Paul McCartney - Press
Paul McCartney - Press
i have nothing to say
john lennon writing "you are here" on the wall for his balloon party with yoko onon in 1968
john lennon at tittenhurst park in 1971
john lennon and yoko ono protesting on the northern ireland/justice for oz march in 1971
john lennon arriving to sign books with yoko ono in 1971
john lennon and yoko ono signing books for fans in 1971
john lennon changing his clothes in a car in 1971
yoko: "he just wanted to strip"
john: "i didn't want to strip!"
john lennonn after rehearsing his song "imagine" in his personal studio in 1971
john lennon in his studio at tittenhurst park with yoko ono in 1971
“I understood what happened when he met Yoko. He had to clear the decks of his old emotions. He went through all his old affairs, confessed them all. Me and Linda did that when we first met. You prove how much you love someone by confessing all that old stuff. John’s method was to slag me off.”
Paul McCartney private conversation with Hunter Davies (1981)
This part of Paul’s conversation with Hunter Davies has always really struck me for a variety of reasons.
Firstly, the whole conversation with Hunter is really striking because I think it’s the most vulnerable Paul has ever been on record, or at least amongst the most vulnerable, as there are some interviews he did around Linda’s death that are similarly raw. I know there’s some speculation about whether or not Paul knew Hunter would publish their conversation but just the fact that Paul admits exactly how much John’s comments hurt him and how a lot of his insecurity goes back to John’s attacks on him as a musician is so counter to the way he always downplays negativity in most of his mainstream interviews so I do think we get a rare glimpse into an emotional, raw and vulnerable Paul here.
In the part of the conversation I’ve highlighted there are so many questions that come to mind:
How did Paul know John and Yoko went through their old affairs?
John and Yoko discussing their past relationships sounds like a really intimate topic of conversation, I’d be surprised if it was a conversation they struck up in the middle of Abbey Road or in Paul’s presence either at Tittenhurst Park or Cavendish Avenue, so how did Paul know about it? Did John tell Paul about having this personal conversation with Yoko? Did Yoko tell Paul? If either John or Yoko told Paul about this extremely intimate part of their relationship why would they do that? Did Paul’s name somehow get brought up in their conversation?
Why, in his own telling, is Paul connected to John and Yoko going through their old affairs?
In his conversation with Hunter Paul stated “You prove how much you love someone by confessing all that old stuff. John’s method was to slag me off”. So in the mix of confessing his old affairs to Yoko, slagging off Paul somehow became a way for John to prove his love. What does slagging off your song writing partner, band mate and friend of over a decade have to do with confessing all your emotions? Paul also said that John had to “clear the decks of his old emotions”, is Paul, in his own roundabout way, confessing that John had emotions for him that he had to submerge to be in a relationship with Yoko? If John had to “clear the decks of his old emotions” to be with Yoko, I don’t think it’s possible that those emotions could be purely platonic, otherwise why would they jeopardise John’s new relationship with Yoko??
What does this tell us about the Paul and Yoko dynamic?
Just before the excerpt I’ve quotes above Paul also mentioned this about John’s insecurity that I find striking regarding Paul’s relationship with Yoko:
“We grew to be equals. It made him insecure. He always was, really. He was insecure with women. You know, he told me when he first met Yoko not to make a play for her.”
So according to Paul, John warned him off Yoko - was that typical for John? John knew Paul before he met and started going out with Cynthia, did he warn Paul off her too? I find it interesting the way Paul words this, it’s not “when I first met Yoko, John warned me off her” or “not long after John introduced me to Yoko, he warned me off her” it’s “when he first met Yoko”, forgive me for reading too much into this but for decades Paul has been insisting that he met Yoko prior to John, most people have taken that as Paul’s attempt to prove that he was the first Beatle to really explore the avant-garde scene, which I think it absolutely is but, is it possible that something happened between Paul and Yoko before Yoko and John started seeing each other? Maybe in the course of confessing their old affairs Yoko told John that something happened with Paul and that’s why John felt compelled to warn Paul off, because he knew that Paul had been interested in Yoko in the past, this wouldn’t be the first time something like this happened I think similarly when Ringo started going out with Mo he warned Paul off as Paul and Mo had gone out previously (think that was mentioned in Tune In). I think there are stories from Yoko being in the studio, where John would be afraid to leave her alone with the other Beatles, they even went to the toilet together, it’s possible that was just to take the heroin that was getting delivered to the studio but maybe it was also John’s paranoia that Paul might woo Yoko away from him if he left them to their own devices, John was a jealous guy after all and I think Paul knew, and tried to express to Hunter, that he had first hand experience of it.
All in all, I think it was a shitty thing of Hunter to publish this conversation without Paul’s knowledge but as a Beatles fan and someone fascinated by Paul and the private and public battle he faces in terms of how, if ever, to show his vulnerability and negative emotions, this conversation is essential. If it wasn’t already obvious from their weddings being 8 days apart, Paul makes it obvious here how connected the John and Yoko partnership were to the Paul and Linda one. I think it’s time the wider Beatles discourse moves away from only quoting the “manoeuvring swine”, “Martin Luther Lennon” and “fairground hero” sections of this conversation, from my point of view that’s been done to death now, Paul was rightfully angry at John due to the fall out from the break-up, Paul idolised and looked up to John initially then as he grew up and grew out of his teen hero worship, John felt insecure. Maybe we should now talk about how intertwined the change in John and Paul’s personal lives were from 1968 onwards, why they got married so closely together, why they both worked with their wives as their primary collaborators after their partnership ended, why John always seemed to compare Paul and Yoko to each other... If Paul could talk about this 40 years ago, what are we waiting for??
6:14 PM EDT September 19, 2021:
Paul McCartney & Wings - "Hi, Hi, Hi" From the album Wings Greatest (November 10, 1978)
Last song scrobbled from iTunes at Last.fm
Sorry I haven’t been posting!
Work has been really rough on me but I’ve left now and plan to post a lot more often! (Speaking of which, I have just uploaded a new post, go check it out!)
Imagine~ modern AU
John and Paul go to their first concert together as a couple. Throughout the entire show, Paul was struggling to see the band playing and was constantly jumping up to try and see them. John ended up placing him on his shoulders to watch the band and stoke some kisses through out the night.
Bonus~ Paul waved at one of the band players and they waved back. Though John was jealous, he was very happy for his boyfriend.
Through out the day, John and Paul kept bumping into another couple called George and Ringo. They saw them queuing up for the concert. Then bumped into them again in the bathroom, getting drinks and eventually ended up watching the show together.
why does this sound like the intro to an a/b/o fic
Officer: What are your names?
Pete: Do NOT tell him Paul!
Officer: *writing down* Paul…
Paul: Wow thanks Pete!
Officer: *writing down* Pete.
Stu: Wow you both really do share one brain cell…
Paul and Pete: SHUT UP STUART!
Officer: *writing down* Stuart.
Paul and Pete: Shi-