#my words Tumblr posts

  • dontdowhatisayandnobodygetshurt
    18.05.2021 - 12 minutes ago

    Man I really, really fucking hate my writing. Every time I somehow find a writing style I really like, one that’s efficient and enjoyable to write in, I get super excited and happy that I’ve found ~my style~. That kind of writing makes me feel so good it’s like I’m high. But I can’t control what style I write in. So I just lose it. Every fucking time. I know I CAN write like that, I know I’m capable of it, but I just can’t do it, I don’t know how to replicate it.

    I fucking hate the style I’m stuck in. I want to write but every time I try it’s so boring and hard and bland it just drains me and makes me feel miserable and angry. I hate it so much, I hate it, I hate it. I hate that one person ruined the thing that brought me the most joy in life I fucking hate it and I hate her.

    #writing is the one thing that always brought me joy #no matter what #and it was how I got out all my negative emotions #but now I can't write like I used to #I swear to god I can feel all those emotions just. stagnating. #I can't get them out so they build up and make me fucking miserable #I'm a worse person for it #not being able to write makes me so upset I want to do self destructive things #I won't #please don't worry #but#fuck #today on: Matt cannot control strong emotions be they positive or negative #:)#Matt speaks#negativity #writing is honest to god what I live for #it's a part of me #I fucking DREAM in words for fuck's sake #it's one of the things that makes life worth it #and I can't do it
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  • theebabydoll3000
    18.05.2021 - 26 minutes ago

    It’s weird how when you dream you can’t necessarily feel the environment around you

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  • theebabydoll3000
    18.05.2021 - 27 minutes ago

    If I were a fictional character I wonder what kind I’d be, and if I’d like to read about myself.

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  • tydragon
    18.05.2021 - 45 minutes ago
    #i literally have so many pretty pictures to share. #shhh#mine#sky#clouds #look i even added words to make it aesthetic and shit #this is my time.
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  • yayen-chan
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Fandom Drama: Vitriol, hate hate, hiss hiss.

    Me, horny ass motherfucker who was late in the fandom in general and is just writing for the heck of it.

    #fandom drama #no words just this meme #i have my opinions but hey who cares? #so we move on after stewing on it for a bit #and ultimate deciding i dont need that kind of drama #i have work to do #tw rant
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  • she-who-treads-on-water
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I'm cozy in bed in my attic, listening and watching the intense thunder and lightning storm.

    It makes me feel so calm yet energized at the same time.

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  • little-darkness-with-smiles-uwu
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    There’s someone I like and I’ll always like.

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  • somebody-in-this-world-who-lives
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Imagine being dead about fifty bucks

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Eleven year old fifty bucks

    We were seven

    These bucks are eleven

    Eleven year old fifty bucks

    Fifty bucks you stole from me

    Killed our friendship and gave your brother to eat

    Eleven year old fifty bucks

    I always thought I was a generous kid

    I was clingy and jealous, but I wasn't rich

    I still wonder if you'd asked me

    Maybe you wouldn't have to leave

    You'd manipulate me but it was fine

    It was my daily fine to pay for a good time

    And if your problems would vanish with my plastic card

    In the next bank robbery I'd be your gard

    I was a kid, I didn't know how much my mom could make

    When they caught you I didn't say it was a mistake

    Your father apologized and you were gone

    I spent the rest of the year alone

    Your snacks were more expensive than mine

    But I guess I never wanted to kill the vibe

    You were my first friend and I trusted you with my life

    So I wish you didn't cross that line

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Imagine being dead, about fifty bucks

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Eleven year old fifty bucks

    It's been eleven years but I remember your name

    Your skinny form and curls, all the same

    My eighteen old wish I could help

    But my seven year old wish you to fuck yourself

    And I'm sorry but a dog has to be honest

    Our relationship left me with a complex

    And if my psychologist has to hear

    Dear eleven year old memory, I gotta be clear

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Imagine being dead, about fifty bucks

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Eleven year olds fifty bucks

    There is probably something about this that was racist

    And I have overly scoured memories for it

    But in the end, girl, you fucking traumatized me

    Fifty bucks didn't pay off my codependency

    I don't brood over this just to feel seen

    I remember because you were mean

    I was seven and already had a scar on my face

    Your lying and pressing didn't leave much grace

    But imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Imagine being dead about fifty bucks

    Imagine being mad about fifty bucks

    Eleven year old fifty bucks

    #working lyrics #My god this triggers me a lot #I'm just posting so I can link it to show people #But this whole song gets me tense and shaking #Personal#tw vent #Honestly I'm very open to putting trigger warnings in this I just can't with words and don't know if this its just because it's me #long post #I haven't figured out a way to make lyrics take less space #Tw trauma discussion #? #tw manipulation #I'm just trying to be safe here
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  • iloveyoumorethansoup
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I am comfortable in my future

    #my favorite va in the world..... if I’m happy I should do it... #and if I’m ever not I can take a step back #everything’s gonna be okay #ma’am u have no idea what your words mean to me #soup talks
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  • h-isforhome
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    screaming crying punching air, normal nightly routine :)

