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  • pandora15
    30.07.2021 - 12 hours ago

    oh wow the braincell’s really going back and forth today huh

    #slow days at work have a tendency to do this to me #like i literally haven't done anything at all since logging in #there's just. nothing. #am i just wasting my life away like this? #i just stare at computer screens all day in my childhood bedroom #like sure i have a bit of a social life now #i'm going out with some friends tonight #which is something definitely to look forward to! #but idk there's just like. nothing in my everyday life that i'm particularly excited about #i guess the good thing is that i now know that it's all gonna change in a few months #and i just have to look forward to that #like now i know that there's a timeline #that i will be moving out and things will be better after that #they have to be better after that #i love my family. i really do #but i can't be here anymore #pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    30.07.2021 - 1 day ago

    okay so i kinda mentioned this lowkey a few times but basically i was (am?) doing a bit of dating a few months ago, went on a series of dates with this one person until he wanted to kiss and i freaked out and was like “no” (i am uh. very new to this and trying to figure myself out so. y e a h)

    and at the time he was chill about it but then we kinda stopped texting a week or so later, so that’s that.  i’m more relieved about it than anything because it was so awkward xD

    but anyways, i decided to go back into it a bit today (dating apps, i mean), and i’m chatting with this one guy and he keeps asking me what i’m looking for and i was like “well. i’m new to the whole dating thing so nothing too crazy or fast? just trying to get to know people.”

    which is true, btw. and then he asked what i’m not looking for, and i’m like “????? i think i made it pretty clear what i’m not looking for???”

    so i kinda said that and then asked him what he was looking for because clearly there’s some level of miscommunication going on here or something.  he needs to be more specific because my braincell can only do so much in a night.

    and now he’s not replying so LOL that was weird

    #or i'm just missing something obvious #which is likely but hblergh idk this is weird #pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    30.07.2021 - 1 day ago

    my jaw hurts.

    ow.

    #mood swings my detested #my brain is going all over the place and i need it to shut up now #head full too many thoughts #pandora's ramblings #also ow my jaw
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  • thebeautyoffandoms
    29.07.2021 - 1 day ago
    #also heck yes. no apologies allowed #especially cos wowie did i ramble- #anyway. so many thoughts on these guys. not even in the fact that they're best friends but could definitely be enemies- but even many #**thoughts on the fact that they're. still master and servant #leo was /obligated/ to take care of elliot and i think that's hilarious. i want to see more of it #(the fact too that Elliot protects Leo in fights- i.e. with the Baskervilles-) #(i know Leo is a valet and i don't think their job is to fight for their master but- master protecting servant is probably #(something mochijun enjoys pffff) #h0llyw0lly#pandora hearts
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  • pandora15
    29.07.2021 - 1 day ago

    hot take but it boggles my mind that there are youtubers like star wars theory who are able to essentially write and read out loud “fanfiction” in a video and then make money off of that (either indirectly through merch or just number of clicks, etc). and they don’t get in legal trouble for that?

    meanwhile actual fanfiction writers have to be super super careful to make no profit off of their own gift, and they put in all this time and effort into Actually Writing their stories (instead of just filming themselves talking about it)

    and yet, people like swt are the ones making money like that, no problem.

    am i misunderstanding the situation here, or does anyone else find this really strange?

    #thinky thoughts#pandora's ramblings #i think i noticed this a while back but never really talked about it or anything #maybe it's just that there's a difference between Actually Writing a fanfic and just dictating/talking about it? #i don't really know
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  • pandora15
    28.07.2021 - 2 days ago

    heavy breathing noises

    #i've watching this tick up closer and closer to 1k over the past few days and i'm. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i'm shook y'all #pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    28.07.2021 - 2 days ago
    #i literally cannot stop smiling #i've got a lot to do now but it's all good things #and i am just so happy to be here finally #pandora’s ramblings
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  • pandora15
    28.07.2021 - 2 days ago

    also i’m,,,,, happy? so happy :’))))))

    finally got the news i’ve been waiting for, after all this time.  and i’m so happy ahhhhhh thank goodness

    like i feel like my life is finally moving forward again, instead of me just being stuck in this one place and feeling so trapped.  i can live.

