some cute thinspo 🖤
some cute thinspo 🖤
Wake up around 5 for work
Get home from work around 12
chores then leave for gym (Burn at least 600 cals, then go in sauna)
come home and read 40 pages
soup (100 cals)
Finish cleaning out closet
go to bed by 11 (Hopefully)
(Extra food i’m allowed one of: light and fit greek yogurt, protein bar, crepe, or pastry crisps)
I wish I could look like this again (pictures of me at the end of my first major ed episode)
nine more fucking pounds to go until i’m at my ugw oh my god
I was on ed Twitter today and they were all talking about cannibalism….
Playing Russian roulette with whichever one of my bad habits kills me first yeehaw
you fat fuckingbitch you couldnt even finish a 16 hr fast you used to finish 30 hr fasts you arent really determined to be skinny are you you could care less i bet like come on fatty you werent even hungry it was just a straight up craving so shut up starve and do it right before you cut to punsh youselfand you dont want that right? then stave ugly :)
i weighed myself at 125.4lbs today. i ate 500 calories and burned off 500 calories in walking so i don’t really know how to feel about it. i guess since i just started my period i shouldn’t feel shitty abt eating slightly more than usual or worry about burning extra cals since my period is gonna do that for me idkkk im like stressed out :(
one of the worst things about anorexia is the competitiveness that's not even wanted
like at the end of the day my brother will go on about how he "hasn't eaten anything yet" or that he forgets to eat
meanwhile i spend every waking minute of my life thinking about my next meal and food in the house
it makes me feel horrible if i'm honest
HOW DO I BREAK A PLATEAU HELP
Ya’ll saunas are so nice. Like i worked out for like an hour ish and i burned about 600 cals, I went in the sauna for like 15 minutes after and it felt so nice, it gives my muscles a break and sweat out a lot (kinda gross) but it feels so nice after. Then I take a cold shower and it feels soooo amazing, i highly recommend if you’re gym has one.
i feel like eating disorders are often showed as this eager and ravenous thing, and that’s not how mine is at all. mine is more longing, precise, and detached from the world. While there is definitely the voice in the back of my head that eggs me on, it’s more pulling and luring rather than pushing and forcing. it’s all about how i can make it fit rather than how i can change. i feel in control of this chaos as it controls me.
my uncle: “are you reading a book?”
me who’s scrolling through ed tumblr: “well yes but no-”
7/23/21 Food Log
Post Work-Out: 70 cal
Coffee w/ creamer
Lunch: 254 cal
Apple Cider Vinegar warm drink
One Apple Poptart
Dinner: 188 cal
Hot and Sour Soup w/ wonton strips
One piece General Tso’s Chicken
Snacks: 410 cal
Double cereal w/ coconut milk
Honey in tea
Blood Sugar PickUp: 215 cal
Half Cookie and sour gummy worms
Wasn’t going to count cause my bf really didn’t want me to, then I got super low mentally so I did.
Total Calories: 1137 cal
Workout Calories Burned: 500 cal
FitBit Total Burned: 2000 cal
Roughly, had to take it off to charge
I ALMOST binged on the General Tso’s Chicken, but stopped myself after one piece! Managed to stay within 1200 calories which I’ve been debating allowing after fasts!
Completed my 24 hr fast this time! Sadly didn’t do as long of a workout. Started getting bad blisters and my sister came home.
Going to try to do a three day liquid fast for my three day work stretch. Aka, just protein drinks and Body Armors.
exercise: idk lol
net = 15 ♡
Guys this is so funny I’m sticking with this grown man as an Ana coach just because it’s funny to me and he is omg omg. He tells me good girl when I restrict and as punishment for over eating he wants me to take a spoon and hit my inner thigh or bite soap AND send pics. I cannot make this shit up I’m laughing so hard. When he first said “good girl” I GAGGED.
More Thinspo/Bonespo <3
Knowing that this is possible, that I can reach this makes it so worth it. <3
Is anyone a part of the ED insta community? I haven’t been on there in yeeeaaarrrsss and I kind of wanna go back. Is it still going like tumblr is? How toxic is it compared to twitter?
I’m fucking disgusting, once I start eating I cannot stop.
Took a 30min walk with my dog and a yoga class.