#personal stuff Tumblr posts

  • woodlandharts
    25.10.2021 - 27 minutes ago

    I sure do love feeling like a third wheel whenever I hang out with my sister 🙃

    We were suppose to meet up with a mutual friend yesterday, stop at a new wine shop that opened in town, then pick up sushi (that I graciously offered to pay for in full). I also offered to bring snacks and some homemade baked goods that I had prepared the day before.

    So I'm waiting around for her to let me know when our friend says he's gonna come over and then I'll meet them at her house.

    I finally get a text from her, saying they're on their way to the store. And that they just left a restaurant. Without me.

    Ouch.

    So I tell her that I was wanting to go with them and that I was under the impression that we were gonna get sushi and eat together (I intentionally hadn't eaten yet so that I could have a meal with them). She says oops it was last minute, another friend of theirs tagged along, it's easier to just to the 3 of them now. Shell let me know when they're home and I can come over...

    I explain that I feel like I'm being left out and it feels really shitty.

    She brushes my feelings aside and insists I bring a card game and the baked goods and the Malibu I had mentioned I had earlier. Complete disregard for how shes making me feel.

    If it weren't for the fact that I needed to get rid of the stuff I baked or else it will just go stale I wouldn't have gone at all.

    I constantly feel like an unwanted addition with her and I'm always taken advantage of. She only wants what I can supply her. What I bring to the event. She doesnt actually want ME there..

    I feel like shit.

    #personal #sad boy stuff #she makes me feel so pathetic and unwanted #but im lonely and bored so what else am i gonna do 🤷🏼‍♂️
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  • effetia
    25.10.2021 - 42 minutes ago

    listen. okay i Know what i said in the past about my one coworker being the worst storyteller in existence but i need to retract that statement and nominate a new candidate: New Coworker. they're both accomplished monologuers, but the New Coworker has a real knack for excruciatingly detailed expositions with way too much information that take upwards of thirty minutes of continuous talking to get through

    #note that i do not typically have thirty minutes to spare in a day for listening to personal anecdotes #but i'm also tragically bad at disengaging from stuff so i get trapped by her a lot #and it's fucking exhausting too like i want to pay attention so bad byt it's SO much information #and i have to stand there and mentally sort through which things are important to the story and which things aren't #ARGH
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  • starsandthorn
    25.10.2021 - 43 minutes ago

    actually it is so funny to me that childe stayed in the domain Twice. shiki taishou showed off his house and childe is like cool. i live here

    #personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #ik it might be for a different reason but agshdfh #he said i came out here to attack people and honestly I'm having a great time
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  • esperastra
    25.10.2021 - 1 hour ago

    good morning to everyone except the people being rude in the tags of shows, ships, movies, etc.

    #pls i'm a nice person but this is just so annoying #i mean in tags i look through a lot i can just block them but if i just check out a tag of a show or stuff for fun it's oof
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  • lover-of-ar-rahmaan
    25.10.2021 - 1 hour ago

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    #having free time just feels weird #i'm going to start learning farsi #and possibly some excel stuff and power bi #personal
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  • peachpitss
    25.10.2021 - 1 hour ago

    it usually takes a trowel to dig up the dirt, but your bare hands work just fine - 4,528 words T+ rating - Chara & Frisk - Gen fic Your hair’s a mess, sweat-stuck to your forehead and grown out a bit more than you usually like. But despite everything, it’s still you. “And you.” What? “█ █ █ █ █.” See, that isn’t anything. There’s nobody else here. It’s you!

    //

    Life on the surface isn't the happy ending that Chara had imagined.

    #undertale#chara#frisk#asriel #posting UT cringe in the middle of the night on a work night? #it's more likely than you think #i just wanted to experiment w/ 2nd and 1st person POV and stuff ! #my writing
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  • awoooer
    25.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    mfw my cat helping me w my dermatillomania a little bit :)

    #it was kindof bad earlier but then he came to cuddel w me and ive been just petting him for like a half hour #and i feel so much better and less inclined to pick and whatever and he is purring #i like to pet him and just feel how soft his fur is and the funny little shapes that cats r made up of.. #also since im used to big dogs im so not used to how small cats bones feel and like #THAT SOUNDS WEIRD but but but i mean like. the ridges on his spine and his shoulder blades and stuff #it is just so interesting. he is so interesting #dog person adopts a cat and is so fascinated by every single thing #arf arf
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  • bunchabears
    25.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    annie......is in wuv.........