    i can’t stop smiling :)

    #god i've been so depressed lately and i really REALLY needed this #and i'm so glad that we're here finally #now just gotta hope that things don't go sideways #(please after the year and a half we've had. no more sideways okay?) #:')))))))#pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    28.07.2021 - 3 days ago

    Highkey wish there were more clone wars/star wars prequels zines (yes because I do want to write for one eventually) and that there would be one that showcases writers more than artists

    #i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again #the artist to writer ratio on most zines is ridiculous #but also i understand why it’s like that. because of printing costs #but then there should just be more digital zines? #like there are so many incredible writers in this fandom #they all deserve it. /we/ deserve it. #anyways that’s where my braincell is at rn lol #pandora’s ramblings
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  • pandora15
    27.07.2021 - 3 days ago

    you know what i’m really sick and tired of in fandom?

    the term “mary sue”

    it’s like. okay sure you don’t like the character and whatever, that’s on you and your interpretation of the story, but to call any character that term is to demean their journey, their character arc, and call it meaningless.

    when the fact is there are people out there who love that character more than anyone else.  people who will see you call that character a mary sue and feel upset to see other people calling them that.

    their absolute favorite character that they really love so much, and other people are just. invalidating all of that completely?

    so please, can we just stop with that?

    #i'm also tired of people completely invalidating other people's experiences in fandom #but that's a separate thing and i'm too tired to talk about it #and to clarify: it's totally fine to not like a character for whatever reason. that's your experience and it's valid #my problem is just when people decide to use an insulting term to describe a character. when that character may very well be loved by others #do you know how much more peaceful it would be around here if people just talked to each other respectfully? no insults or bullying? #or anything like that #*sighs* #okay anyways i've ranted enough #pandora's ramblings#fandom
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  • pandora15
    27.07.2021 - 3 days ago

    every day, i have vague ideas for things i wanna write but make very little progress on the things i’m supposed to be writing.

    rip.

    #though i did make some good progress on broken part 5! #but my braincell is poking me like ''hey kotf is supposed to be a standalone but like. what if???'' #and then the other part of me is like ''nO IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE DONE.'' #but there's like. a clear obvious thing that i could write. that i kinda /want/ to write #in the kotf universe #but should i do it? #i'm not so sure #pandora's ramblings #anyways i have so many other ideas that i came up with years ago that i haven't even started yet #hblergh #i wish i could write faster and better #pandora’s ramblings
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  • pandora15
    26.07.2021 - 4 days ago

    sometimes i grieve for the person i would’ve been if chronic headaches and whatever else is wrong with me weren’t actually a thing

    #i'm having a headache again and i'm really sleepy and i'm trying to work #and i'm just imagining how /nice/ it would be if things were better #like damn i really have been going through this for like. a long time. what the fuck. #but also i kinda think i'd have a completely different perspective on life in that case #and i'm not sure that would necessarily be better? #idk #would i not be who i am if i changed myself? or would i be someone else? #ajkdflasf it's too early for an existential crisis #anyways my brain hurts and i wanna crawl back into my bed #pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    25.07.2021 - 6 days ago

    got to meet up with some friends and do some fun day trip stuff!  i had a really fun time :’))))

    but usually things like this end with me getting a headache, and as expected: brain pain. ow.

    #it doesn't hurt much when i distract myself so i'm trying to keep myself busy right now #i should probably get started on this assignment but it honestly sounds like a tomorrow morning kinda thing #so i'm gonna just chill for now and then focus on school stuff tomorrow #and then monday it's back to work #i've been thinking that my headaches are related to light? so i may be photophobic or something idk #and i spent a lot of time outside walking around and stuff and i feel like that's usually the situation that leads to a headache #either way it's an ow from me #but today was so much fun and i'm on cloud nine #had some really good food!!! and good company!!! and it was just so fun and nice to be social again #so yeah i'm happy :'))) #pandora's ramblings
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  • jamesqueerpotter
    24.07.2021 - 6 days ago

    Timothée Chalamet and Elle Fanning as Regulus Black and Pandora Lovegood may just be one of marauders tiktok’s best ideas.

