sick to bastard fucking death of no one in my house having any integrity whatsoever vis a vis keeping public spaces clean so once my husband leaves im gonna do a couple of chores so it doesn’t look and feel so horrible in here
if my mother wants to be such a jerk then fine. guess i'll do my best to live by her example—only when she's nearby to see it, of course.
I thought I could give TS2 another try (I have the ultimate collection but I always played it for like an afternoon and gave up because it was overwhelming - not in a bad way but still, overwhelming), but it doesn't want to run on my current laptop and I'm too dumb to understand the tutorials that tell you how to fix it 😅 But it had worked on my old laptop, so I turned it on to install it there again...but now the laptop is throwing a tantrum, yay. Guess me and TS2 just aren't meant to be 😂
I won’t lie; sometimes I get too tired of being ignored to keep trying.
I just woke up like, mid anxiety, like I woke up in a down/stressed/bad BPD period, but it’s so weird because I’m not really in that space, and as soon as I wake up and get started it goes away, and it’s so jarring and scary, I’m just tired ugh
at least I’m finally seeing my doctor tonight, so hopefully some of the issues will be resolved soon ~
Tbh I'm not a big fan of the whole prison thing I'll be honest
It started off so good with c!Dream finally being taken down by his victims and being put in prison and c!Tommy/c!Ranboo/c!Tubbo immediately seemed so free. It was cathartic. Abuser thrown in prison, abuse victims finally free
But then we get: c!Ranboo isnt actually free, c!Tommy gets stuck in prison/has his safe haven stolen/gets murdered by his abuser which results in more trauma and then its revealed c!Dream is going to be tortured daily in prison and it's like... :/ I dont want to feel sympathy for c!Dream, I couldnt care less what he's going through in prison
I thought the prison would be a normal prison and he'd eventually just escape but Nah and then we had the rise of c!Dream sympathetic stuff and the guilt trippy "ur a shit person if you celebrate c!Dream being tortured" posts I just dont enjoy it jfkfkf
The only good thing about it is it gives us more insight into c!Quackity n c!Sam's characters and how morally Fucked they are
((I looked at memes for like 2-3 hours... I slept ALL day yesterday and I cannot get myself to do anything... Fucking sucks. Guess I’ll sleep some more.
I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself I wish I was fucking dead it’s so fucking awful to be alive I have to suffer all the fucking time I’m in so much pain and I just don’t want to wake up anymore
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I feel so empty all the time I know why but also I don’t want to be alive anymore
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【 Trigger warning ;; derealization and intense hallucinations.
In fact; none of you guys have to read this, because I'm really only doing this because I feel like if I don't vent it out somewhere it might happen again, but I don't know who to tell. I just need to act of telling what happened, but I actually don't want anyone to freak out or get worried for me.
So just got out of sleep paralysis. I think that's the best way to describe it. At first I was having a nightmare, but I honestly don't feel 'scared' when I get nightmares. I just think 'oh, I'm dreaming. Psssh, this is all fake then. I just have to wake up and all this freaky shit will go away.'
But then, I woke up in a sleep paralysis state and I started to see the sleep paralysis demon looming in my room staring intensely at me. This isn't my first rodeo do I was like, 'Touché, brain. Putting me in sleep paralysis and forcing me to look at something scary. Whatever, I'll just think of something that makes me happy and then I won't have to deal with this.'
Then my brain just changes the sleep paralysis demon into a grotesque version of the thing that makes me happy. If it was a humanoid character, they would have wide eyes, stare at me, and appear to be screaming.
I was only having visual hallucinations, not auditory so even though they looked like they were screaming, my room was still just dead silent.
Sometimes the demon would gently grab me on my left arm, because my right arm was under a blanket. I like how the demon was actually rather polite when it came to touching me lmao
Eventually, I did wake up and now I'm here 😅
I don't know why that happened. I haven't had nightmares in forever, like ever since I was a kid, forever. I would have 'scary' dreams that were silent hill-esque, but I never had this dreadful feeling. If I got chased by a monster I was more like, 'hey, wassup?' I never felt scared in these 'nightmares'.
I don't think I'm stressed. I'm seriously not worried about anything and nothing life or livelihood threatening is happening to me.
Is this a side effect of the vaccine??? It's the only thing I can think of because my side effects were basically when I was 'really sick' again and when I was 'really sick' I was frequently hallucinating.
Geez, I really did jinx myself when I said I was feeling better— 】
oop depressing stuff under the cut, don't need to read :^(
tbh I don't want to be alive right now ahhhhhhh
I just hate everything about myself and my situation and just wanna
disappear. IDK IDK IDK
Just vanish, go away
go into the forest, fall into the moss and let the bugs and wildlife devour me to the bone
I can't do this anymore...
i literally can’t stop crying now. it starteed out just bc of the bullying bht but that just hopened up a lot of shit and now im just sitting here crying and i dont think i have anyone tot alk to about this bc i dont wannt be annoying bc ikj this is just being annoying bc is holdnt still be letting this bother me so much but it is bothering me a lot cause internets suppose to be my safe space and now its not and id ont know waht to do
i just want to feel safe and happy and im not anymore>??? i ahte this