    #i know i dont usually post personal stuff on tumblr anymore but #:) #i am....DATING...somebody i love a lot
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  • hhjs
    25.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

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    #personal stuff #it's so hard to stop caring about him i dont know why i was (am???) so in love with him #like yea we have our differences but you know when someone takes refuge in your heart it's really not so easy to put them away #i mean even as a friend (lol) i care so much about redacted i hope he has a good life and if he ever needs my help i would #there are parts of him that are good #but theyre overpowered by his tendency to be deceitful #i feel bad for him and it's easier to hate someone because that way you cant love them #and this rlly fucked me up ngl i dont feel a thing for anyone #p
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  • starsandthorn
    25.10.2021 - 2 hours ago

    i really love this new event. we finally get xinyan screentime, there’s yet another powerful entity that’s lost all of their memories and abilities probably foreshadowing something terrible, and childe cannot go two sentences without talking about how much he wants to fight

    #personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #ashfdsgjf GOD. #guoba and now shiki taishou. what's going on mhy #also xinyan saying wow paimon your memory isn't that bad after all during the memory conversation. dont say that #anyway childe is so excited to be in the kill domain. literally he's like a kid in a candy store. having the best time of his life #he really said fuck the fatui i live in this domain now
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  • the-daemons-kitten
    25.10.2021 - 3 hours ago

    Is very good vodka

    And yes there is an actual piece of grass in it

    #my post#personal#tw alcohol#vodka #this stuff is really nice #fingers are tingly
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  • kween-coda
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago
    #this is adorable #by talos etc #by talos #a kind traveler #anons#traveling anon #send me cute anons #send me anything #answering everything#inbox open #send me asks #good omens #send me stuff #ask me stuff #personal#mine#late nights
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  • silverstudios
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Doodle dump from over a bit.

    So um, the map is just me wanting to mess around with a map.

    The scientist is Dr. Gift, a little scp character I made a day or so ago. I found a recent new favorite scp article thingy (scp-1440) and I made her after.

    The little doll being is a little big planet oc because I found Vex from a YouTube video and I adored him enough to make a character.

    And these final three came from a story I wrote Ages ago and I wanted to try to draw them again. I will say that the line art for Nitro and Nat came from my friend @theundeadmemelord , I just made the characters and colored them. The girl is Diana, and I re-did her character art since I wanted too.

    #random doodles#art dump #Just a bunch of random stuff together #SCP#scp oc #i guess? #little big planet #little big planet oc #random personal stuff
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  • pepprs
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    omg not to post abt this likei used to not on principle but now i can’t help it like ughhhh… have i not suffered enough to have someone around me to like hug and k*sd and hold hands w and stuff what the FUCK

    #the thought of having to suffer for several more yrs…. like idk. i just am a little crazy rn i need to be hugged so bad i don’t even feel li #like a human rn like what if i told everyone fuck what my mom said and fuck covid can you please give me a hug bc i love you and i love hugd #and then what if they did it… absolutely insane thst that could jus t like happen to me lol. what if i could just make that happen #bc i could actually. like omg not to say dumb shit but part of me is so scared Something Bad Will Happen and i’ll never get to hug x person #again and i couldve i just passed it up bc i was following arbitrary covid rules bc mommy made me and no one else was doing it but i missed #out on the hug and now they’re gone or whatever.that’s sk fucked up to put into the universe im sorry and also sorry for how crazy my posts #are today i just am lonely and kinda insane abt wanting to claim my own life but feeling stuck and trapped and mad at my mom who things have #actually been fine w this week but im so pissed at all the stupid rules like why did i have to be born into this particular life with these #particular constraints and why do i have to do so much work to power past them when i am alrea dy so taxed by so many other things. FUCK!!! #anyways. rbing stuff now and i have a mtg at 11 omg. 😘😘😘😘😘😘 #purrs #ask to tag #delete later #? im insane and crazy #death tw#paranoia tw #??
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  • starlightshore
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    i assume i still have DP fans following, ye? well. thinking of making a horror au short comic or something. probs not happening for a while but ye. already thinking about how to go about it

