Standing where I am,
I feel like a stranger to myself,
Living like a machine,
Trapped and chased by the hands of the clock,
It’s exactly what I never wanted life to be,
Rushing for my tutions,
I have no time for my passion,
Between formulas and numericals,
I feel like I’m losing my imagination,
Trying to study when my a minds elsewhere,
Starring at my textbook because I can’t understand,
Here I am, learning theories,
When my fingers crave to write stories.
I try to focus I really try,
But my loud head takes the better of me,
The diamension of force, the spin of an electron,
I want to concentrate on them but I really can’t,
Physics, Chemistry, Biology,
The subjects that I choose for me,
And yet everyday I can’t help asking myself,
Have I made my life’s biggest mistake.
- Astha Vianna Toppo
I’m be honest. I didn’t like soccer before. I played it but didn’t think much of it. I grew up in a Hispanic family, it was the only thing we played. My family would watch the world cup every 4 years, I didn’t care about it. We watched men’s soccer. Then one day, I turned the TV on, curiosity came over me when I saw USA play agaisnt Sweden in the 2015 Womens World Cup. That is when I fell in love with soccer.
When I’m not working or at school, Soccer is everything. I play it, watch it, and I even play FIFA. I rewatch games even if I’ve watched a million times, I watch motivational videos of the womes team.
I have no friends, I watch soccer on my own. When I’m not in practice, I play it alone. It gets lonely, but the way I see it. When I’m either watching, playing or talking about it.. I’m in my happiest. Because if when I had no one or anything, I had soccer. It’s my safe place.