    #ignore me while I ramble #regulus black#pandora lovegood #regulus x pandora
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  • jamesqueerpotter
    23.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    The way that tiktok made me fall for Regulus x Pandora so easily is entirely unfair!

    #ignore me while I ramble #regulus x pandora #regulus black#pandora lovegood#harry potter#the marauders #they just give me so many feelings
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  • pandora15
    23.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    *pokes braincell* write

    #i don't think i've written anything at all this week #it's high time i get my act together because uh. i need to write #i guess i'm not feeling much inspiration right now to write #maybe i should just open a doc and see what happens #hmmmmmm#pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    21.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    professor: "are you feeling powerful and pumped up, now that you've learned these skills?"

    me, learning this for probably the second or third time: "no, my head hurts and i feel like throwing up or crying. or both."

    #i deliberately took this course because i took one of the hardest classes i've ever taken in the spring and i needed some familiarity #for my summer class #and it's a good class for that #but my mental health is currently in the dumpster and i'm struggling to stay awake in class #and i'm on video so #i mean theoretically i could walk away for a sec and come back and nothing would happen but i'm so tired #i am struggling so much to stay awake #pandora's ramblings #prof: ''do you feel good about yourself?'' #me: ''quite the opposite really''
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  • pandora15
    21.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    fifteen minutes to the start of another 3-hour class, and my head hurts

    #also i am sleepy #almost fell asleep during work today and again just a minute ago #today was just. bleh. #i'm so tired #wish i could skip but attendance is mandatory #hblergh#pandora's ramblings
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  • pandora15
    21.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    let’s make up a hypothetical (ish) fandom situation

    there are two characters that we’re gonna focus on here: character X and character Y

    now, typical of most fandoms, I would say that there are people who really like X, people who really like Y, people who like both, people who like neither.

    something we all need to remember is that people form emotional connections with characters when they first interact with media.  maybe it has to do with what they’re going through at that point, which allows them to connect to one character more than another.

    maybe it’s because of their own life experiences and how they can relate that to what they see the character go through.

    maybe it’s just vibes. maybe it’s maybelline

    regardless.

    if someone likes a character that you do not like, you should not a. disrespect them for it, and b. make generalizations about people who do like that character.

    if you don’t like character Y, for example, and you encounter someone who does and for whatever reason, the interaction doesn’t go well.  that does not mean that literally all people who like character Y are going to treat you the same way.

    that does not give you the right to go around insulting anyone who feels a deep emotional connection to character Y, anyone who feels as though character Y helped them through some of the most difficult times in their life.

    (yes i’m talking about myself and obi-wan)

    anyways, that’s what I’ve been seeing lately and it really hurts to see it.  that’s what has been upsetting me so much about recent happenings.

    it is absolutely, totally fine for anyone to dislike character Y.  what is not okay is deliberately going after people for doing so, taking words out of their mouths, insulting them and anyone else for just liking character Y, and not leaving them alone even when they ask.

    this is a fandom.  of course collectively, we are allowed to have different opinions about characters, ships, etc.  but we have to respect each other and understand that everyone has a different background, a different experience with their interaction with canon and the story at large.

    #fandom #how to fandom #fandom discourse#pandora's ramblings #i've been holding back on not talking about any of this at all and yet #also my braincell is totally off-kilter so idk if any of this makes sense but. i need to say something i feel like #i just think that treating people with respect goes a long way #they have a different opinion than you? okay great. have a debate about it. but don't insult them or anyone who has the same opinion as them #that only makes things worse
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  • pandora15
    21.07.2021 - 1 week ago

    still laughing about the one time i was reading a fic out loud on vc and I said “grandmother” instead of “grandmaster” LOL

    #okay but obi-wan can totally be a literal grandma sometimes alright #i'm just kasjdfklkaskdlfak about it #in my defense though i think it was like really late #pandora's ramblings
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