    #god . it’s just .! mothers ..... coming out ...... acceptance ..... blah blah blah . fucked up ..... kids .... internalized homophobia..... #yk.....ykyk...... thinking abt it is crazy bro ...... hugs .... tears .... relief ........ rushed words ..... feeling like ur falling ..... #being save at the last second ......... fuck that’s insane . #the way all this is ignited by a fic godddd . obsessed & projecting what’s new .! #besides that though. i watched half of the half of it w my 13y/o sister . convinced her it was more important than love‚ simon #she said she felt tired halfway which i get we started at 11:45pm lmao #hm & ofc just . thinking abt the implications of That. yk . my little sister interested in love‚ simon and they both die at the end #and the song of achilles and saying she liked ellie’s voice (which i 110% get bro ellie has a gr8 voice pls read all my textbooks) #yk yk . u get what i’m saying . yeah ... connect the dots yk.... course i am not pushing anything but it just goes back to my first tags . #besides that though <3 watched the 911ls ep . what the fuck was that. so so so evil i wanna give tomi a hug so bad #and i hate owen and his fucking mug shows hip Everywhere takes away from the story of a black woman that lost her husband #not 24hrs ago and it pretending everything is Fine like what the fuck the writers’ room Reeks of white ppl . #judd in glasses i’m . usghshsgh a nice look <3 i love the ryders sooo much omg #also watched the 911 promo & rewatched the ending scene ! what the fuck was that framing bro. what’s gonna happen. i am intrigued.! #anyway . i should sleep now big day tmrw everyone in my inbox babes u all will unfortunately have 2 wait like . #a solid 18hrs
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  • liminalzone
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    you can take the man out of the ed hell but you cant take the ed hell out of the man...

    #this is a JOKE hahaha im doing swell #i actually am fr. just had a realisation abt maybe why i feel like i have more energy when im restricting #jqhehajjsjdh oh my gd SEE. u can't take the ed hell out of the man im using our cutesy little words ajdhuahaidjs #its not on purpose anymore mostly I just to feel.... physically okay......... #sticks speaks#eating tw#tw eating#food tw#tw food#hunger tw#tw hunger #i mean just for blacklisting. im güd
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  • bellerona
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    [Title]

    Four corners — five, actually

    Where the closet juts forward

    From the wall in an obscene way —

    Shape the world I’ve found myself in

    The solid table, the solid chair, the solid bed

    It’s all I have since come to know

    With the small inkling of a moment

    Where a new stranger passes by

    And suddenly I’m starved for the interaction

    The need to know who they are, what they do,

    How do they fill their time?

    I’m not sure I can continue to fill my own

    Time like this in a small lamp

    Slowly letting sand fall away until

    It is nothing at the top

    And you are all at the bottom.

    Branches scratch at my window

    And there’s a small sense of sonder

    In the world passing by

    The once white buds now vibrant green lives

    On a renewed tree in coming spring

    The headlights of a car casting shadows

    Daintly, faintly across the lawn

    As if it’s own signal that they too exist.

    I wish I knew what I could do without these walls

    The worlds I could see and the lives I could lead

    Simply beyond the shell

    I have since sheltered

    Myself in.

    #doorbelle#poem #I’m just thinking #it’s nothing good and my words feel bland #I haven’t written in forever but that’s okay #I guess #it’s fine it’s fine I’m just getting this part out
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  • hopepoint
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I might cry... I’m almost done and I am so excited!! just a few more things to add and the second chapter should be done!!!

    #my eyes hurt oml #literally 700 words was what was blocking me from finishing this chapter and im so happy #the power of the writing gods compelled me bless up #at 4.8k words she needs about 1k more and with a little bit of editing should be done!!
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  • anemometer
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    wip dont rb thank u

    oh WOW this looks so much brighter on my monitor anyway im so SAD AUUGHGHGH

    #wind howls #im not even gonna tag anything related 2 the source bc i really do not want ppl to rb it . i am working on it #im on a bit of an art roll bc i finished a whole thing like 2 days ago but it was a genshn thing that i refuse 2 post here #i dont trust people on here. i kinda wanna post it on instagram but itd be kinda silly like #'hi ive been inactive for a year and most of you know me from drawcast which is now dead. wanna see men boobies' #so uh. ive yet 2 post it #anyway im tired so im gonna stop drawing rn but i will finish this and post it here mark my WORDS.
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  • dumbas-writes
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    I hate life;

    But when I'm around you, I felt alive.

    #love quotes #writers on tumblr #books & libraries #dark aesthetic #dark acadamia aesthetic #lovecore#loveyourself #poets on tumblr #life quote#my words#writing#greek mythology
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  • streetsn
    18.05.2021 - 1 hour ago

    It feels like I’m always in outer space.

    Nothing feels real.

    I feel like I’m not even here.

    #words words words #i dont know #my words
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