her shorty quality. I don’t wanna leave her. She cares. And she loves me the best she can with the way she is. And yeah she’s got her faults. But. I really don’t wanna leave her. And I never thought I’d feel like this. I never thought the thing that would make moving out the hardest would be my mom. Coz she’s also the reason I want to leave. It’s weird. But rn all I want really is to stay home.
living alone is just you and your triple antibiotic ointment against the world
In May, I started running out of things to do in Animal Crossing: New Horizons that didn’t involve time traveling. As a result I started looking for something new to play, and since this one looked cute and fun, I decided to give it a shot.
This is a game that I shelved when something else I wanted to play came out (namely, the Isle of Armor DLC for Pokémon Sword), and one that I didn’t end up picking up again. It wasn’t bad; the music was good, the graphics were bright, and the gameplay was good enough for what it is. But as a single-player game, Moving Out is pretty lacking. More details under the cut, and I encourage you to view them on my blog since bullet lists look terrible on the dash now.
i just need to ask, as i’ve been seeing a lot of things involving people leaving unhealthy/abusive environments recently and i just need to ask… does it actually get better?
are you actually able to finally leave or are most stories just pure luck? i find myself always pushed back underwater right when i have a glimmer of hope
i just don’t wanna get my hopes up for nothing
move-out day is the same as move-in day
anyways, i only own a duffle bag of clothes and it’s mainly hoodies. nice.
i feel kinda sad tho. gonna miss my cat.
Cw: suicide mention
I’m moving out of home in six months, and my mum said to me today that she doesn’t know what she’ll do without me. I’m crying. I feel so awful and guilty. I’m terrified she’ll commit suicide after I leave. I can’t stop panicking. I want to move out, but I don’t want to make my mum feel bad or awful. I feel so selfish and horrible and guilty.
All art created by me using Pencil and Paper, Blender and Toon Boom Studio:
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