    #i don't really follow dp blogs cause i don't wanna get sucked into the fandom (nothin personal i just get obsesive easily) #but i do have one exception and now i'm like HMMM OK BUT WHAT IF I UPDATED MY OLD electric au take #hMMMmmm#personal stuff#dp talk
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  • hazyjellyfish
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    4.0

    hello world, it is 1:30 am on a sunday night (monday morning?) life feels a bit wonky lately. i've felt really good since saturday night but all day saturday i felt like a piece of shit because i was having an anxiety attack for 3 straight hours at work and when i get really anxious but can't go release it (meditate, or usually just cry), i have this bad habit of itching the back of my left hand until it's raw. i kind of developed it after my first breakup, because i had to see them face-to-face every day despite the whole event going down. anyways, i was fixated on doing that in between customers and couldn't do the other parts of my job that i usually get done quickly, and i apologized so many times to my coworker for my lack of productivity, because i knew it would make us run late. they simply said "it's okay" the first time, and i came back from my lunch break, sniffling, a little bit of mascara staining my eyes from "asleep" by the smiths, which, as you don't know, is my primary end-of-the-world song, which i reserve for days that i can't help but to allow mental illness to beat me to a pulp. when i was in this messy state, i apologized again, so sincerely that my voice was barely a whisper. i could literally feel the energy in the room soften, and everything felt a little warmer around me. reassurance ensued that i needed to hear so dearly, that the bustling business around me was the primary cause for our lack of progress which would end up with all of us getting out an hour later than scheduled. i don't want to bore you with my work, anonymous reader, but i simply cannot stop thinking about all of the kindness that this one specific person has shown to me over the past month of them being employed. do you ever just meet someone, and you don't want them to go away? because i know in the field of work i'm in, people come and go constantly, but i can't help but to cling onto them not following the others in that regard. i wish they knew how much they've helped me since we met, most of it indirectly; little jokes and banter and smoke breaks and late nights all add up into this big bundle of security that's dangerously balancing on a cliff. i know one day it will fall, and break open, and i will have to deal with all the emotions that this joy is covering up, but for right now, i could not be any more grateful for this new person to come into my life and join the small circle of people that can comfort me so gently. my post wasn't going to be about this at first, but typing as i go when my brain is silently screaming every second of the day leads to some funny things. on the topic of brains; can you see things, images, in your mind? because i can't. i've learned over the past 2 weeks that it's called aphantasia, and it really helped me in the sense that i've never had visualization meditations work for me because i... can't visualize. when i close my eyes, i see tv static, but it's all this weird, dull assortment of colors. i envy people who can visualize, especially as someone who wanted to get into visual art. it's impossible for me to focus on a full art piece when i can't even imagine my own concept.

    well, lovely reader, thank you for reading. nobody read this, i know, (except i don't know. maybe one or two people. s/o if you're one or two people.) (wait) (that doesn't work)

    goodnight tumblr diary,

    -anon

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  • busylilbee
    25.10.2021 - 4 hours ago

    Really excited to see TSA's reaction to my extra large (10 cup) tupperware container with a full loaf of banana bread in it

    #i have an 11 hour flight tomorrow #which im not super looking forward to #but i AM looking forward to seeing my extremely elderly grandma and great aunt #i anticipate tsa is going to pull my banana bread to be scanned separately so im factoring that into my plans #even though i cut it up #fyi you should always take all you food out of your bags when going through airport security #or like the big things especially bags of snacks #bc depending on the airport and staff of the day theyll want it out to inspect it (shake it and feel it) #so if you just do that auutomatically it can save you time #if in doubt just ask hey do you want me to take my food out? #sometimes i ask and theyll ask what it is and say yes or no #but my current local airport always wants the food out like they usually call that out with their other instructions #its a major airport #(one of the 9 11 ones so theyre extremely touchy about this stuff) #personal
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  • aceofnowhere
    25.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    it’s rainy out there

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  • jetsi
    25.10.2021 - 5 hours ago

    Being gnc online is so fun but in real life every time i walk past a group of intimidatingly cishet people i put my hands in my pockets so no one can see my nail polish and i look down so they cant see my makeup and i straighten my jacket to make myself look squarer and i lower my voice and and and

    #like #its so complicated to be queer and visibly queer and to not fit the mold in any way #and i do wish i was idk a lityle braver about it #because i do want to be the visibly queer person i never had as a Young LGBT #and in a lot of ways i am #bc i have a lot of younger trans #etc ppl who i talk to and help with buying clothes and getting to tge right resources and stuff #anyways what this all means is basically im sad that even at this point where i Am confident in my identity and i am confident in my body #i still have to be careful how i present that
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