I had a nasty hangnail tear about a week or so ago and on Sunday I had hypergranulation tissue (the reddish bump) on my finger. This happens when something can’t heal properly and the body produces too much tissue. The tissue has blood supply and is sensitive as fuck. It really hurts! #hypergranulationtissue #sorefinger #ouch #pointerfinger #ithurtslikehell
but they’re scented and made out of crushed ant insides
Klaus tagging Ben and everyone else wondering why cause it’s a selfie
made myself some ginger tea but I can’t stir it because the spoon’s too hot
Right in the croth!
I guess this marks the end.
I’ll miss it.
I’m angry as fuck. At you for making me think I had a chance, when you obviously never intended to do the things you said. At myself for ignoring the signs, hoping for an alternative explanation. You cross my mind a thousand times a day; a thousand stabs in the chest and reminders I’m not good enough.
“I miss you”
“I promise I will stand by your side”
What fucking bullshit
I’m so hurt. I knew this was coming, but now it’s here it stings so much more than I thought it would. I guess I was just a rebound all along. I cared about you so much and you knew that, all unrequited. I guess I can’t help that, but knowing it doesn’t ease the pain at all.
I hate myself for still missing you.
It’s going to take a while for these feelings to go, and every day it’ll hurt until they do.
Fuck this. Fuck you. Fucking bullshit.
Tuesday 17th September 2019
The feeling of sickness has always struck me when colder seasons come around, weak immune system. Unable to sleep, or eat, while I am not well. Though, it’s kind of nice to stay home on a school day, when I am to be expected to go anyways.
Autumn weather is still far away, but hopefully it’ll be here soon. I’m not sure why I’m talking about my day as if it’s ended, it’s only 8:04am in the morning.
Have a lovely day my loves.
“(…) And you let go because you have to stop being selfish. There is someone out there wanting to love the person you’re holding onto and they deserve to feel this genuine love from someone and not a pity love from you.”
I just watched the first episode.
It is so good! I’m going to go watch some more
Well your Chou-mun seems to be immobile for a while. I’m gonna hopefully set up the laptop so I can reply properly. Thanks for being patient with me and keeping positive thoughts!
He tries to sleep again and wonders when the pain will end
The cuts they may run deeper than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes at all the people hypnotized
And wonders what can save him from his self-created hell
“When you give so much and it’s not enough, the highs are too high and the lows are too low,”
— Louis Tomlinson, Don’t Let It Break Your Heart (2019)
Me: I don’t know. I’m just not confident in my ability to redraw this figure. I’m afraid it’ll look worse the second time I do it.
Professor: Do you want to be a lazy illustrator? Because to me it kinda seems like you do.
And I wish I could agree with you